I Need to Know
On the Rocks Lyrics

Just like on A-T-E-E-M, I'm an addict, I'm an addict
Similar to being a part of a team, I have an addiction and can’t resist it.

Back at the crib I just cause nothing but static
When at home, I cause trouble and conflict.

I think my mama's is pissed and vexed 'cause she's had it
My mother is angry and frustrated with me.

Snooped and found my stash in the attic
My mother found my hidden stash of drugs in the attic.

Not tickled pink she threw my my shit in the sink
My mother was definitely not happy, as she threw my drugs down the sink.

My gut is rumbling now I have to think
I am feeling nervous and anxious and have to come up with a plan.

My sister's jewelry, take it, no more jingling
I will steal my sister's jewelry to sell and get money to buy more drugs.

On the crazy down low take my mom's wedding ring
I will steal my mother's wedding ring secretly as she won't notice, and will sell it to buy drugs.

And float on to the shop called the pawn
I will go to a pawn shop to sell the stolen jewelry.

And he gives me two yards and my disregard to nothing
The pawn shop guy gives me a lot of money for the stolen goods without asking questions.

The antonym of a hero
I am far from being a hero.

I used to be the one now I'm less than zero
I used to be a successful and accomplished person, but now I am worthless.

But I can feel like a million real fast
I feel like I have a lot of money to spend on drugs very quickly.

Put my lips on the god damn glass
I snort the drugs off the glass surface without caring about the harm.

And make a little snow using the snowman
I make cocaine powder or 'snow' for myself.

I can't help it I need some blow man
I can't stop because I need cocaine badly.

I used to get A's across the board now it's down to H's
I used to get good grades, but now I am failing and getting H's (a play on heroin).

And the H's stand for hatred
H's now symbolize my strong hatred towards my life situation.

Kicked a lot of bogusness, conned out of rehab
I went through rehab but did not give up my addiction and instead cheated my way out of the program.

It was easy, my man worked at the lab
It was easy for me to cheat because my acquaintance worked at the lab.

So I jetted like the Concord but I made a crash landing
I left rehab very quickly- like the speed of the Concord plane, but relapsed soon afterwards.

Got back on the glass cause life is demanding
I went back to using drugs as life was too hard and demanding to deal with without them.

First thing to do now is to get a little pistol
I will buy a gun to protect myself while buying drugs.

I like to smoke blow but I don't like eating gristle
I prefer smoking cocaine instead of eating it in the form of 'gristle.'

So the hoody comes on while I'm hiding in the corner
I wear a hoodie and hide in a corner while buying drugs.

Just run ya doe or your mom will be a mourner
Give me the money for drugs or else your mother will be mourning your death.

The blow make me act like I don't know
The drugs make me act like I am unaware of my terrible actions.

And my ego and my moral go into escrow
My ego and morals are temporarily 'frozen' while I am high on drugs.

The kid that I robbed the other day was my bro
I robbed my own brother for money to buy drugs.

Face covered by the hoody yo should he
My face was hidden by my hoodie, so he didn’t realize it was me.

Care about his worthless bro, the answer no
I took advantage of my brother despite being family.

I can't help it I gotta get some blow
I am unable to control my addiction and must get my hands on cocaine.

My mom was sponsoring a child from Zimbabwe
My mom was kindly sponsoring a child from Zimbabwe.

When I'm on the pipe man I have to get my way
When I am using drugs, I feel compelled to get what I want no matter the consequences.

Donating about twenty dollars a week
My mother was donating a significant amount of her income, $20 a week, to help a child in need.

Eighty dollars a month for that I get a blunt
I take advantage of my mother's donations by spending her $80 a month for drugs.

Everyday I puff several trees
I smoke a lot of marijuana on a daily basis.

What do I care if he eats every other day
I do not care whether the child in Zimbabwe has enough to eat or not.

What am I saying, I can't believe I'm a junkie
I can't believe that I have turned into a drug addict.

I can't believe it yo Frank Nitty punch me
I am in disbelief and feel like someone should hurt me for letting myself become a drug addict.

Suicide is too good, I need something harder
Suicide would be too easy to do, so I want to experience something even worse than that.

Maybe go cold turkey, that'll hurt me
Quitting drugs without help, i.e. 'cold turkey', will be a painful and challenging experience for me.

Sweat drips on my back I react with a shiver
I am sweating and shivering while experiencing drug withdrawal symptoms.

Eye flutters while my mom closes her shutters
I am experiencing drug withdrawal symptoms- my eyes are fluttering and my mom is closing the shutters.

She doesn't believe that I'm trying, my body dying
My mother does not believe that I am trying to quit drugs and sees my body deteriorating.

She thinks I found a new way of lying
My mother thinks I am making up excuses for my behavior instead of actually trying to quit drugs.

While I revolve the revolver, my mom hears the tune
I am contemplating suicide with a gun while my mom is nearby.

I'm sorry mom
I apologize to my mother for the pain I have caused and the situation I am in due to my drug addiction.