Nocturne
Paul Chihara/The Roches Lyrics

You ask me why
You want to know why we cannot have sex

We cannot make love
We are unable to engage in physical intimacy

I have been ransacking you
I have been searching through every part of you for an explanation

For the answer
To try and understand why we cannot have sex

Side by side we lay
We are lying next to each other

Not touching
We are not making any physical contact

Listening to rain falling
We are hearing the sound of raindrops outside

In the darkness
It is dark in the room

Where desire writhed
Where there used to be a strong sexual desire

There stands a stone
Now there is nothing but a cold and unyielding barrier

The change was sudden and complete
Our relationship dynamic shifted suddenly and irrevocably

A serious question
We are contemplating a significant issue

We have turned out to ask
We have gathered the courage to address

We have sought each other secretly
We have been searching for answers within ourselves without sharing with each other

Strong has been the urge
The desire to understand and connect is intense

To lie naked facing fear
To be completely vulnerable and honest with each other

Quietly and quickly
We are addressing the issue calmly and trying to resolve it rapidly

Our sentences blaze trails upon the night
Our conversation cuts through the darkness like a bright light

We are mates on a doubtful voyage
We are together on an uncertain journey

Speaking sanely now
We are communicating clearly and logically

Allotting no lovers advantage
We are not trying to persuade or manipulate each other

My room is anxious to expel him
My surroundings are uncomfortable with his presence

He hurries to be free of my feelings
He wants to avoid being emotionally involved

We wear our words
Our conversation is heavy and burdensome

Until he finally dresses
We continue talking until he is ready to leave

Looking for his shoes
He is preparing to depart

He is a shadow in my doorway
He seems like a mere trace of himself as he steps out of my life