Silhouette
Peter Herbolzheimer R C & B Lyrics
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Yeah, This is how it begun
The first time that pills got me stun
The story of how my ex just saw me as a pawn
Playing chess with my mind just for fun
I've never felt something this strong before
Not finding the exit not know where to look for
In this shit called love I got no mentor
This ain't a rap about me showing my skill
I'm here to tell ya'll how it really feels
To get your heart broken and never heal
To feel useless like a car with no steering wheel
I thought our love could never be defeated
I was so stupid I was so conceited
Cause when you went with that guy and you cheated
That was the first time that I really felt depleted
So when I found out
I went to my room I start to scream and shout
Obsessive compulsive disorder cause my mind is full of doubt
I always gave my best to you so what the fuck was that all about
Turns out that Like a hotel of our relantionship I had to check out
Maybe it was just for the trhill
Maybe I should eat a pill
My body asking to overfill
I try to resist but maybe I can't
Asking myself if love could really kill
I fucking swear that the pills started to speak to me
Overdose solution seemed to be
Voices in my mind messing with my reality
So I look at the pills and give in
Embracing the devil within
My whole world starts to spin
I start to forget all the pain I live in
So I take 1
So I take 2
I took 1 2 3 4
I dropped to the floor
But still hungry for more
An evil creature starts to form, he enters my room and he closes the door
He starts to speak to me and he asks
This is what you fell for?
A bitch is what you cared for?
Now tell what the fuck do you stand for?
He says follow me
As he continues to speak to me
Reminding me all of the things that I want to forget
Reminding every decision in my life that I fucking regret
I started to sweat
Everything in the room is spinning like a fucking roulette
He reminds me of how my ex ate all my feelings like a fucking buffet
I start to realize that he looks like some kind of silhouette
He pulls out a cigarrete
And he says
Look at me closely
What do you see
Once you figure this shit out I'm setting you free
It looked like a shadow begging to be free
I start Asking myself who the fuck is this creature gonna be
Hey
Wait
He has my hands
My feet
How could it be
Turns out I'm killing myself
Cause he's just a reflection of me
The lyrics of Peter Herbolzheimer R C & B's song "Silhouette" paint a poignant picture of a person's struggle with emotional pain, heartbreak, and self-destructive tendencies. The singer reflects on a profound moment in their life when they felt overwhelmed by heartbreak, betrayal, and a sense of worthlessness. The use of pills symbolizes a coping mechanism that ultimately spirals into self-harm and self-reflection.
The opening lines reveal the vulnerability and despair the singer felt when they were on the brink of self-destruction. They recount a relationship where they felt used and manipulated, highlighting the destructive power of love gone wrong. The imagery of playing chess with their mind and feeling like a pawn underscores the power dynamics and emotional manipulation at play in the relationship.
As the lyrics progress, the singer delves into their inner turmoil and feelings of inadequacy. The theme of betrayal and heartbreak echoes throughout, as they grapple with the realization that their love was not reciprocated and was ultimately betrayed. The use of pills as a metaphor for escapism and surrender to darkness reflects their inner turmoil and struggle to cope with overwhelming emotions.
The lyrics take a dark turn as the singer describes succumbing to the temptation of self-destructive behavior, personified by an evil creature that represents their own inner demons and insecurities. The encounter with this silhouette serves as a mirror reflecting their inner struggles and the consequences of their actions. The realization that they are the architect of their own suffering is a powerful revelation that highlights the destructive nature of unresolved emotional pain and self-sabotage.
In the end, the lyrics convey a sense of introspection and the painful journey towards self-awareness and acceptance. The singer confronts their own demons and acknowledges the destructive patterns that have led them to the brink of self-destruction. The haunting image of the silhouette as a distorted reflection of themselves serves as a powerful reminder of the consequences of unchecked emotional turmoil and the importance of confronting one's inner struggles before they consume them entirely.
