Regrets
Nicole Wray ft. Jay-Z Lyrics

Stress
The weight of my past actions is causing me anxiety.

Sunshine, geyeah
Despite my struggles, I try to maintain a positive attitude.

I sold it all from crack to o-pium, in third person
I used to sell drugs and I try to distance myself from that past by speaking about it in the third person.

I don't wanna see em, so I'm rehearsing
I rehearse how to react when I see people from my past that I want to avoid.

with my peoples high to GM, from a remote lo-cation
I am hanging out with my friends, getting high in a secluded area.

in the BM, scoping the whole situation like, "Dayamm!"
I am driving my BMW and observing my surroundings, remarking on how dangerous the situation is.

Metamorphic, as the dope turns to cre-am
As the drugs I sold are transformed into another substance, I change my point of view about my past actions.

but one of these buyers got eyes like a Korean
One of my buyers has a suspicious look that suggests they may be a cop or an informant.

It's difficult to read em, the windows to his soul
It's hard to tell what they're thinking or feeling, as their eyes are hard to get a read on.

are half closed, I put the key in
I take a chance and move ahead with the transaction.

Pulled off slow, hoping my people flee-in
I drive the car slowly and hope that my friends escape unnoticed.

Chink tried to knock the only link that tied me in
One of my associates tries to betray me and break the only connection between us.

Coppers was watching us through nighttime binoculars
The police are secretly watching us through binoculars at night.

This time they got us on tape, exchanging dope for dollars
This time, the police have captured proof of us exchanging drugs for money.

Make me wanna, holler back at the crib in the sauna
I feel frustrated and want to shout and vent my emotions in a private space.

Praying my people bailed out like Time/Warner
I hope my friends escaped successfully like people who opted out of Time/Warner cable subscriptions.

Awaiting call, from his kin not the coroner
I am waiting for a call from a friend or relative, not the coroner, indicating they are safe.

Phone in my hand, nervous confined to a corner
I anxiously wait by the phone, feeling trapped and uncertain about what will happen next.

Beads of sweat second thoughts on my mind
I am nervous and reconsidering my actions as sweat drips down my face.

How can I ease the stress and learn to live with these regrets
I wonder how I can reduce the anxiety I feel over my past actions and learn to live with the regret I have about them.

This time, stress, giving this shit up, fuck
I feel stressed out and frustrated with my current situation and want to give up and stop trying.

This is the number one rule for your set
In my community, it is crucial to learn to live with the regrets of past actions in order to survive.

In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets
It is essential to accept and cope with the consequences of past actions in order to move on and survive.

On the rise to the top, many drop, don't forget
As I climb towards my goals, I see many people fall and fail, reminding me of how easily this could happen to me.

And through our travels we get separated, never forget
As we move through life, we may become separated from the people we once had close relationships with, but we should always remember them.

As sure as this, Earth is turning souls burning
As surely as the earth spins, people's souls are burning with pain and regret.

in search of higher learning turning in every direction seeking direction
We are all searching for purpose and direction, but we often feel lost or confused in this pursuit.

My moms crying cause her insides are dyin'
My mom is crying because she is dying inside from worrying about my safety and well-being.

her son trying her patience, keep her heart racin'
I am trying my mom's patience and causing her heart to race with fear and worry.

A million beats a minute, I know I push you to your limit
My mom's heart is racing with fear and worry for me because I often push her to her emotional limits.

but it's this game love, I'm caught up all in it
I am caught up in this dangerous lifestyle and it is difficult to get out of it.

They make it so you can't prevent it, never give it
People make it difficult for you to avoid getting caught up in a dangerous lifestyle, so you feel compelled to participate in it.

you gotta take it, can't fake it I keep it authentic
You have to be real and authentic in this lifestyle in order to succeed, you can't fake it or pretend.

My hand got this pistol shaking, cause I sense danger
I am nervous and fearful because I sense danger and have a gun in my hand.

like Camp Crystal Lake and
The danger I feel is similar to the fear felt by the characters in the horror film series, Friday the 13th.

don't wanna shoot him, but I got him, trapped
I don't want to kill the person I am aiming at, but I have him cornered.

within this infrared dot, bout to hot him and, hit rock bottom
I have my gun trained on my target with an infrared flashlight and am ready to shoot, knowing that it may lead to rock bottom for me.

No answers to these trick questions, no time shit stressing
I don't have the answers to the difficult questions life is throwing at me and I am trying not to stress about it.

My life found I got ta live for the right now
I realize that I need to focus on living in the present moment and not dwell on the past or worry about the future.

Time waits for no man, can't turn back the hands
Time is constantly passing and can't be turned back, so it is important to live in the present and not waste time on regrets.

once it's too late, gotta learn to live with regrets
Once an opportunity has passed or a mistake has been made, it is important to accept it and learn to live with any resulting regrets.

You used to hold me, told me that I was the best
You used to support me and tell me I could accomplish anything.

Anything in this world I want I could possess
You made me feel like I was capable of achieving anything I wanted in life.

All that made me want is all that I could get
Your support made me want to achieve everything I could in life.

In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets (when I was young)
It is essential to learn to accept and cope with regrets in order to survive in life, even when I was young and didn't fully understand this concept.

I found myself reminiscing, remember this one
I find myself remembering and thinking about old times and past experiences.

when he was here he was crazy nice with his son
I remember someone who was really good with their child and had a close relationship with them.

I miss him, long as I'm living he's living through memories
I miss this person and I feel like they continue to live on in my memories of them.

He's there to kill all my suicidal tendencies
Memories of this person help me deal with my own suicidal thoughts and feelings.

In heaven looking over me, or in hell, keeping it cozy
I envision this person either looking down from heaven and watching over me, or being in hell and still watching over me.

I'm coming life on these streets ain't what it's supposed to be
I'm starting to realize that the way of life on the streets is not what I expected or hoped it would be.

Remember Newton, mutual friend well me and him feuding
I remember a mutual friend named Newton, who my current associate and I were previously feuding with.

On your life I tried to talk to him
I tried to communicate with my associate on the life of Newton and our past issues with him.

But you know niggaz, think they guns can stop foe niggas
My associate doesn't listen to reason and thinks that having guns will solve all problems.

Fronting like they're, Big Willie but really old niggas
They act like they're in charge and powerful, but they are really just old and out of touch.

Hoe niggas, this year I'm sho' niggas think I'm slipping
I'm tired of manipulative and disrespectful people and I am confident that this year, no one will be able to take advantage of me.

I'm bought to send you a roommate, no bullshitting
I am about to send another person to be my associate and watch over you, and I'm not joking or playing games.

for my hustle's going too well to hit him
My business is going well and I don't want to engage in violence that could jeopardize it.

You was right niggas want you to be miserable wit em
You were right, many people want to bring others down with them so they are not alone in their misery.

Anyway, I ain't trying to hear it, I think I'm touched
Anyway, I don't want to listen to people who want to bring me down, I think I am in a difficult and dangerous situation.

this whole verse I been talking to your spirit, a little too much
Throughout this whole verse, I feel like I have been talking to the spirit of the person I am reminiscing about a little too much.

Roc-A, Roc-A, Roc-A, Roc-A-Fella y'all
An exclamation of membership in the Roc-A-Fella group and pride in this association.