Stupid
NoahFinnce Lyrics

I'm stupid i'll build a rocket for ya
I am willing to do anything, even something nonsensical, just to try and impress you.

I'm losing all my self-respect i'm wasted
I am feeling low and have lost all sense of dignity, probably due to emotional exhaustion.

I've had no alcohol and
Contrary to what might be assumed, my state of mind is not caused by any substance abuse.

I tell you now I haven't slept
I confess that my lack of sleep has led to my current state of mind.

That hasn't happened to you yet
Perhaps you have not experienced this kind of emotional turmoil before.

I passed time debating why you'd even wanna
I have spent time wondering why you would ever want to be with someone like me.

Be with me in the first place
Given my current self-doubt, it seems unlikely that I deserve to be in a relationship with you.

I'd hate to sigh, the paint won't dry
I am so preoccupied with my own emotional state that even mundane tasks seem difficult and frustrating.

So buddy, let's pick up the pace
I acknowledge that I am dragging things down and am trying to urge myself and those around me to move forward.

Calm me down for the thousandth time
Despite my constant emotional outbursts, I appreciate when you try to help me calm down.

But I still won't hear what you say
Even though I appreciate your efforts, my own emotional turmoil prevents me from really hearing and absorbing your words.

Love's not blind, and that's a crime
I am aware that my emotional issues are affecting our relationship and feel guilty about it.

So just say it to my face put me in my place
Even though I struggle to accept criticism, I recognize that I need to be held accountable for my actions and emotions.

It takes it's toll and breaks my soul
My constant emotional turmoil is taking a serious toll on my mental and emotional health.

And my mind just won't leave me alone
I cannot seem to escape my own negative thoughts and emotions.

Alone, I'd agree that it's all just me
I acknowledge that my emotional problems are largely internal and stem from my own thought processes.

So just don't pick up that phone
I know that reaching out for help or validation from others will not solve my emotional problems and may only exacerbate them.

I'm useless i haven't showered in a bit
My emotional state has gotten so bad that even basic self-care tasks like showering feel impossible.

I wasn't cut out for this shit
I am struggling to cope with the emotional demands of my life and my relationships.

I'm clueless
I feel lost and uncertain about how to deal with my own emotions and the emotions of those around me.

I doubt myself just for the hit
I am so used to feeling negative emotions that I almost hesitate to be happy or confident, as if I don't deserve it.

I might need to quit
I am considering giving up, either on my current situation or on myself in general.

God, I'm going home fuck, I'm going home
I am feeling so overwhelmed by my emotions that I just want to escape and retreat back to a place of familiarity and comfort.