Depression
Paul Yoon Lyrics
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Why won’t the calendar ask for permission
So that I can remember
How it felt when I wasn’t under the weather?
And I’m all alone in my bed again
I’m all alone in my head again
I’m sleepin’ all the time
Yet there’s one thing on my mind
Watch me go down the road
Where I'm destined to be alone forever
So I can write sad songs forever
Eventually dying of heartache
I’ll eventually die of heartache
"A genuine way to go"
And I’m still alone in my bed again
I’m still alone in my head again
I’m sleepin’ all the time
Yet there’s one thing on my mind
Will I wake to depression?
Will I wake to depression?
Will I wake to depression all the time?
Mmm... mmm...
In these lyrics, Paul Yoon is expressing feelings of isolation, despair, and a constant struggle with depression. He begins by questioning how it's already November, indicating a sense of time slipping away without his consent. He longs for the calendar to acknowledge his pain, so that he can remember what it felt like before he fell into a state of sadness and mental illness.
Yoon emphasizes his solitude, stating that he is all alone in his bed and in his head. This line highlights the overwhelming feeling of loneliness that accompanies his depressive state. He mentions that he sleeps all the time, implying that sleep becomes an escape from the reality of his depression. However, even as he sleeps, the one thing that consumes his thoughts is the fear of waking up to depression every day.
The next part of the lyrics widens the scope of his despair. Yoon talks about going down a road leading to eternal loneliness, as if he is destined to be alone forever. He believes that his purpose in life is to write sad songs, possibly as a way to cope with his emotions. He even goes as far as to say that he will eventually die from heartache, emphasizing the weight of his emotional pain.
Throughout the entire song, Yoon repeats the question of whether he will wake up to depression all the time. This repetition indicates the constant battle he faces with his mental health, as depression seems to be a recurring part of his life. The final lines of "Mmm... mmm..." evoke a sense of resignation or resignation, perhaps reflecting the feeling of being trapped in his own mind and emotions.
Overall, these lyrics capture the deep emotional struggle of someone who is experiencing depression. The song provides insight into the internal turmoil and sense of isolation that can come with mental illness, offering a glimpse into the artist's personal experience with these challenges.
Line by Line Meaning
How's it already the first of November?
I can't believe how quickly time has passed and it's already November.
Why won’t the calendar ask for permission
Why doesn't time wait for me or ask if I'm ready for it to move forward?
So that I can remember
So that I can hold onto the memories of how things used to be.
How it felt when I wasn’t under the weather?
How it felt when I wasn't feeling sad or unwell?
And I’m all alone in my bed again
I find myself feeling lonely and isolated in my bed once more.
I’m all alone in my head again
My thoughts and emotions are overwhelming me, and I feel isolated within my own mind.
I’m sleepin’ all the time
I find solace in sleep, using it as an escape from reality.
Yet there’s one thing on my mind
Nevertheless, there's always one persistent thought on my mind.
Will I wake to depression all the time?
Will I wake up every day only to face my ongoing struggle with depression?
Watch me go down the road
Witness as I continue on the path of sadness and despair.
Where I'm destined to be alone forever
Where I'm fated to always be alone and lonely.
So I can write sad songs forever
So that I can continue composing melancholic songs indefinitely.
Eventually dying of heartache
In the end, succumbing to the pain and sorrow in my heart.
I’ll eventually die of heartache
Eventually, my heartache will consume me and lead to my demise.
"A genuine way to go"
"Dying from heartache would be a genuine and authentic way to depart this world."
And I’m still alone in my bed again
And I'm still left feeling isolated and lonely in my bed.
I’m still alone in my head again
My mind continues to be filled with loneliness and isolation.
I’m sleepin’ all the time
Sleep remains my refuge, as I constantly seek solace in it.
Yet there’s one thing on my mind
Despite everything, there's always one persistent thought occupying my mind.
Will I wake to depression?
Will I wake up and face depression once again?
Will I wake to depression?
Will I wake up and confront the continuing presence of depression?
Will I wake to depression all the time?
Will I wake up every day to the haunting reality of enduring depression constantly?
Mmm... mmm...
Hmm... a sign of contemplation and introspection, as I face my inner struggles.
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Written by: Paul Yoon
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