Until I Die
Overkill Lyrics

Dope, black suicide
The feeling of being high like a drug addict who is so depressed, that they are willing to do whatever it takes to end their life.

Eyes that look right through me
Feeling invisible and like no one cares about you nor your existence.

Dead white feeling fine
Living life while feeling dead inside and not caring about anything, while still managing to put on a charade of happiness.

The eyes are in a hurry
Being in such a rush to get through life and not take in any moments of happiness or joy.

Into the ensuing flood
Going into the unknown without fear, even if it will lead to death.

Look into never be
Seeing the future that you want to have, but constantly being disappointed by the reality of life.

Swimming 'round in a pool of blood
Metaphorically drowning in the consequences of one's actions, leading to a feeling of suffocation.

A pool she bleeds for me
Feeling guilty because one's loved ones have to see them in such a dark and self-destructive state.

[Chorus] Time to realize the force inside me
Acknowledging the personal strength that one has, but being unable to use it to make positive changes in life.

Seems to paralyze and go away
Experiencing moments of motivation and inspiration which are quickly followed by feelings of doubt and hesitation.

Broken and burnin'
Being emotionally damaged and hurt, while still experiencing a strong desire to move on and improve oneself.

And running the lie
Living in a reality where one is forced to constantly lie to themselves about their own happiness and wellbeing.

Breakin' and burnin' me
Being slowly destroyed by one's own thoughts and feelings of hopelessness, leading to a sense of self-implosion.

Until I die
Being aware that this cycle of despair may continue until ultimately, it leads to one's death.

Stone cold occupied
Being completely consumed by negative thoughts and emotions, leading to a sense of detachment from the world around them.

Thoughts that I thought I knew
Having thoughts and beliefs that one believed to be true, but are now questioning because they are causing more harm than good.

When only you seem right
Feeling trapped and alone, with no one else to turn to except for one person who gives some form of comfort and assurance.

I seem to walk right through you
Feeling like the one person who gives comfort is not enough to help them escape from their own despair because their issues run too deep.

Face down in the comfort of
Being completely consumed by negativity, and immersing oneself in it as if it's the only thing that can bring any form of comfort.

What you've given me
Taking in the little bits of happiness that one might get from others and holding onto them, even if they bring only temporary relief from the constant pain.

I have resolved myself
Accepting that one's life may not change, and making peace with it.

To what will never be
Coming to terms with the fact that one's dreams or hopes for the future may never come true.

Walking next to me
Having the stark reality of one's situation constantly haunting them, and following them wherever they go.

The stark reality
The inescapable truth that one's life is not fulfilling, and the realization that there is no easy way to change it.

[Chorus]
Acknowledging the cycle of negativity and despair that one is stuck in, and the knowledge that it may continue indefinitely.

If I had my way
Having a desire to start over and change everything in one's life to make it better, even if it is impossible to do so.

I'd tear it down
Willing to destroy everything if it means making the needed changes to escape the cycle of despair and pain.

Start anew, up from the ground
Starting over completely from the very beginning, with no connections to the past in the hope that it will result in a better future.

And dare I say
Feeling an overwhelming sense of fear, but still willing to take a risk and make a change.

I want you near me
Craving the support and comfort of a loved one who can help them through their struggles and cope with their pain.

To live inside this world so cold
Living in the present situation that feels cold, dark and unforgiving.

Another day
Being aware that every day is a struggle for oneself to cope with their pain and continue living.

Another kill me
Feeling so hopeless and unfulfilled that they wish they could just simply end their life and escape their pain.

Another shot to be so bold
Feeling empowered and motivated to try and make things better, even if it is only for a moment.

I could never hurt you
Having a soft spot for someone they love and not wanting to hurt them with their feelings of despair.