Therapy Session
NF Lyrics

Yeah, I gotta say like a month ago
Recently, I had a conversation with fans

I was talking to fans
I was engaged in a discussion with my supporters

And one of them pulled me aside and said
One of them approached me privately and expressed

"We never met but I swear that you know who I am
"Even though we've never met, I feel like you understand me

I been through a lot
I have faced various challenges

I don't know how to express it to people
I struggle to communicate my experiences to others

Don't think that I can but I got that Mansion CD on rotation
But I find solace and connection in listening to your album "Mansion" repeatedly

That's real for me Nate, you do not understand"
This music is deeply meaningful and relatable to me, Nate, and you may not fully comprehend its impact

It's crazy for me
It astonishes me

Kids hit me up, say they slitting they wrists on the daily
I receive messages from young people saying they self-harm regularly

This music is more than you think
My music holds a greater significance than you may realize

Don't book me for just entertainment, it's entertaining
Don't categorize me as mere entertainment; my music serves a purpose

Hearing these parents, they telling their kids
Parents are telling their children

My music is violent, you gotta be kidding me
That my music promotes violence, but that's absurd

I guess that your definition of violence and mine
It seems that we have differing definitions of violence

Is something that we look at differently
We perceive it in contrasting ways

How do you picture me, ah?
How do you imagine me?

Want me to smile, you want me to laugh
You expect me to exhibit happiness and joy

You want me to walk in the stage with a smile on my face
You desire me to enter the stage while wearing a smile

When I'm mad and put on a mask, for real though
Even when I'm angry and pretending to be someone else

I mean, what you expect from me?
What are your expectations of me?

I'm tryna do this respectfully
I'm attempting to handle this situation with respect

They say that life is a race
People claim that life is a competition

I knew my problems'll probably catch up eventually
However, I am aware that my issues will catch up with me at some point

I do my best to be calm
I strive to remain composed

How you gon' write me and tell me you'd slaughter my family?
How dare you send me a message saying you would harm my loved ones?

That's just a glimpse to the stuff that gets sent to me
That's just a fraction of the disturbing messages I receive

These are the parts of my life that'll never see, woo
These are the aspects of my life that will remain undisclosed

This girl at the show looked me in the face
During a concert, a girl made direct eye contact with me

And told me her life's full of drama
She confided that her life is filled with turmoil

Said that her dad is abusive
She disclosed that her father is physically or emotionally harmful

Apparently he likes to beat on her mama
Allegedly, he takes pleasure in assaulting her mother

I got so angry inside
I felt intense anger within me

I wanted to tell her to give me his number
I had the impulse to ask her for her father's contact information

But what you gon' do with it, right?
However, what could I possibly do with that information?

You gon' hit him up then he'll start hitting her harder
If I were to reach out to him, he would likely inflict more harm on her

These kids, they come to my shows
These young people attend my concerts

With tears in they eyes
With tears streaming down their faces

Imagine someone looking at you
Imagine someone gazing into your eyes

And saying your music's the reason that they are alive
And revealing that your music is what keeps them going

Sometimes, I don't know how to handle it
Sometimes, I struggle to process this overwhelming experience

This type of life isn't glamorous
This kind of life is not glamorous

This ain't an act for the cameras
I am not pretending for the sake of the cameras

You see me walk on these stages but have no idea what I'm dealing with after it
You witness me performing on stage, but you are unaware of the challenges I face afterwards

I put it all in the open
I expose all of my struggles and vulnerabilities

This is the way that I cope with all my emotion
This is my method of managing and processing my emotions

I'm taking pictures with thousands of people
I'm capturing photographs with thousands of individuals

But honestly, I feel like nobody knows me
Yet, honestly, I feel as if nobody truly understands who I am

I'm trying to deal with depression
I am attempting to navigate through depression

I'm trying to deal with the pressure
I am striving to manage the weight of expectations

How you gon' tell me my music does not have a message
How can you assert that my music lacks a meaningful message?

