Heavy
Peach PRC Lyrics
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Drift off on fitted sheets
He'll kiss her over Colgate teeth
How can I love myself when I'm so draining to everyone else?
And I've been told
I'm heavy to hold
They say they won't run away
They'll kiss me manic dream pixie
Don't wanna love me 'cause it feels too risky
And I understand
It's all I've been told
I'm heavy to hold
I hear cars pull up outside
Ring doorbells but they're never mine
Sitcoms on VHS
Laugh tracks echo the friends that left
How can I brave this storm
When I just burn them trying to keep warm?
It's all I've been told
I'm heavy to hold
They say they won't run away
"Fix You" is only pretty when it's sung by Coldplay
They'll kiss me manic dream pixie
Don't wanna love me 'cause it feels too risky
And I understand
It's all I've been told
I'm heavy to hold
Lay me down
I'm getting tired
I'll be around
If you decide
I'm hard to love
There's no denying
If you've had enough
Thanks for trying
They say they won't run way (they won't run away)
"Fix You" is only pretty when it's sung by Coldplay
They'll kiss me manic dream pixie (they don't wanna they don't wanna love me)
Don't wanna love me cause it feels too risky
And I understand
It's all I've been told (I been told)
I'm heavy to hold (I'm heavy to hold)
Too heavy to hold
I'm heavy
The lyrics of Peach PRC's "Heavy" explores the feeling of being "heavy to hold." The song talks about how the singer is aware that their flaws make them a burden to others and how they have been informed by others that they are "heavy to hold." The first stanza talks about how others have sung romantic songs about getting high and bloodshot eyes, which may mean that the singer's struggles with mental health are romanticized instead of being taken seriously. The line "How can I love myself when I'm so draining to everyone else?" shows how the singer struggles with self-love because they feel like a burden to others. The singer further reveals that they have been told that they are "heavy to hold," meaning that they are difficult to be with.
In the second stanza, the singer says that there are people who won't run away but only choose "Fix You" by Coldplay because the song sounds pretty. The line "They'll kiss me manic dream pixie" refers to the "manic pixie dream girl" trope, where women are portrayed as whimsical and free spirits who exist to save the singer. The singer understands that people find it hard to love them, and it is all they have been told. The third stanza mentions how the singer is left behind, while others ring doorbells and watch sitcoms. They further describe themselves as burning people while trying to keep warm, meaning that they hurt people who try to help them.
Overall, the song "Heavy" delves deep into the struggles of self-love and the feeling of being a burden to those around us. The lyrics vividly describe the singer's pain and difficulty in accepting themselves, acknowledging their flaws, and making peace with them.
Line by Line Meaning
I heard songs romanticise her blood shot eyes and getting high they
I am aware of songs that glorify unhealthy behaviors, like getting high and staying up all night, as the ultimate expression of love
Drift off on fitted sheets
Losing oneself in comfort with someone shouldn't be so hard, but it is
He'll kiss her over Colgate teeth
Even simple things, like kissing, can become a source of anxiety and insecurity
How can I love myself when I'm so draining to everyone else?
My need for love and validation from others makes me feel like a burden, which in turn makes it hard to love myself
And I've been told
This is not just my own perception, but something that others have also communicated to me
I'm heavy to hold
I am too much for others to handle, both physically and emotionally
They say they won't run away
Despite the difficulties, people say they won't abandon me
"Fix You" is only pretty when it's sung by Coldplay
People think that they can 'fix' me or my problems, but it's not that simple
They'll kiss me manic dream pixie
People will try to understand me, but won't fully appreciate the depth of my emotions and thoughts
Don't wanna love me 'cause it feels too risky
Others are afraid to love me because they're not sure if they can handle the intensity
And I understand
Even though it's frustrating, I understand why others react to me this way
It's all I've been told
This is a narrative that has been reinforced over time, both by others' reactions and my own self-talk
I'm heavy to hold
Once again, I am too much for others to deal with emotionally and mentally
Lay me down
I'm exhausted from trying to fit in and be loved, and just want to rest
I'm getting tired
Mentally, emotionally, and physically, I am reaching my limit
I'll be around
Even though it's hard, I'm not going anywhere and will continue to seek love and acceptance
If you decide
Ultimately, it's up to others to choose whether they can accept me as I am or not
I'm hard to love
I know that I am not an easy person to be with, and that makes me sad
There's no denying
I can't hide or escape the fact that I am who I am, and that I've been told I'm too difficult to be with before
If you've had enough
I understand that some people simply can't cope with this level of emotional intensity and may need to leave
Thanks for trying
Even if it doesn't work out, I appreciate people who have given me a chance and tried to love me despite everything
Too heavy to hold
Once again, I feel like I am too much for anyone to handle
I'm heavy
I feel heavy with my own thoughts and emotions, and worry that this is a burden on others
Lyrics ยฉ Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Sharlee Curnow
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
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[Verse 1]
I heard songs romanticise her blood shot eyes and getting high
They drift off on fitted sheets
He'll kiss her over colgate teeth
How can I love myself
When I'm so draining to everyone else?
