Buried Alive
Obelus Lyrics
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Seeing my reflection vodka clear
Heavy words tattooed in my flesh effortlessly they smear
Under blood like it means any less in a mirror
Look at you you motherfuckin' waste
You haven't moved a muscle in at least four days
Yet you stay lost in this fantasy of bein' on stage
Like anybody's gonna give a fuck what you say
Can't afford a doctor much less the medication
So I'm poppin' and drinkin' whatever the doctor is in
And I'm over prescribed like I've got something contagious
This disease has held onto me like hell
I've quarantined myself - I don't need your help
I went off the deep end - I fear I'm 'bout to drown
But I'm okay - Try to pull me out and I'll just pull you down
I used to think that I could fly
I reached to the stars but they never reached to me
I could never fuckin' get it right
I'm staring at the light through a thin white sheet
It's a brand new day but the same old me
Can't crawl out this hole it's dug too deep
Just hit six feet, keep diggin' and diggin'
It's a brand new day but the same old me
What would my younger self think of me now?
I remember being 12 and dreaming about
Being a rapper putting my first CD out
I can't hear myself breathe from him screaming so loud
But I agree with him; I don't really like me either
There's something noxious inside me deeper
Than the liquor can reach - gripping harder by each
Second - I'm so eagerly helpless - I'm already prepared to
Not come close to bouncing back this time
I'm deflating as I put a pen to each line
So the next time I hit a wall I'll fall flat
This gift is a curse - rewrap it and send it back
I don't want it
Every minute I waste is manifesting into something I am too afraid to face
It's pulling me under - I am not okay
This shit makes me dread every moment I'm awake
I used to think that I could fly
I reached to the stars but they never reached to me
I could never fuckin' get it right
I'm staring at the light through a thin white sheet
It's a brand new day but the same old me
Can't crawl out this hole it's dug too deep
Just hit six feet, keep diggin' and diggin'
It's a brand new day but the same old me
One more tomorrow has found me
One more wall crumbling around me
No more swimming to the surface to remind myself I'm drowning
One more tomorrow has found me
One more wall crumbling around me
No more swimming to the surface to remind myself I'm drowning
I used to think that I could fly
I reached to the stars, but they never reached to me
I could never fuckin' get it right
I'm lookin' at the light
Staring through a thin white sheet
I used to think that I could fly
I reached to the stars, but they never reached to me
I could never fuckin' get it right
I'm lookin' at the light
Staring through a thin white sheet
It's a brand new day but the same old me
The lyrics of Obelus's song "Buried Alive" depict emotions of frustration, self-doubt, and inner turmoil. The artist expresses a feeling of being trapped and overwhelmed by their own thoughts and struggles. The recurring theme throughout the song revolves around the artist's dissatisfaction with their current state and the pressure to conform to societal expectations.
In the opening lines, the artist expresses frustration with their self-image and the constant battle with their own demons. The reference to "vodka clear" suggests that they may rely on alcohol to numb their emotions or escape from their reality. The heavy words tattooed on their flesh symbolize the emotional burdens they carry, which effortlessly smear, indicating their inability to overcome or resolve them.
The following lines highlight the artist's self-critical nature and feeling of worthlessness. They see themselves as a waste and criticize their lack of productivity and motivation. The fantasy of being onstage represents their desire for recognition and validation, but they acknowledge that nobody would care about their words or opinions.
The artist reveals their anxiety and mental health struggles, acknowledging their lack of access to proper healthcare and medication. They resort to self-medicating with whatever substances they can find, resulting in over-prescription and potential addiction. The disease mentioned represents their mental and emotional state, which has a tight grip on them. They choose to isolate themselves, believing they don't need help from others.
Furthermore, the artist reflects on their past dreams and aspirations. They reminisce about their younger self who dreamed of becoming a rapper and releasing their own music. However, they express a dislike for their present self, feeling a deep-rooted negativity within them that surpasses the effects of alcohol. This internal struggle keeps them trapped and unable to bounce back from their challenges.
The chorus represents a relentless cycle of feeling trapped and unable to escape. The artist expresses their frustration at not being able to change their circumstances or overcome their struggles. They are stuck in a pattern of self-destructive behavior and negative thoughts, symbolized by being buried six feet deep. The repetitive line emphasizes their feeling of being trapped in their own self-destructive patterns.
The final section of the song intensifies the feeling of being overwhelmed. The artist acknowledges that another day has passed, and walls continue to crumble around them. They mention swimming to the surface to remind themselves they are drowning, suggesting that even when they try to find solace or clarity, they are reminded of their struggles. The repetition of the phrase "the same old me" reinforces a sense of stagnation and hopelessness.
In summary, Obelus's song "Buried Alive" explores themes of frustration, self-doubt, and the inability to escape one's own struggles. The artist signifies emotional burdens, addiction, and an unfulfilled desire for recognition. The lyrics depict a constant internal struggle and a feeling of being trapped, resulting in a lack of self-acceptance and an ongoing cycle of self-destructive tendencies.
