Always
Nicolette Lyrics

I don't wanna risk another almost
I am tired of coming so close to achieving my goals, only to fall short in the end.

Owe myself more than just so close
I know that I am capable of achieving more, and I owe it to myself to keep pushing forward.

I'm tired of losing you
I am tired of losing the people and opportunities that are important to me.

Then a second later you're laying there beside me
Things can change so quickly, from losing something one moment to gaining something else the next.

Catch my breath ready to be carefree
I am ready to let go of my worries and anxieties and just be happy and carefree.

And then comes something new
Just when I think I have everything figured out, something unexpected comes along.

Like when I almost got on TV
I have had close calls and near misses, like almost achieving a big dream but falling short in the end.

Swore that it was guaranteed
I was so sure that I would achieve my goal, but it didn't turn out the way I expected.

Instead I had to leave
In the end, I had to walk away from the opportunity and accept that it wasn't meant to be.

Hmm
I am reflecting on my past experiences and contemplating what they mean for my future.

Guess I gotta be dishonest
I am considering compromising my values in order to achieve success and be perceived in a certain way by others.

Maybe make my body flawless
One way I could change myself to fit the mold is by altering my appearance to meet certain societal standards of beauty.

For everybody to believe
I want to be perceived by others in a specific way and believe that changing myself will help accomplish that.

It's always almost stopping me
I feel like I am always coming close to my goals, but then something gets in the way and I can't quite achieve them.

Every time I keep a promise
I try my best to keep my promises and achieve my goals, but it seems like something always comes up to prevent me from doing so.

I lose it all ain't that ironic
It is ironic that even though I work so hard to achieve my goals, I often end up losing everything in the end.

I'm living in the in between
I am constantly in a state of flux, never quite achieving my goals but never giving up on them either.

They say moments come so unexpected
Although unexpected obstacles can come my way, it is also true that unexpected opportunities can arise at any moment.

Hold your focus like you're unaffected
It is important to stay focused and persevere even when things don't go as planned.

But how can I ignore
It can be difficult to stay focused when there are so many distractions and obstacles in my way.

Every time that I move forward I go backwards
It often feels like for every step forward I take, I end up taking two steps back.

I should know that jumping is a hazard
Sometimes taking risks and pursuing my dreams can be hazardous and lead to disappointment and heartache.

I keep wanting more
Even though I have experienced many disappointments, I still have a burning desire to achieve my goals and succeed.

Like when I almost lost the time
I have experienced close calls and missed opportunities, like almost losing the time to make my dreams a reality.

My heart could lead my mind
Sometimes my emotions and desires conflict with my logic and reason, making it difficult to know what to do.

And it was hard to speak
I have struggled to express myself and communicate my wants and needs effectively in the past.

Will I always be a complicated series of almost interactions
I wonder if I will always be a complex mix of close calls, missed opportunities, and almost successes.