The band eclipsed their previous success with their 2006 concept album, The Black Parade, which gained generally favorable reviews among music critics. Their fourth studio album, Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys, was released on November 22, 2010, to positive reviews. The band's final release in their original run were a series of singles, released over the course of five months, collected on the compilation Conventional Weapons. The band announced its break-up on March 22, 2013, one month after the final release in the Conventional Weapons series. On March 25, 2014, the band released May Death Never Stop You: The Greatest Hits (2001–2013), a greatest hits album containing material spanning their entire career, as well as some previously unreleased material.
On Halloween of 2019, the band announced a comeback show in Los Angeles, California, and fans speculated that there was more to it than just a show. On November 5, three more shows were confirmed in Australia, New Zealand and Japan. On January 29, 2020, eighteen additional dates were announced in North America.
On May 12, 2022, the band released The Foundations Of Decay, solidifying their return as a band.
03 This is how i disappear
My Chemical Romance Lyrics
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To un-explain the unforgivable
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show
By streetlight this dark night
A séance down below
There're things that I have done
You never should ever know
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now
Who walks among the famous living dead
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed
And if you could talk to me
Tell me if it's so
That all the good girls go to heaven
Well, heaven knows
That without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now
Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out
I'm really not so with you anymore
I'm just a ghost
So I can't hurt you anymore
So I can't hurt you anymore
And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, fuck
So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you
Well now so, you can
And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear
Whoa whoa (and without you is how I disappear)
Whoa whoa (and without you, is how, is how, is how)
Forever, forever now
My Chemical Romance's song "This Is How I Disappear" paints a dark and foreboding picture of personal suffering and the drive to escape it. The opening lines speak to the gravity of the singer's actions: "To un-explain the unforgivable/Drain all the blood and give the kids a show." This appears to be a reference to some personal sin or crime that the singer has committed and is attempting to escape from. The following lines indicate that the escape is manifested in a kind of isolation that the singer has chosen: "And without you is how I disappear/And live my life alone forever now."
The song then switches perspective, speaking about someone who is doing harm to others: "Who walks among the famous living dead/Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed." Perhaps the singer is speaking to this person, and asking them to confess their sins. However, the song then turns once again to the singer's own isolation: "Words I thought I'd choke on figure out/I'm really not so with you anymore/I'm just a ghost/So I can't hurt you anymore." It seems as though the singer is reflecting on a past relationship, how their attempts to relate were harmful, and how the only way to escape that is to "disappear" from that person's life entirely.
The song ends with a display of defiance, and a recognition that isolation is not necessarily peaceful: "And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?/Let me go, fuck/So, you can, well now so, you can/I'm so far away from you/Well now so, you can." Overall, the song speaks to a deep-seated pain and a need to escape from it, by any means necessary.
Line by Line Meaning
To un-explain the unforgivable
To attempt to justify or rationalize actions that are inherently wrong and cannot be undone
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show
To put on a spectacle that appears entertaining on the surface, but is fueled by pain and suffering
By streetlight this dark night
Amidst the darkness and uncertainty of the night, with only the dim illumination of a streetlight
A séance down below
A supernatural ritual held in an underground location
There're things that I have done
I am burdened by my past mistakes and the guilt that comes with them
You never should ever know
I am afraid of being judged or rejected if I were to reveal the truth to you
And without you is how I disappear
You are the only thing that gives my life meaning and purpose, and without you I am lost and alone
And live my life alone forever now
I am resigned to a life of solitude and despair without you by my side
Who walks among the famous living dead
Refers to someone who is famous or successful, but feels empty or dead inside
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed
To use sex and intimacy as a way to control and manipulate others
And if you could talk to me
I wish you could communicate with me and help me understand what went wrong in our relationship
Tell me if it's so
Confirm whether the things I suspect or fear are actually true
That all the good girls go to heaven
A common expression that implies a morally upstanding person will be rewarded in the afterlife
Well, heaven knows
A sarcastic phrase that emphasizes uncertainty and doubt
Can you hear me cry out to you?
A plea for emotional support and understanding
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out
To struggle to voice one's thoughts and feelings, but eventually find the words to express them
I'm really not so with you anymore
I have become emotionally detached and distant from you
I'm just a ghost
I feel like a mere shadow of my former self, and no longer feel alive
So I can't hurt you anymore
I am removing myself from your life because I fear causing you pain or harm
And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
A rhetorical question that challenges someone to witness the depths of one's misery and self-destruction
Let me go, fuck
An expression of anger and frustration towards someone who is holding onto or suffocating one's life and freedom
So, you can, well now so, you can
A begrudging acceptance of the fact that one must let go and move on from a painful situation
I'm so far away from you
Physically or emotionally removed from someone who was once close to me
Forever, forever now
An acknowledgement that my current state of being may be permanent, and the future holds only uncertainty
Lyrics © BLOW THE DOORS OFF CHICAGO, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Bob Bryar, Frank Iero, Gerard Way, Michael Way, Ray Toro
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@giulia7825
Lyrics
GO!
To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show
By streetlight this dark night,
A séance down below
There're things that I have done,
You never should ever know
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now
Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed
And if you could talk to me,
Tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven
Well, heaven knows
That without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now
Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out
I'm really not so with you anymore
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore
And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, fuck
So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you
Well now so, you can
And without you is how I disappear,
And without you is how I disappear,
Whoa whoa (and without you is how I disappear)
Whoa whoa (and without you, is how, is how, is how)
Forever, forever now
@asscake6316
GO!
To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show.
By streetlight this dark night,
A seance down below.
There're things that I have done,
You never should ever know!
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed.
And if you could talk to me,
Tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows
That without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore.
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore.
And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, fuck!
So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you.
Well now so, you can.
And without you is how I disappear,
And without you is how I disappear,
Whoa whoa... (And without you is how I disappear)
Whoa whoa... (And without you... is how, is how, is how...)
Forever, forever now!
@KristyBass
[Intro]
Go!
[Verse 1]
To un-explain the unforgivable
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show
By streetlight this dark night
A séance down below
There's things that I have done
You never should ever know
[Chorus]
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now
[Verse 2]
Who walks among the famous living dead
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed
And if you could talk to me
Tell me if it's so
That all the good girls go to heaven
Well, heaven knows
[Chorus]
That without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now
[Verse 3]
Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on, figure out
I'm really not so with you anymore
I'm just a ghost
So I can't hurt you anymore
So I can't hurt you anymore
[Bridge]
And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, fuck!
So you can
Well, now, so you can
I'm so far away from you
Well, now, so you can
[Outro]
And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear
Forever, forever now
@regardingdean
hears intro
waits
*screams GO*
@scottscott8123
*hears
@astral-xd5zi
same 😂 Ps. Your profile pic....
@soph1823
Excuse me while I eat this mic NOOO NOT THE MIC!!!!!!
@ashc3504
Same
@scottscott8123
Yay you edited it
@xx_zrx_xx
Gerard: hey kids wanna see a magic trick?
Kids: yeah :D
Gerard:
@ohblivian
Underrated comment
@CsWoolfMusic
😂
@garpu_9187
this hurts