Vicious and Spungen spiraled into deeper drug abuse, punctuated by domestic violence within which Vicious brutally attacked Spungen. Their relationship ended violently on October 12, 1978, when Spungen was found sprawled on the bathroom floor of their hotel room, dead from a single stab wound to the abdomen, later traced to a knife owned by Vicious. This was reportedly a "007" hunting knife he had obtained after seeing Dee Dee Ramone give one to The Dead Boys' Stiv Bators, although conflicting reports claim the knife to be a Jaguar K-11 with a five-inch blade. Vicious was immediately arrested and charged with second degree murder. Vicious pleaded not guilty and was released on bail. Four months after Nancy's death, prison and drug rehabilitation, he overdosed taking a lethal amount of heroin, and died before the trial could take place. After Vicious died the police closed the case. Nancy was buried in her hometown in Philadelphia.
Holidays In The Sun
Nancy Spungen Lyrics
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I want to go to the new Belsen
I want to see some history
Cause now t got a reasonable economy
Oh now I got a reason
And I'm still waiting
Now I got a reason
The Berlin wall
In Sensurround sound in a two inch wall
Well I was waiting for the communist call
I didn't ask for sunshine
And I got world war three
I'm looking over the wall
And they're looking at me
Oh now l got a reason
And I'm still waiting
Now I got a reason
To be waiting
The Berlin wall
They're staring all night
And they're staring all day.
L had no reason to be here at all.
But now I got a reason if's no real reason
And I'm waiting at Berlin wall
I gotta go over the Berlin wall.
I don't understand it
Claustrophobia there's too much paranoia
There's too many closets
I went in before
And now I got a reason
It's no real reason to be waiting
The Berlin wall
I gotta go over the wall,
I don't understand this bit at all
Please don't be waiting for me.
The lyrics of Nancy Spungen's "Holidays In The Sun" are a reflection of her fascination with the Berlin Wall and the events that transpired during the Cold War era. The song opens with the bold statement "I don't want to holiday in the sun, I want to go to the new Belsen," which is a reference to the Bergen-Belsen concentration camp where many Jews were killed during the Holocaust in World War II. She then goes on to say that she wants to see some history because now she has a reasonable economy, which could be interpreted as her acknowledging how privileged she is in comparison to those who suffered during the war.
The Berlin Wall is mentioned multiple times in the lyrics, and Spungen describes how she was waiting for the communist call and looking over the wall while they were looking at her. She also mentions the Sensurround sound and a two-inch wall, which could be a metaphor for how she was in a confined space but could still hear and feel the effects of what was happening on the other side. She talks about how she didn't ask for sunshine, and she got World War III, which could represent her anxiety and paranoia about the political climate of that time.
Despite her fear and confusion, she keeps reiterating that now she has a reason to be waiting at the Berlin Wall. However, she acknowledges that it's no real reason and that she doesn't understand why she's there. She expresses her claustrophobia and paranoia about being confined and watched, but she has an inexplicable desire to go over the wall. The final line "please don't be waiting for me" could be interpreted as Spungen recognizing that her desire to cross the wall is dangerous and could potentially lead to harm.
Line by Line Meaning
I don't want to holiday in the sun
I don't want to go on a typical vacation
I want to go to the new Belsen
I want to visit a historical site, even if it has negative connotations
I want to see some history
I want to gain knowledge by seeing historical events or landmarks
Cause now I got a reasonable economy
I have the financial means to travel now
Oh now I got a reason
I have found a cause to support
And I'm still waiting
I am currently anticipating something to happen
Now I got a reason
I have found a purpose to my longing/desire
To be waiting
To have something to anticipate waiting for
The Berlin wall
The Berlin wall is the cause/purpose of my longing/desire/anticipation
In Sensurround sound in a two inch wall
I feel trapped and the feeling is overwhelming
Well I was waiting for the communist call
I was expecting a governmental shift towards communism
I didn't ask for sunshine
I don't need anything cheerful or positive
And I got world war three
I got an outcome that is much worse than what I wished for
I'm looking over the wall
I am trying to see beyond the blockade
And they're looking at me
The people on the other side are aware of me doing so
They're staring all night
I am being observed continuously
And they're staring all day.
The observation is prolonged and constant
L had no reason to be here at all.
I didn't have a clear motive to be in this situation
But now I got a reason if's no real reason
Now I have a motive, but it doesn't justify the situation
And I'm waiting at Berlin wall
I am waiting for something to occur specifically regarding the Berlin wall
I gotta go over the Berlin wall.
I have a strong desire to cross the Berlin wall
I don't understand it
I am confused with the situation
Claustrophobia there's too much paranoia
I feel trapped and the situation is causing irrational fears
There's too many closets
The situation is causing me to feel claustrophobic
I went in before
I have been in a similar situation
And now I got a reason
This current situation has given me a motive to act
It's no real reason to be waiting
My motive for being here is not justified
The Berlin wall
The cause/purpose of my motive
I gotta go over the wall,
I must cross the wall
Please don't be waiting for me.
I hope no one is expecting me to stay or come back
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: PAUL COOK, STEVE JONES, SID VICIOUS, JOHNNY: SEE, ROTTEN
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