Curse the Morning Light
Pantheist Lyrics
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It falls down at the foot end of the bed
that I'm not going to leave (any more)
I curse you morning light, spot on my solitude
No one here to mourn with me the loss of hope in this life
The light that brings the day reminds me that I'm dead
And leave behind these chains that keep me captive
My life a ruin, it has ruined me
I smell my soul rotting; it fades away with the years
O bastard life, for too long you fooled me
You made me believe that you are worth to live
A growing fury, a growing pain
enveloped my soul, paralysed my heart
love is a lie, hope is a morbid joke
every day the same old song
I want to break free from this vicious circle
To hear some words of comfort, to breathe some joy
I have passed the point of no return since long:
The gravity of this black hole is too strong
Look at me, disappearing within its darkness
My God, it hurts more than I could possibly imagine!
I must cope with the emptiness
Which has weaved its web around my soul
I've sunk in the abyss of desperation
And yet I'm here, a fool among the fools
The hour has come...
the angel of death looks me straight in the eyes
like a basilisk
He stands there staring
with empty gaze- like an ancient statue
and tries to break the shield
which guards my empty soul
But all those joyless years
have eventually dried my tears
drained every emotion of my well-worn body
which slowly rots and disintegrates
The angel smells the stench of slow death
disgusted, he disappears into the night
I cut my flesh with my broken nails
enjoy the fluid of life flowing
The cancer has left my heart
and yet I'm more than ever dead...
The lyrics to Pantheist's song "Curse the Morning Light" explore the themes of isolation, despair, and disillusionment with life. The singer is lying in bed, trapped in their solitude, and cursing the light that breaks through their window in the morning. The light serves as a reminder of their dead state and their loneliness, with there being no one to mourn the loss of hope in their life. They express a desire to break free from their captivity and leave behind the chains that bind them to this wrecked life. However, they also acknowledge that they have passed the point of no return and that the gravity of their situation is too strong. They are paralysed by a growing sense of fury and pain that seems to envelop their soul, leaving them sinking into the abyss of desperation.
Throughout the song, the singer is grappling with their disillusionment with life and their sense of being trapped in a meaningless existence. They feel that life has fooled them, and they have been made to believe that it is worth living even though it has only brought them pain and emptiness. Moreover, they have lost their faith in love and hope, viewing them as lies and morbid jokes. As the song progresses, the singer becomes increasingly resigned to their fate, acknowledging that the cancer has left their heart, and yet they are still more dead than ever before.
Overall, the lyrics to "Curse the Morning Light" are powerful and raw, exploring themes of existential despair and hopelessness. The song is a poignant reflection on the human condition and the struggle to find meaning in life.
Line by Line Meaning
From a crack on my sealed window enters a ray of light
The sunlight enters my room through a small opening and reminds me of my bleak existence.
It falls down at the foot end of the bed
The light falls on the end of the bed where I lie alone and hopeless.
that I'm not going to leave (any more)
I have lost all hope and don't see a reason to leave my bed anymore.
I curse you morning light, spot on my solitude
I resent the sunlight that illuminates my lonely existence and reveals the emptiness that surrounds me.
No one here to mourn with me the loss of hope in this life
I am alone in my misery and no one understands or empathizes with my despair.
The light that brings the day reminds me that I'm dead
The light serves as a reminder of my lifeless state and the futility of existence.
I want to break out, I want to be free
I desire to escape from the chains of despair and misery that keep me trapped.
And leave behind these chains that keep me captive
I wish to abandon the shackles of negativity and hopelessness that hold me down.
My life a ruin, it has ruined me
My existence is nothing more than ruins and has destroyed my spirit.
I smell my soul rotting; it fades away with the years
I sense my inner-self decaying over time and fading away into nothingness.
O bastard life, for too long you fooled me
I realize that life has deceived me for too long and robbed me of joy.
You made me believe that you are worth to live
I was led to believe that life was worth living, but now I see the lie behind that notion.
A growing fury, a growing pain
I feel a sense of rage and agony increasing within me.
enveloped my soul, paralyzed my heart
The pain and sadness has enveloped my being and left me feeling helpless and numb.
love is a lie, hope is a morbid joke
I have lost faith in love and hope, seeing them as illusions or cruel jokes.
every day the same old song
My life feels repetitive and monotonous, with nothing new or joyful to break the cycle.
I want to break free from this vicious circle
I desire to break out of the cycle of sadness and hopelessness that has been plaguing me.
To hear some words of comfort, to breathe some joy
I long for some comfort or joy in my life, something to break through the darkness.
I have passed the point of no return since long:
I have already crossed the threshold of hopelessness and despair, with no chance of recovery.
The gravity of this black hole is too strong
The darkness and misery have become too powerful, pulling me deeper into despair.
Look at me, disappearing within its darkness
I feel myself fading into the darkness of despair, as if being swallowed by it.
My God, it hurts more than I could possibly imagine!
I am in unbearable pain and suffering, beyond what I thought possible.
I must cope with the emptiness
I must learn to live with the void within myself, the emptiness that consumes me.
Which has weaved its web around my soul
The emptiness and misery have become entangled within my being, creating a web of despair.
I've sunk in the abyss of desperation
I have fallen into a dark and hopeless place, consumed by despair.
And yet I'm here, a fool among the fools
Despite my misery and anguish, I am still alive and existing among other humans who are similarly lost.
The hour has come...
The moment of my demise is upon me.
the angel of death looks me straight in the eyes
Death itself stands before me, gazing at me with a cold and empty stare.
like a basilisk
The stare of death is penetrating and powerful, like the gaze of a mythical monster.
He stands there staring
Death stands before me, unmoving and unyielding.
with empty gaze- like an ancient statue
The stare of death is devoid of emotion or life, like that of a lifeless statue.
and tries to break the shield
Death tries to penetrate my defenses and take my soul.
which guards my empty soul
I have no life or substance in my soul for death to take, only emptiness.
But all those joyless years
The many years of misery and suffering have left me with nothing left to give.
have eventually dried my tears
The wellspring of emotion within me has been exhausted and laid dry by years of sorrow.
drained every emotion of my well-worn body
My body and soul have been emptied of all feeling and vitality, leaving me a shell of my former self.
which slowly rots and disintegrates
My physical form has begun to decay and break down, mirroring the devastation within me.
The angel smells the stench of slow death
Death can sense the decay and decay within me, getting closer and closer to taking my soul.
disgusted, he disappears into the night
Death is repulsed by the decay within me, and leaves me behind, unclaimed.
I cut my flesh with my broken nails
I inflict suffering upon myself, taking out my inner torment on my own flesh.
enjoy the fluid of life flowing
I take a twisted pleasure in the physical pain, as it distracts from my inner pain.
The cancer has left my heart
The inner decay and misery have left me numb, with no feeling left in my heart.
and yet I'm more than ever dead...
Despite my physical life, I am more dead and empty than ever before.
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