Darkness Defined
Nadia Nakai Lyrics

You know you're the cause of the pilgrim call
You understand that you are responsible for causing others to seek guidance and solace through religious journeys or pilgrimages because of the harm you have caused them.

You lost lost lost
You feel lost and without direction due to the severity of your actions and the consequences that have followed.

And in your words I’m crucified
The way you speak to me and about me feels like a betrayal, like you are nailing me to a cross and leaving me to suffer a painful death.

And in your course I'm glorified
Despite the hurt you have caused me, you continue on your destructive path and it brings you pleasure to see me suffer because of it.

Why not take my heart make it what you want
You suggest that if I give you control over my emotions and desires, then maybe I will be able to survive your manipulation and mistreatment.

Maybe then I'll survive
You are unsure if you can make it through this difficult time, but you are willing to try anything to escape the emotional pain you are experiencing.

Without the beating inside
You wonder what is the cost of giving up your own desires and closing yourself off from the world in order to protect yourself from further pain and betrayal.

What would be the cost of my mind being lost
You question what price you will have to pay for losing your sense of self and your agency in this situation.

You are darkness defined
You acknowledge that you have become a beacon of negativity and destruction, causing pain and suffering to those around you.

Let’s go back you so sad
You reminisce about how sad and pathetic your life once was before you started causing havoc and pain to others.

Should've told your bitches and hoes to fall back
You regret not setting boundaries and making it clear to those who betrayed you that their actions were unacceptable.

Now I got your clothes your shoes it's all packed
You have reached the point of no return and are ready to remove this person from your life completely.

Yo you gotta go this home is so cracked
You realize that your life has been damaged and destroyed by this person and that it is time for them to leave.

The walls I can't patch the life I can't plan
Despite your attempts to rebuild and repair your life, there remains damage and destruction that cannot be undone.

The wife you can't have just slipped through your hands huh
You taunt the person who has hurt you by suggesting that they have lost someone special and important because of their own selfish actions.

Was it worth all that you had huh
You question whether the person who hurt you truly gained anything of value through their actions or if it was all for nothing.

Wait tell me why you mad now
You express curiosity about why the person who hurt you is upset now that they are facing the consequences of their actions.

Oh it's just a one night stand huh
You mock the person who hurt you by suggesting that their actions were fleeting and meaningless, and that they will ultimately mean nothing.

Nigga I hope that you strapped up
You express sarcastic concern for the person who hurt you, suggesting that they should have taken steps to protect themselves from the consequences of their actions.

You're a joke you should go do stand up
You belittle and ridicule the person who hurt you, suggesting that their actions were laughable and ridiculous.

Kevin Hart fall short with a pre nup
You compare the person who hurt you to a celebrity famous for their marital troubles and suggest that they too have failed in their relationships.

They say Angels fall
You reference a common phrase that suggests even those who are seen as good or holy can succumb to temptation and fall from grace.

Those are the words
You note that these words hold a deeper meaning and significance to you personally.

You lied lie lie
You call out the person who hurt you for their deceit and dishonesty, highlighting how their lies have led to your current situation.

All you can give me is an apology right
You express frustration and disappointment at the limited options the person who hurt you has for repairing the damage they have caused.

When all I ever wanted was your honesty
You reveal the true extent of your hurt and betrayal, expressing a desire for the person who hurt you to have been truthful and open with you from the beginning.

It didn't bother me every time that you calling me
You reveal a past where you were more tolerant of the person who hurt you, even when they were in contact with other women.

I hear your bitches audibly
You reveal how the person who hurt you has been constantly surrounded by people who have betrayed you and caused you pain.

All of them are my wannabes
You express your supremacy over those who have hurt you, highlighting how they all aspire to be like you but fall short in their actions.

I'm everything they wanna be
You revel in the idea that those who have hurt you are envious of you and aspire to be like you.

You see that shit ain't quality
You express your disgust at the way the person who hurt you has conducted themselves, highlighting that their actions are not befitting of someone of high quality or class.

You couldn’t even cheat right like properly
You mock the person who hurt you for their lack of skill and success in their deceitful actions.

Tell me did it feel right in my property
You confront the person who hurt you about their betrayal and question whether they had any remorse or guilt for their actions.

While I'm on the damn flight changing currency, shit!
You highlight that you were not even present for the person who hurt you to cheat on you, indicating how disrespectful and unacceptable their actions have been.

I'm winning like colossally
You reveal that despite the pain and hurt caused by the person who hurt you, you are still thriving and succeeding in your own life.

And I'm tired of playing games like monopoly
You express your exhaustion with the constant cycle of hurt and betrayal you have been subjected to, highlighting how it has become like a meaningless game to you.

I'ma sit this one out with the referee
You express a desire to remove yourself from this situation and allow an impartial third party to mediate or judge your conflict.

'Cause I finally figured out you a fraud to me
You express your realization that the person who hurt you has been a fraud all along, that they pretended to be someone they weren't and deceived you in the process.