The Beginning
R-Swift Lyrics


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What did I do to deserve this
Medication on the table
Xanax for when I feel nervous
Percocet for pain that I can't muffle
She asks what I'm on I say I'm on a couple
You left my lonely life when I had no plan
I quit the drugs and quit the drinking to be your man
You had the nerve to say you loved me but still left me alone
And for this I gift you my blood and a bottle of Patron
Step into the club and I'm tryna find some love
I never fail to fall for girls who don't care for me
Wasted my times doing things you won't do for me
I play the girls just so they can give me company
Cause I'm lonely
Ever since you left me
I wallow in my misery
I play the girls just so they can give me company
Cause I'm lonely




Ever since you left me
I wallow in my misery

Overall Meaning

The lyrics performed by R-Swift in his song "The Beginning" explore the emotions of a person who is struggling to come to terms with a recent heartbreak. The opening verse of the song indicates that the singer is experiencing a sense of hopelessness, which has led to him seeking solace in medication. The table in the room holds prescription drugs such as Xanax and Percocet, which serve different purposes. Xanax is used to combat nervousness and anxiety, while Percocet is a painkiller used to alleviate physical pain. The singer takes both medications, suggesting that he is battling both mental and physical pain.


In the next verse, the singer reflects on his past relationship, describing it as one where he gave his all while receiving little in return. The woman he was with ended the relationship, leaving him feeling lonely and lost. In response, the singer gave up his vices of drinking and drugs to be a better partner, but it was all in vain. He feels especially hurt by the fact that the woman had the nerve to say she loved him before leaving him alone. The chorus finds the singer in a nightclub trying to find someone to numb his loneliness. He admits that he tends to fall for women who do not reciprocate, leading him to play games with them just to have some companionship. He concludes by stating that he is wallowing in misery since being left alone.


Overall, the song depicts the pain of heartbreak and the desperate attempts to find something, anything, to fill the void of loneliness. The singer's struggle with addiction and his dependence on medication to deal with his distress adds to the sense of loss and melancholy.


Line by Line Meaning

What did I do to deserve this
Why am I going through this painful experience?


Medication on the table
I have resorted to using drugs to numb my pain.


Xanax for when I feel nervous
I take Xanax when my anxiety is prevalent.


Percocet for pain that I can't muffle
I use Percocet when the pain is too strong to silence.


She asks what I'm on I say I'm on a couple
I lie about the amount of substances I am taking to those who question me.


You left my lonely life when I had no plan
You abandoned me when I needed you the most and I was lost without you.


I quit the drugs and quit the drinking to be your man
I made a commitment to stop abusing substances to be with you.


You had the nerve to say you loved me but still left me alone
You claimed to love me but still walked away, leaving me by myself.


And for this I gift you my blood and a bottle of Patron
I am offering you a symbolic gesture of blood and alcohol to represent the pain you have caused me.


Step into the club and I'm tryna find some love
I am seeking affection from others at the club.


I never fail to fall for girls who don't care for me
I am drawn to girls who have no interest in me.


Wasted my times doing things you won't do for me
I spent so much time giving you my all, but you never reciprocated.


I play the girls just so they can give me company
I use girls as a temporary form of company and attention.


Cause I'm lonely
I feel isolated and crave human connection.


Ever since you left me
My feelings of loneliness intensified when you walked away from me.


I wallow in my misery
I am stuck in my sadness and find it difficult to move on.




Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Slater Sneed

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preach2dastreets

I shed a tear listening to this song thinking abuot a youth i tried reaching out to with the gospel. Keep preaching the gospel to youths who are caught up guys, and everyone else too

preludin1

THIS IS ILLMATIC!

EliYahu Chozenfew

Luv dis album

sintje21

wow, (left speechless)

PaperGrape

Man, this is the hard truth. But it doesn't have to end for anyone like that. To them that believed on his name, he gave the power to become the children of God.

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Can I Get The Lyrics To This?

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RSwizzL

Deep. Song is ill.

James Fizerl

buy the song on itunes and show some support. Stealing is a sin.

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