Line by Line Meaning
I've had it up to here
I've reached my limit and I can't take it anymore
Seeing my reflection vodka clear
When looking at myself, it's like seeing through clear vodka - no illusions or pretenses
Heavy words tattooed in my flesh effortlessly they smear
The weight of negative thoughts and criticisms are permanently imprinted on me, and they easily spread and affect me
Under blood like it means any less in a mirror
Even though it's covered in blood, the reflection in the mirror still holds the same significance
Look at you you motherfuckin' waste
Look at yourself, you worthless piece of shit
You haven't moved a muscle in at least four days
You've been stagnant and unproductive for a significant period of time
Yet you stay lost in this fantasy of bein' on stage
But you continue to be delusional and fantasize about being in the spotlight
Like anybody's gonna give a fuck what you say
As if anyone would care about anything you have to say
I'm anxious - I don't know how much longer I can take this
I'm feeling extremely anxious and I'm unsure how much more of this I can endure
Can't afford a doctor much less the medication
I don't have the financial means to afford medical help or the necessary medication
So I'm poppin' and drinkin' whatever the doctor is in
Instead, I'm self-medicating with whatever drugs and alcohol are available
And I'm over prescribed like I've got something contagious
I've been prescribed excessive amounts of medication, as if I have a highly contagious illness
This disease has held onto me like hell
This mental and emotional struggle has gripped me tightly and is tormenting me
I've quarantined myself - I don't need your help
I've isolated myself from others because I believe I can handle this on my own
I went off the deep end - I fear I'm 'bout to drown
I've reached a point of extreme emotional instability, and I'm afraid I might succumb to it
But I'm okay - Try to pull me out and I'll just pull you down
But even though I say I'm fine, if you try to help me, I'll just drag you into my own despair
I used to think that I could fly
There was a time when I believed I was capable of anything
I reached to the stars but they never reached to me
I tried to reach my goals and dreams, but they always seemed out of reach
I could never fuckin' get it right
I always struggled to succeed or do things correctly
I'm staring at the light through a thin white sheet
I'm looking at hope or a better future, but it feels distant and obstructed
It's a brand new day but the same old me
Every day may bring new opportunities, but I'm still stuck in my old patterns and struggles
Can't crawl out this hole it's dug too deep
I'm trapped in this deep emotional pit, unable to escape
Just hit six feet, keep diggin' and diggin'
Just when I thought I hit rock bottom, I continue digging deeper into my own despair
What would my younger self think of me now?
I wonder how disappointed my younger self would be if they could see me in this state
I remember being 12 and dreaming about
I recall being 12 years old and having dreams and aspirations
Being a rapper putting my first CD out
Specifically, I dreamt about becoming a successful rapper and releasing my first album
I can't hear myself breathe from him screaming so loud
I can't even hear my own thoughts because my inner self is screaming so loudly in disappointment
But I agree with him; I don't really like me either
I agree with my younger self's judgment, as I also don't like the person I've become
There's something noxious inside me deeper
There's something toxic and harmful residing deep within me
Than the liquor can reach - gripping harder by each
Something that even excessive drinking cannot numb or alleviate; it only tightens its grip
Second - I'm so eagerly helpless - I'm already prepared to
Every passing second, I become more willingly helpless, and I'm already resigned to
Not come close to bouncing back this time
Not even coming close to recovering or returning to a better state this time around
I'm deflating as I put a pen to each line
I'm losing all motivation and energy as I write each line of this song
So the next time I hit a wall I'll fall flat
So when I encounter another obstacle or setback, I'll completely fail to overcome it
This gift is a curse - rewrap it and send it back
This talent or skill I possess is more like a burden, so I wish I could return it and be rid of it
Every minute I waste is manifesting into something I am too afraid to face
Every moment I squander is turning into an unmanageable problem or situation that I'm too scared to confront
It's pulling me under - I am not okay
It's dragging me down and overwhelming me, and I am far from being alright
This shit makes me dread every moment I'm awake
This situation fills me with extreme dread and makes every waking moment difficult to bear
One more tomorrow has found me
I have survived yet another day and am faced with another tomorrow
One more wall crumbling around me
One more barrier or obstacle collapsing and surrounding me
No more swimming to the surface to remind myself I'm drowning
I can no longer find a way to momentarily escape and remind myself of my state of drowning
I used to think that I could fly
There was a time when I believed I was capable of anything
I reached to the stars but they never reached to me
I tried to reach my goals and dreams, but they always seemed out of reach
I could never fuckin' get it right
I always struggled to succeed or do things correctly
I'm lookin' at the light
I'm gazing at hope or a better future
Staring through a thin white sheet
But it feels distant and obstructed, like staring through a thin sheet
It's a brand new day but the same old me
Every day may bring new opportunities, but I'm still stuck in my old patterns and struggles
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Tyler Horton
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