Depression
Quando Rondo Lyrics

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Pause and reflect before you continue with what you were saying

Hold on bruh, you too slime (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Wait up there, you're moving too fast, my friend

Youngin' big blue, but deep inside, he like a red rose
Although he appears tough on the outside, he is soft and vulnerable inside

Bank account on overload, but I'm still broke in spirit
Despite having a lot of money, I am still hurting mentally and emotionally

"Depression what he suffer from" same words from Doctor Henry (yeah)
A doctor diagnosed me with depression, and it is something I am truly suffering from

It ain't no love inside the slums know if they could they'd kill me
There is no love or mercy in the ghetto; people here would kill me given the chance

For sixty days and sixty nights, I been goin' hard off this Ecstasy
I've been using Ecstasy heavily for the past two months

I pray to God that my killer don't be the nigga sittin' next to me
I fear that someone close to me might harm or kill me

Keep ya circle tight, this mornin' Nishay sent a text to me
My friend Nishay reminded me to keep my trusted circle tight

Like, "They just want ya spark, reached for the stars, youngin' you blessed to see"
There are people who want to see me fail, but I should focus on my blessings

Pablo callin' from the yard like "Drop that shit, it's time to bless the streets"
My friend Pablo is urging me to release new music to the streets

I had to make myself a boss, they want the sauce like, "What's the recipe?"
I had to become a leader and create my own success because others wanted to know my secret

Deep down inside I'm feelin' lost, I got a pay 'em for the church, yeah
I feel lost inside, and I am trying to find solace by making donations to the church

I'm bonding out my nigga off for the way he look, he wanna bury me
I am trying to bail out a friend who looks like me and who might want to hurt me

I was taught that loyalty is priceless so true love shouldn't cost a dime
I learned that loyalty is valuable, and true love should not require money

I done been scarred by your love, so deep inside, my heart still cryin'
I've been hurt and traumatized by people who claimed to love me, and it still affects me deeply

No, it don't matter how far I look, for some reason, I can't find
Although I've searched far and wide, I have not found what I am looking for

I keep abusin' these drugs to substitute what's on my mind
I am using drugs to cope with my mental and emotional pain

I need someone to hold me down and have my back just like my spine
I need someone who will support me unconditionally and always be there for me

I'ma let off shots from that four pound and double back, empty the nine
I am prepared to use my gun and defend myself if necessary

I seen it in my grandma face, she was hurtin' from Auntie Porter
I saw the pain in my grandma's face when she learned about Auntie Porter's misfortune

Feds did a sweep on 38th, we flushed the pills inside the toilet
The police raided our location on 38th street, so we had to get rid of the illegal pills by flushing them down the toilet

Last night been tweakin' off of Percocets, I'm steady hittin' bars
I was high on Percocets last night and still drinking heavily

She say I got the Percs, shawty can't even abort me
A woman claims that I have access to Percocets, so she won't leave me alone

When I was locked in juvenile and called they phone, them folks ignored me
When I was in juvenile detention, my own family ignored my calls

But now they all suitcase-ready every time the plane gettin' boarded
Now that I've achieved success, my family and friends are always eager to travel with me

You all on Instagram, flexin', can't even send your partna no money
Some people flaunt their wealth on Instagram but refuse to help their friends in need

It ain't no love inside my section to the point where it ain't funny
There is no love or camaraderie in my community, and it is very serious

Just call from Uncle Teddy like, "Nephew, just keep on goin'"
My Uncle Teddy encourages me to persevere, even in tough times

'Cause I can't seem to kick the drink, day and night Lean, I'm steady pourin'
I am struggling to quit alcohol and Lean, and I continue to use it excessively

Now, I'm designer head-to-toe, she ain't wanna fuck when I wear Jordan's
Now that I'm wealthy, women are only interested in me when I wear expensive designer clothes and shoes, not when I am more casual

Might have a baby with this Haitian bitch just so my child be foreign
I am considering having a child with a Haitian woman so that they will be considered exotic or foreign

I'm paper chasin' in 'bout sixty ways, I gotta run up more
I am chasing money in many different ways and will continue to do so

They was on the basketball court when I was catchin' time in court
While others were playing basketball, I was attending court appearances for my legal troubles

Sometimes I gotta hit my knees and pray like, "Please forgive me Lord"
At times, I need to pray to God and ask for forgiveness for my past mistakes

I'm steady caught up in my wicked ways, grippin' extension cords
I continue to struggle with my criminal tendencies and have weapons on me at all times

Before I blew up, they ain't root for me, I couldn't get support
Before I became successful, no one supported me or my dreams

Now everybody wanna shoot for me just 'cause I live the lore
Now that I am famous, everyone wants to be associated with me and benefit from my success

Grippin' this glock, city to city, day and night I keep on tourin'
I have my gun with me at all times while on tour to protect myself

In fact, I know that they ain't with me, the reason my heart so torn
I know that some people around me are only pretending to be supportive, and it causes me great emotional pain

The number one reason they hate because I made it out the storm
The main reason some people resent me is because I was able to rise above adversity and become successful

Penitentiary chances I take, sometimes I wish I wasn't born
I take major risks that could land me in prison, and sometimes I question my existence

No they can't say they wasn't warned (No they can't say they wasn't warned, oh, ay)
People can't say they weren't warned about the dangers of the lifestyle I lead

Deep down inside, I'm steady cryin'
Although I appear strong on the outside, I am constantly hurting inside