Selfish
Ollie Lyrics

Selfish, I've been feeling lost
I've been focusing only on myself because I feel lost

That's the truth i'm an introvert
Being introverted is my true nature

Struggle with my thoughts all I do
I constantly battle with my own thoughts

Please, just let me be
I'm asking for some space and freedom

I don't wanna break your heart too
I don't want to hurt you emotionally as well

Faded memories open up these scars like new
Past memories resurface and cause me pain

Okay, please don't hit my phone
Please don't contact me

Left it on silent
I intentionally put my phone on silent mode

Late-night driving, I think too much
When I drive at night, my thoughts overwhelm me

This shit is tiring
It's exhausting to deal with all of this

See the sirens, my speakers loud
I blast my music to drown out the sounds of sirens

Can't stand the silence
I cannot handle being in silence

I'm fucking wildin' while my
I'm acting reckless while my

Anxiety has been
My anxiety has been

Moving up a couple levels, I just need space
My anxiety levels have been increasing, I require some personal space

The person I try to be is in a battle
The version of myself that I strive to be is in constant conflict

With the devil, telling me to go stray
My inner demon tempts me to deviate from the right path

I had some people around me
I used to have some individuals around me

I swore that were real
I believed that they were genuine

But they all turned out to be fake
However, they all revealed their true colors and proved to be fake

The truth of this cold world
The harsh reality of this unforgiving world

Is it hurts to feel
Emotions and vulnerability can be painful

It's part of the price that we pay
It's a necessary sacrifice we make for existence

I'm used to the struggle
I've grown accustomed to facing difficulties

I'm good on my own
I can handle things by myself

These ain't emotions I usually show
I typically do not express these emotions openly

Because I keep carrying all of this well
Despite appearing fine, I'm carrying a heavy burden

Don't mean that the pain disappear
But that doesn't mean the pain goes away

'cause it won't
Because it will not

Already been down this road
I have already experienced this journey

Know all too well, yeah
I'm familiar with it

Somewhere along the line, I lost myself
At some point, I lost my true identity

Lost myself, don't know who I became
I feel lost, uncertain of the person I have become

Yeah
Yes

All I do is thinking, got no free time, yeah
I spend all my time overthinking, I have no leisure time

Bottled up a tendency by design, yeah
I purposely suppress my inclination to open up

Lately, move too fast, wish I could rewind
Recently, I've been moving too quickly, I wish I could turn back time

Yeah sanity, I struggle just to keep mine
My mental stability is a constant struggle for me

Keep mine
Preserve my own sanity

I used to be someone else, then I changed
I used to have a different personality, but I transformed

Driving a hundred
Driving at high speeds

I'm switching through lanes
I'm swiftly changing directions and paths

I picked up all of my pieces and put
I gathered all the fragments of myself and

'em together but something ain't
I reconstructed them, but something still feels

Feeling the same
It doesn't feel the same

I guess I'm not sure that I'd do it again
I'm unsure if I would make the same choices

Gave up my life with a stroke of a pen
I made life-altering decisions with a simple action

This is all of me, I swear
What you see is the complete essence of who I am, I promise