When I'm looking out at this crowd full of people I know I affected?
As I observe this crowd of individuals who I know I have impacted?

Ah, I got some things in my life, I know I should let 'em go
Ah, there are certain things in my life that I acknowledge I should release

Let me jot it down, let me take a mental note
Let me write it down, let me remember

I put it all in this microphone, think about that for a minute
I express everything into this microphone, consider the significance of that

What is the point of this song, I'm just venting but what you expect from a therapy session?
The purpose of this song is to simply let out my emotions, but what do you anticipate from a therapy session?

What you think about me
Your opinion of me

That doesn't worry me
Does not concern or bother me

I know I handle some things immaturely
I acknowledge that I deal with certain things in an immature manner

I know that I need to grow in maturity
I am aware that I must develop and mature

I ain't gon' walk on these stages in front of these people
I will not step onto these stages in front of these individuals

And act like I live my life perfectly
And pretend that I lead a flawless life

That doesn't work for me
That approach is not suitable for me

Christian is not the definition of what perfect means
Being a Christian does not equate to being perfect

I ain't the type to be quiet
I am not the kind of person to remain silent

I ain't gon' sit here in silence
I will not stay here in silence

If I wouldn't say what I say to your face
If I wouldn't express what I say directly to you

Then I promise you I wouldn't say it in private
Then I assure you, I wouldn't say it privately either

I am not lying
I am not being dishonest

People go off on my page and I'm trying to quit the replying
People frequently argue on my social media page, and I'm attempting to refrain from responding

But this is ridiculous
However, this situation is outrageous

I'm passionate man, I really mean what I'm writing
I'm a passionate individual; I sincerely mean what I write

You want me to keep it a hundred? Okay, I'll keep it a hundred
You desire me to be completely honest? Fine, I'll be completely honest

I see a whole lot of talking on socials
I witness a significant amount of talk on social media

But honestly, I don't see nothing in public
But honestly, I don't see any genuine action in the public sphere

I kinda love it, yeah
I actually appreciate it

"Why don't you write us some happy raps?
"Why don't you write more uplifting and positive songs for us?

That would be awesome
That would be fantastic

All your music is moody and dark, Nate"
All your music is melancholic and somber, Nate"

Don't get me started
Do not even begin to discuss that

You wanna know what it's like if you met me in person?
If you want to know what it's like to meet me face-to-face?

Listen to my verses
Pay attention to my lyrics

This music is not just for people
My music is not solely for individuals

Who sit in the pews and pray at the churches
Who attend church and engage in prayer

I won't reject it
I won't dismiss it

I don't expect everyone to respect it
I don't anticipate everyone to appreciate or understand it

I don't expect you to get my perspective
I don't expect you to comprehend my viewpoint

What you expect from a therapy session?
What do you anticipate from a therapy session?

I mean, I think sometimes people they confuse what I'm doing
Sometimes, people misconstrue my intentions

I write about life, I write about things that I'm actually dealing with
I write about my experiences, the things I'm truly grappling with

Something that I'm actually experiencing, this is real for me
These are genuine moments that I am currently living through, this is my reality

Like this is something that personally helps me as well
This is something that aids and supports me personally

I'm not confused about who gave me the gift
I am not uncertain about the source of my talent

God gave me the gift and he gave me the ability to do this
God bestowed upon me this gift and the capability to utilize it

And he also gave me this as an outlet
He also provided this as a means for me to express myself

And that's what music is for me
That's what music represents to me

When I feel something, whether it's anger
When I experience emotions, whether it's anger

Um, it's a passion about something, or frustration
Or a strong desire related to something, or frustration

Like this is where I go, this is, that's the whole NFrealmusic thing man
This is my escape, this is the essence of NFrealmusic

This is real for me, I need this, this is a therapy for me
This is authentic to me, I rely on this, it serves as therapy for me