Delusion
N.Y. Alliance Lyrics
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Crunched inside the bus, I wrote em' raps up in the rear
I've been the highest in the room, felt like I wasn't even here
I was smoking, drinking, conscious slipping down into that beer
I be always switching spots, always shifting gears
Always asking where the hell is heaven on this mighty hemisphere
Why God do you choose to make me suffer
The priests told us white lies one another
Seen people buying more than they could afford
Same people on the streets that be praying to the Lord
With the same loan sharks left em' rotting on the floor
All this green got me feeling real hazy
Seen so many crazy bitches that'll always hate me
Knowing I keep pushing with whatever I bring
But a push is enough to make my soul cling
A fool's delusion, ill illusions, filled with filtered lies
Judas making alibis, deceiving to the afterlife
Lucy wanna sacrifice my heart and tongue, there ain't no chance
Rappers want the smoke, indulge in dope, until they lungs can't expand
I seen em' grand mansions, on demand
My time is slowly sinking to the depths of the sand
God better pray for my soul, I need the strength
Otherwise I'll faint into the hands of a-
All my friends really want me to change
Yeah, these punchlines make a man forget his name
Was there a lesson when he fired off his weapon
The answers to that question lives inside the skies of-
The lyrics to N.Y. Alliance's song "Delusion" delve into a range of emotions and themes, exploring fear, escapism, spirituality, the struggle for survival, and the consequences of one's actions. The opening lines convey a sense of fear that the singer has always felt but never fully expressed. The image of writing raps in the back of a bus suggests a form of escape and self-expression.
The next lines express a feeling of dissociation, of being high but not fully present. The singer turns to vices like smoking and drinking, using them as a coping mechanism as their consciousness slips away. There is a constant restlessness and search for meaning, as they ask for the location of heaven on this vast earth.
The following lines bring up themes of suffering and deception. The singer questions why God would make them suffer and criticizes the lies told by priests. The mention of money as a double-edged sword highlights the consequences of material wealth. They observe people buying beyond their means and later finding themselves in desperate situations, praying for help.
As the song progresses, the lyrics touch on personal struggles and the singer's encounters with difficult relationships. The mention of "green" refers to envy and jealousy, as they have encountered many people who harbor resentment towards them. Despite facing these challenges, the singer continues to push forward, driven by their creative pursuits. However, even a slight setback has the power to deeply affect their soul.
The lyrics take a darker turn when the singer mentions "Judas making alibis" and someone named Lucy wanting to sacrifice their heart and tongue. These references imply betrayal and manipulation, as well as the temptation to indulge in destructive behaviors. The mention of grand mansions suggests a stark contrast between their own sinking time and the opulence they witness.
The lyrics conclude with a plea for strength and salvation from God, as the singer feels their soul is at risk. The line about friends wanting them to change suggests the pressure to conform or lose oneself in the pursuit of success. The final lines allude to a question that holds the answer to something meaningful, residing in the vast skies.
Line by Line Meaning
Fear, I've always felt it, never made it clear
I have constantly experienced fear, but I have never expressed it openly.
Crunched inside the bus, I wrote em' raps up in the rear
While cramped on a bus, I wrote my rap lyrics in the back.
I've been the highest in the room, felt like I wasn't even here
I have been under the influence of drugs and felt disconnected from reality.
I was smoking, drinking, conscious slipping down into that beer
I was indulging in smoking and drinking, allowing my consciousness to fade away.
I be always switching spots, always shifting gears
I am constantly changing my environment and adapting to new situations.
Always asking where the hell is heaven on this mighty hemisphere
I frequently question the location of heaven in this vast world.
Why God do you choose to make me suffer
I wonder why God selects me to endure pain and hardship.
The priests told us white lies one another
The priests have deceived us with false truths and hidden agendas.
Money is a double-edged sword
Having money can bring both benefits and drawbacks.
Seen people buying more than they could afford
I have witnessed individuals purchasing items beyond their financial means.
Same people on the streets that be praying to the Lord
The same individuals who pray to God are now homeless on the streets.
With the same loan sharks left em' rotting on the floor
Those loan sharks have left them helpless and suffering on the ground.
All this green got me feeling real hazy
Having money has left me feeling confused and uncertain.
Seen so many crazy bitches that'll always hate me
I have encountered numerous unstable individuals who will forever hold animosity towards me.
Knowing I keep pushing with whatever I bring
I am aware that I continue to strive and persevere with whatever I possess.
But a push is enough to make my soul cling
A little encouragement is sufficient to make my soul hold on tightly.
A fool's delusion, ill illusions, filled with filtered lies
I am trapped in a foolish and distorted perception, full of manipulated truths.
Judas making alibis, deceiving to the afterlife
People betraying me like Judas, making excuses and leading towards eternal deception.
Lucy wanna sacrifice my heart and tongue, there ain't no chance
Lucy, representing temptation, desires to destroy my emotional depth and voice, but I won't allow it.
Rappers want the smoke, indulge in dope, until they lungs can't expand
Other rappers seek conflict and indulge in drugs until it takes a toll on their health.
I seen em' grand mansions, on demand
I have witnessed extravagant mansions that can be obtained easily.
My time is slowly sinking to the depths of the sand
My existence is gradually fading away, like sand slipping through my fingers.
God better pray for my soul, I need the strength
I hope God will pray for my soul and grant me the necessary strength.
Otherwise I'll faint into the hands of a-
If not, I will collapse into the hands of unknown consequences.
All my friends really want me to change
All of my friends hope for me to undergo a transformation.
Yeah, these punchlines make a man forget his name
These powerful and impactful lyrics have the ability to make someone lose their identity.
Was there a lesson when he fired off his weapon
Was there a meaningful message conveyed when he shot his gun.
The answers to that question live inside the skies of-
The answers to that inquiry are found within the limitless skies.
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Stephen Hummell
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