Moment Of Surrender
Nick Mulvey Lyrics

I tied myself with wire
I bound myself tightly with wire

To let the horses run free
So that I could release my inhibitions and let my desires roam freely

Playing with the fire until the fire played with me
Engaging in risky behavior and ultimately facing the consequences

And the stone was semi-precious
The situation or relationship was valuable but not fully appreciated

We were barely conscious
We were not fully aware or awake to the reality of the situation

Two souls too smart to be in the realm of certainty
We were intelligent enough to question and doubt the certainty of our circumstances

Even on our wedding day
Even during a significant moment of commitment and union

We set ourselves on fire
We willingly placed ourselves in a dangerous and intense situation

Oh God, do not deny her
A plea to a higher power to not reject or abandon her

And it′s not if I believe in love
Love does not depend on my belief

But if love believes in me
It is important for love to have faith in me

Come on and believe in me
Encouraging love to have trust and faith in my intentions

At the moment of surrender
During the critical point of giving up and letting go

I folded to my knees
I humbled myself and submitted to a higher power

I did not notice the passers-by
I was so consumed in my own thoughts and emotions that I was oblivious to the people around me

And they did not notice me
The people around me were also absorbed in their own lives and did not pay attention to me

I have been in every black hole
I have experienced deep and overwhelming emotional darkness

At the altar of the dark star
In a place of worship for the negative forces or emotions in my life

And my body's now a begging bowl
My physical and emotional state is empty and craving for fulfillment

And it′s begging to get back
It desperately desires to return

Begging to get back to my heart
Longing to reconnect with my innermost feelings and desires

To the rhythm of my soul
To the natural flow and expression of my deepest self

To the rhythm of my unconsciousness
To the patterns and instincts that operate below the surface of my conscious mind

To the rhythm that yearns
To the pulsating desire that longs

To be released from control
To break free from the constraints and limitations that constrict me

And I was punching in the numbers
I was inputting the digits

At the ATM machine
At the automated teller machine

I could see in the reflection
I could perceive in the mirrored image

A face staring back at me
My own face gazing directly at me

Of vision over visibility
Of focusing on the inner vision rather than external appearances

I was speeding on the subway
I was travelling quickly on the underground train

Through the stations of the cross
Passing through the difficult and painful stages of a transformative journey

Every eye looking every other way
Everyone avoiding eye contact and looking in different directions

Counting down till the pain would stop
Anticipating the end of suffering and distress

And they did not notice me
The people around me remained unaware of my presence