Change My Stars
Paperboys Lyrics

I get the strangest ideas, get drunk,
The singer has a tendency to behave erratically, often alcohol-fuelled.

leave angels in tears turning flames into painful affairs
The singer has a self-destructive streak, often leading to regretful events.

so now I'm lying here draining beers
The singer is currently drinking away his troubles.

I can't explain it's weird got me thinking damn maybe I'm scared
The artist is unsure about what troubles he is experiencing.

coz I'd like someone to listen to but I hate having to tell them
The artist wants to open up, but struggles with vulnerability.

I'm sorry for not missing you
The singer regrets not feeling emotions they perceive as expected.

feeling cold and this is difficult
The singer is emotionally detached and struggles with opening up.

guess love differs your periphial view sort of like sniffing glue
The artist suggests that love is difficult to perceive until it is gone.

it was cool I know you hoped for us
The artist acknowledges the hope that the listener felt for their relationship.

didn't mind that I smoked so much
The artist is reflective of their past behavior that may have contributed to their current issues.

I saw the signs, you opened up, gave me time
The listener tried to help the singer, but the singer failed to change.

and everything was fine till I fucked up and broke your trust
The artist broke the listener's trust and damaged their relationship with the listener.

but even so you never showed disgust
The listener remains supportive of the singer regardless of their past mistakes.

it's like I find a surprise and all I wanted was to drown in her eyes
The singer is describing his attraction to women and may have had experiences with women in the past.

and lay surrounded by the sound of the skies
The singer is describing how he feels when surrounded by nature.

but I guess I never tried so for all of those lies I apologize
The artist regrets his past actions and admits to telling lies.

My intent was not to fail you all
The artist acknowledges his failures and apologizes to those he hurt.

See I'm just trying to change my stars
The singer is referencing his desires to change his future.

Got me locked at these crossroads thinking which way should I go which way should I go
The singer feels lost and uncertain of their next steps in life.

anticipating what the next day's bringing
The artist is anxious and unsure of what his future holds.

It's kind of like when I'm writing my flows thinking which way should I go which way should I go”,
The artist is comparing his struggles to his songwriting process.

Guess I've proven to be a handful
The artist recognizes that his behavior can be challenging.

coz it's like every other day another scandal
The singer suggests that he is often a source of drama and negative attention.

had a career but now they saying that it's cancelled
The artist has had career-related issues.

ain't that a whole lot of shit to be playing for some uncleared samples?
The singer suggests that he has faced legal issues related to the samples he used in his music.

quite more than I can stand for
The singer is overwhelmed by his struggles.

but then again I kind of like your damn show coz my shit went gold
The singer is referencing his successful career as a musician.

another shipment sold and all the other kids enrolled
The artist is bragging about his popularity and the success others have based their careers off of him.

coz what they do now I did before and some of them did know those who didn't now they heard it from you
The artist is acknowledging that others have copied his style and are attempting to replicate his success.

so you're the fool bringing my words into school you're just a tool I can use gaining success
The singer is criticizing those who use his music for their own gain.

now everyday is another I don't give a fuck-fest
The singer is depicting his cynical outlook on life and his lack of motivation.

I just like the truth /there really ain't that much left
The artist suggests that he values honesty and authenticity.

and I don't see how me talking about my life can make you upset that's too much stress you need to relax and look around maybe jesus is back go find him
The artist doesn't understand why people become upset by his music, and instead, he suggests that they focus on finding their faith in God.

Sometimes I wish that no one on this earth could stand me
The artist expresses feelings of self-hate and low self-esteem.

if I deserved to be loved I wouldn't hurt my family
The singer believes that he doesn't deserve love because of the hurt he's caused his family.

fill my body with drugs while giving birth to panic it's like I'm just another worthless addict
The artist is substance dependent, leading to panic attacks and feelings of worthlessness.

shit,I ain't even working at it
The singer is acknowledging that he isn't putting in the effort required to improve his current circumstances.

though I know, nobody's perfect
The singer is aware that perfection isn't attainable.

I feel I've lost my right to ask for a purpose
The singer believes his past behavior has taken away his right to find purpose in life.

it seems I just make it worse and search beneath the surface
The artist feels like he makes situations worse, despite his attempts to improve them.

and try to find some light up in this circus but I'm nervous all I see is the mistakes I made
The artist is trying to find a positive focus and perspective on life, despite being overwhelmed by past mistakes.

cut me open like a razor blade
The singer is using a metaphor to describe the emotional pain he feels.

and in these motherfucking crazy days feel my faith uncovered
The singer is feeling his faith and beliefs are more important than ever during current crazy times.

pray the doctors will save my brother
The artist is concerned about their brother's well-being and is hoping they will recover from an illness.

think about the promises people make each other but life interferes
The artist reflects on how promises are made, but sometimes life gets in the way of keeping them.

got to do right by them that cared ive been a burden for them to bear so I know I can't end it here
The artist wants to make up for disappointing and burdening the people who cared for him/her because he/she understands that can't end it there.