Eclipse
Nic Scarlet Lyrics

I'm intoxicated and the come down got me fried
Thinking about all the people I have hurt when I lied
Thinking about all the times that I made my parents cry
I'm a sick piece of shit call me the devil in disguise
I'm a player but in the game you also get played
Think you got a baddie but the other night she got laid
These college nights remind me of thunder and rain
Tranquility a loud smack then a flash of pain
It's the intoxication with the nicotine up in my brain
With the cuts on my leg they bleed down the drain I keep them hidden broken promises I know I just can't make
But uncontrollable at night I hold my knife as I shake
I handle everything bad and cause a shitty wake
It seems like tensions building up and with a snap it breaks
Staying in the line as everyone slithers snakes
I'm so sick and tired of the ones who are fake
I'm losing my adrenaline
My brain shot from the drugs used as medicine
Switch on an idea like it's Edison
Dissociate, and they tell me stay present
Sleepless nights almost all throughout the month of August
Need some more self control I'm too impulsive
Counted shots to too far down the damn shot list
Freedom granted to my I thought I could have all this
I wanna chill upon the beach while my mind stays racing
Instead I'm stuck in my room just pacing
When I try to calm down by myself I'm shaking
Stare into the distance empty headed I'm gazing
Inhale my anxiety I gotta kick this habit
Got me itching a disease I freak out I don't have it
I want people to get my energy, they don't match it
Want to rid it all cause in the end it is all sad shit
I'm intoxicated and the come down got me fried
Thinking about all the people I have hurt when I lied
Thinking about all the times that I made my parents cry
I'm a sick piece of shit call me the devil in disguise
I'm a player but in the game you also get played
Think you got a baddie but the other night she got laid
These college nights remind me of thunder and rain
Tranquility a loud smack then a flash of pain
Aye, woah aye
Its all a game you don't say
I stay quiet when you ask if I'm ok
Feel shattered on the innards like my bones break
Feeling like a crinkled dollar that the slot won't take
I feel like everything I do is a mistake
Back and forth thinking, choices I can't make
Sixteen pills, rest the bottle makes me shake
I wanna clear my head bury it all in a lake
Feel my body quake as I move side to side
My brain shoots off, I can't join the ride
I feel my eyes shoot, and go up as they slide
I'm seeing shadows move towards me as they glide
I'm running out of motivation shoot up the epinephrine
I tried to choose life cause people call it a blessing
In the end I feel like I'm always being tested
Maybe that's the reason I always feel like I'm stressing
Panic and I scream out
Hey hey
Like a plane crashing down screaming
Mayday
I go and flip a switch like it's
Pause play
Only problem is I know there's no
Replay
I don't wanna die, I'm just so tired of living
I wanted to quit this game ever since the beginning
I thrive in the chaos, throw me right in ninth inning
I'm only ever present when my world starts spinning
I'm intoxicated and the come down got me fried
Thinking about all the people I have hurt when I lied
Thinking about all the times that I made my parents cry
I'm a sick piece of shit call me the devil in disguise
I'm a player but in the game you also get played
Think you got a baddie but the other night she got laid
These college nights remind me of thunder and rain
Tranquility a loud smack then a flash of pain