Harder
R.A. (re:plus × Ai Ninomiya) Lyrics

Overthinking every memory, like will my life ever get harder?
I obsess over every memory, wondering if life will ever become more difficult for me.

I guess i will never know, that's why i always say to my bro "Yo let's go to the bottleo"
I don't have the answer, so I distract myself and suggest going to the liquor store with my friend.

Maybe then we will feel alive, when we taking them xannies with the lean
I hope that by getting high on prescription pills and cough syrup, we will finally feel some excitement in life.

And that's why i always went to drugs because my life is so hard
I turn to substance abuse because I can't handle how difficult my life is.

I stare at the celling every night, maybe if i'm high it will be alright
I lay in bed at night, hoping that getting high will make everything okay.

But when the demons are near by, nothing ever feels right
However, when my emotional struggles return, nothing actually feels better.

Yeah i can't trust these people anymore, i have these trust issues Because so many people left me and now i'm just so depressed
I struggle to trust anyone because many people in my life have abandoned me, leading to constant feelings of depression.

Press it down till i get stressed, lonely guess my life is a mess
In an attempt to cope, I suppress my feelings until I become overwhelmed with stress, leaving me feeling isolated and hopeless.

Now i feel like i gotta make this music so i feel Something but dread Yo i guess i just wanna be dead
I turn to making music as a way to feel something, but it only brings me more feelings of dread and hopelessness. I often wish I could simply die.

I just wanna walk this road alone Over seeing the world like a drone Now i'm just so far from my home Yeah i just wanna go home
I feel disconnected from the world and want to be alone, while also longing for the comfort of my own home.

So far from home, just have these raps in my dome I don't have anywhere to roam anymore, vaping on that 2 ohm
Even though I am not physically far from home, I feel trapped and unable to find my place in the world. I cope by vaping.

Everyone hates me, im just so busy, making this music No time for a relationship, shit that's why i'm so alone
I feel like everyone dislikes me, and while I am very busy making music, I also don't have time to pursue meaningful relationships.

All i can do is moan when i have to get into the studio again Maybe that's why i'm a lonewolf, never get shit done on time
I dread the thought of going into the studio, and my procrastination and inability to meet deadlines may be why I am always alone.

All i can think of is that lime in the glass of vodka I just feel like i'm not in my prime, so all i do is rhyme
I am constantly reminded of alcohol, and I feel like I'm not at my best, leading me to focus solely on my music.

Thinking is it my time? Am i just a dick Am i just a bad person? I know i can change just never put it past me, because everyone's pasting me
I often question whether I am a bad person and wonder if I am capable of changing. However, I also feel like people only see me for my past mistakes.

So addicted to drugs and alcohol, that i never see the real world But leaves me asking do i wanna see that
My addiction to drugs and alcohol blinds me from the reality of life, which leads me to question whether or not I want to face it.

They say it's fucked up, people getting stabbed everywhere Lucas don't you dare look at that person the wrong way You'll be 6ft deep, fuck is it really that bad?
Events like people getting stabbed happen so frequently that it's considered normal, leading me to question how bad things really are.

Met my ex and every since i've been sad, what the fuck why is that?
Ever since I saw my ex again, I have been feeling really down, and I don't understand why it's affecting me so much.