And I've been told
I'm heavy to hold
[Chorus]
They say they won't run away
"Fix You" is only pretty when it's sung by Coldplay
They'll kiss me
Manic dream pixie
Don't wanna love me 'cause it feels too risky
And I understand
It's all I've been told
I'm heavy to hold
[Verse 2]
I hear cars pull up outside
Ring doorbells but they're never mine
Sitcoms on VHS
Laugh tracks echo the friends that left
How can I brave this storm
When I just burn them trying to keep warm?
It's all I've been told
I'm heavy to hold
[Chorus]
They say they won't run away
"Fix You" is only pretty when it's sung by Coldplay
They'll kiss me
Manic dream pixie
Don't wanna love me 'cause it feels too risky
And I understand
It's all I've been told
I'm heavy to hold
[Bridge]
Lay me down
I'm getting tired
I'll be around
If you decide
I'm hard to love
There's no denying
If you've had enough
Thanks for trying
[Chorus]
They say they wonโt run way (they wonโt run away)
"Fix You" is only pretty when itโs sung by Coldplay
Theyโll kiss me manic dream pixie (they donโt wanna they donโt wanna love me)
Donโt wanna love me cause it feels too risky
And I understand
Itโs all Iโve been told (I been told)
Iโm heavy to hold (Iโm heavy to hold)
Too heavy to hold
Iโm heavy
Seashell
Finally the full version so we donโt have to limit our crying to the 30 sec acoustic original & one minute Tiktok preview on loop
Stuff
LMAO
kenzieloui
holy shit THIS.
S B
Accurate
Alyssa Lucero
Michael Scott vibes ๐ฅฒ
Jeremy
Need an acoustic version on Spotify tho ๐
holly spears
Iโve never had a song so closely describe what itโs like to have bpd and trying to have stable relationships. Everyone Iโve dated has told me Iโm heavy to hold and it has made me believe that I am unloveable because of the baggage that comes with me. This song is absolutely beautiful, thank you peach for making me feel less alone <3
Hallowqueen
ABSOLUTELY. I have Bipolar 1 and BPD and this is everything Iโve been told and felt over and over and over. It is such an empty feeling to be told repeatedly that youโre too much. Soul crushing to watch people actively stop themselves from loving you.
Cortex Technologies IP Pty. Ltd.
@Hallowqueen Understanding of BPD and Bipolar are much better than they once were and with a good partner it is possible for relationships to work. But it takes a lot of work for both people in the relationship to understand the needs their partners have and to find ways of making it work for you both as a couple.
A good start is to find a therapist that you trust and start developing your understanding of yourself and how to regulate your internal emotional states. Not to stop being you but to become more aware of what your triggers are so you can then be in control rather than feeling out of control (DBT is one option).
Not saying this is easy. It isn't easy at all. None of it is. But there are therapies with good evidence to support that they do help. As someone with cPTSD, autism and ADHD I have absolute support, sympathy and admiration of anyone else who lives with conditions that make relationships difficult.
zalia
โif youโve had enough, thanks for trying..โ then the levitation ๐ญ i got chills