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Pist*On Lyrics

im happy
I may appear happy, but my true emotions are much more complex

im scared
Alongside my happiness, I am also prone to fear and anxiety

So lonely. so glad
I am torn between feelings of isolation and contentment

dont ask me to find a subject
I struggle to articulate my thoughts and feelings cohesively

i cant go back
I am unable to undo past actions that have led me to where I am now

dont ask me to tap my feelings
I am hesitant to delve too deep into my emotions due to the pain it may cause

the pains to great
The idea of confronting my emotions is too overwhelming

i want to see
I am yearning for clarity or understanding of my situation

take my arms
I am willing to relinquish control and allow someone else to guide me

take my legs
I want to escape, to leave behind my current circumstances

let me see...
I desire clarity or answers to the questions I have

i want to cry
I am overwhelmed with emotions and feel the need to express them

but these tears cant be seen through these eyes
Although I may appear strong, my inner turmoil cannot be gleaned through my tears

unlucky who cares?
I feel unheard and unseen by the world around me

so angry
I am frustrated with my circumstances and unable to see a way out

i stare
I am lost in thought, unable to process my emotions

i open my arms to something thats not there
I am seeking comfort or connection, but cannot find it in my current surroundings

i close my eyes so i can taste air
I am attempting to connect with my surroundings in a different way to feel more grounded

i hate the world i...
I am overwhelmed with negativity and feel disdain for the world around me

i hate the world now!
My current circumstances are causing me great distress

i hate the world i cant see...
I am unable to perceive a way out of my current situation and it is causing me intense emotional pain

i hate me, i dont care
My negative feelings towards myself are so strong that I am unable to rouse any sense of self-compassion or care

i need to close the door now so stand there
I am closing myself off emotionally and do not wish to receive support from those around me

i feel a face beside me
I am aware of the presence of others around me, but unwilling to acknowledge them or their support

you cant walk out
I am afraid of losing connections or support from those around me, but am unable to express that vulnerability.