Line by Line Meaning
This is the one time that I was close to be gone
I was on the brink of being destroyed or lost at this particular moment
Yeah, This is how it begun
Yes, this is where it all started
The first time that pills got me stun
The initial occasion when pills left me shocked or amazed
The story of how my ex just saw me as a pawn
Narrating how my former partner viewed me as a mere chess piece
Playing chess with my mind just for fun
Toying with my thoughts for sheer enjoyment
I've never felt something this strong before
I've never experienced such intense emotions in the past
Not finding the exit not know where to look for
Unable to locate an escape route or direction to search
In this shit called love I got no mentor
I am lacking guidance in this troublesome aspect known as love
No one ever told me that I was falling for a whore
No individual cautioned me about falling for someone deceitful
This ain't a rap about me showing my skill
This track does not showcase my rapping abilities
I'm here to tell ya'll how it really feels
My aim is to convey the true emotions associated with this situation to everyone
To get your heart broken and never heal
To have your heart shattered and never fully recover thereafter
To feel useless like a car with no steering wheel
To feel purposeless or directionless like a vehicle without a steering mechanism
I thought our love could never be defeated
I believed our love was impervious to failure
I was so stupid I was so conceited
I now realize how foolish and self-absorbed I was
Cause when you went with that guy and you cheated
Because you decided to be unfaithful with another man
That was the first time that I really felt depleted
That marked the initial moment when I truly felt drained or exhausted
So when I found out
Upon discovering this information
I went to my room I start to scream and shout
I retreated to my room and began yelling vigorously
Obsessive compulsive disorder cause my mind is full of doubt
Obsessive-compulsive behavior triggered by my prevalent uncertainty
I always gave my best to you so what the fuck was that all about
I consistently offered my utmost efforts to you, so what was the point of that betrayal
Turns out that Like a hotel of our relationship I had to check out
It became apparent that, similar to exiting a hotel, I needed to leave our relationship
Maybe it was just for the thrill
Perhaps it was solely for the excitement or enjoyment
Maybe I should eat a pill
Possibly I should consume a pill
My body asking to overfill
My physical form desiring to be completely filled
I try to resist but maybe I can't
I attempt to resist, yet it seems futile
Asking myself if love could really kill
Questioning whether love has the power to be lethal
I fucking swear that the pills started to speak to me
I swear that the pills began communicating with me
Overdose solution seemed to be
An overdose appeared to be the solution
Voices in my mind messing with my reality
Voices in my head disturbing my perception of reality
So I look at the pills and give in
Consequently, I gaze at the pills and succumb to them
Embracing the devil within
Accepting the evil aspect of myself
My whole world starts to spin
My entire world begins to rotate
I start to forget all the pain I live in
I commence forgetting all the anguish I dwell in
So I take 1
Thus, I ingest one
So I take 2
Subsequently, I consume two
I took 1 2 3 4
I ingested one, two, three, four
I dropped to the floor
I collapsed onto the ground
But still hungry for more
However, desiring additional quantities
An evil creature starts to form, he enters my room and he closes the door
A malevolent entity materializes, wandering into my room and shutting the door behind
He starts to speak to me and he asks
He initiates a conversation with me and inquires
This is what you fell for?
Is this what you fell victim to?
A bitch is what you cared for?
Is a spiteful individual whom you cherished?
Now tell what the fuck do you stand for?
So tell me, what values or principles do you embody?
He says follow me
He instructs me to trail behind
As he continues to speak to me
While persisting in conversing with me
Reminding me all of the things that I want to forget
Recalling all the memories I wish to erase
Reminding every decision in my life that I fucking regret
Prompting me to remember each regrettable choice in my life
I started to sweat
I began perspiring heavily
Everything in the room is spinning like a fucking roulette
Objects in the room are whirling around akin to a roulette wheel
He reminds me of how my ex ate all my feelings like a fucking buffet
He recalls how my former partner devoured my emotions like a lavish feast
I start to realize that he looks like some kind of silhouette
I come to the realization that he resembles a particular outline or shape
He pulls out a cigarette
He extracts a cigarette
And he says
Then he utters
Look at me closely
Examine me attentively
What do you see
What do you discern or perceive
Once you figure this shit out I'm setting you free
Once you comprehend this situation, I will release you
It looked like a shadow begging to be free
It resembled a shadow pleading for liberation
I start Asking myself who the fuck is this creature gonna be
I begin questioning the identity or nature of this entity
Hey
Hey there
Wait
Hold on
He has my hands
He possesses my hands
My feet
And my feet
How could it be
How is this possible
Turns out I'm killing myself
It turns out I am self-destructing
Cause he's just a reflection of me
As he simply mirrors my own self
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Gerardo Hill
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