Everything I Want
Nic Jeffrey Lyrics

I sit here staring at my phone
I find myself sitting alone, fixated on my phone, hoping for a message from you.

I kinda wish I weren't alone
In this moment, I'm longing for company and wishing I didn't feel so alone.

Cause I know that you'll never text
Deep down, I'm aware that I won't receive a text from you, and it saddens me.

Who are you moving onto next?
I can't help but wonder who you're replacing me with and moving on to in your life.

I wish we never had that night
Reflecting on our past, I sometimes wish that the night we spent together didn't happen.

but something bout it felt so right
Despite the complications, there was a certain indescribable feeling of rightness in that moment.

And now I'm falling way too fast
Presently, I'm finding myself falling deeply and rapidly for you.

I'm gonna go and break my heart
I know this may lead to heartbreak, but I'm still willing to pursue my feelings for you.

Spending late nights drinking wine
To cope with thoughts of you, I find solace in spending my evenings drinking wine.

Just to get you off my mind
The purpose behind indulging in wine is to momentarily distract myself from thoughts of you.

Cause I know I'll never find
Deep down, I acknowledge that I won't find someone quite like you.

Someone like you
You possess unique qualities that set you apart, making it challenging to find a comparable person.

You act like it's over
In certain situations, you portray a sense of finality and closure.

But that's when you're sober
However, these actions mainly occur when you're not under the influence of alcohol.

Cause when it's a drunk scene
In moments when alcohol is involved, the dynamics between us change.

You say that you want me
During intoxicated moments, you express a desire to be with me.

You're messing with my mind
Your actions and mixed signals confuse and play with my thoughts and emotions.

But honestly that's alright
Despite the confusion, I somehow find acceptance in the situation.

Cause I can't forget you
No matter how hard I try, I simply can't erase you from my thoughts and memories.

And it's just the plain truth
The undeniable reality is that you continue to hold a significant place in my heart.

You're everything I want
You embody everything I desire in a person and a partner.

My friends keep telling me you're bad
Despite my friends consistently warning me about your character, I struggle to listen.

And I don't wanna make them get too mad
I fear upsetting my friends by disregarding their advice and continuing my connection with you.

I tell them that I'm never gonna come see you
To pacify my friends, I make empty promises that I won't visit you anymore.

but everybody knows the truth
However, it's widely understood by everyone that these are merely words and not reflective of my true intentions.

I wish I never got attached
Looking back, I regret allowing myself to become emotionally attached to you.

I know we're not the perfect match
Deep down, I understand that we aren't an ideal romantic pairing.

But every time I see your face
Despite the mismatch, each time I see you, my resolve weakens, and I'm drawn closer to you.

I never wanna leave this place
In your presence, I feel an intense desire to remain where we are, unwilling to depart from your side.

Spending late nights drinking gin
Similar to wine, I indulge in late-night gin drinking as a temporary way to escape thoughts of you.

Cause I know I'll never win
I've come to the realization that I won't triumph or achieve the outcome I desire in this situation.

I'm now the worst I've ever been
As a result of this emotional turmoil, I find myself in a state of despair and anguish like never before.

But it's for you
Despite the hardships, I endure this pain and torment because of my strong feelings for you.

You're everything I want
Once again, I want to emphasize the fact that you embody everything I yearn for in love and companionship.

You're everything I want
You continue to hold the entirety of my desires and aspirations in your existence.

You're everything I want
No matter how many times I say it, you remain the embodiment of all that I long for.