Body Dysmorphia
RAYE Lyrics

I let my fingers pinch my skin
I engage in harmful self-harm behaviors, using my fingers to pinch my skin, which reflects my dissatisfaction with my body.

I'm so hungry, I can't sleep
My obsession with my body and appearance has led me to restrict my food intake to the point of extreme hunger, interfering with my ability to sleep.

But I know if I eat Then I'll be in the bathroom on my knees
When I do give in to my hunger and eat, it triggers feelings of guilt and shame, resulting in engaging in purging behaviors in the bathroom.

I hate the way my face is square I hate my arms inside these sleeves
I have a deep dislike for the shape of my face, as well as the appearance of my arms when covered by sleeves, highlighting the extent of my body dissatisfaction.

For this hourglass we all desire I wear three corsets underneath
In pursuit of the coveted hourglass figure, which society idealizes, I resort to wearing multiple corsets underneath my clothes to artificially create the appearance of a smaller waist.

XL T-shirts, baggy jeans So I don't have to stress about it
I choose to wear oversized clothing, such as XL T-shirts and baggy jeans, as a coping mechanism to hide the flaws I perceive in my body, alleviating some of my anxiety and stress.

Marijuana every day, so I cannot obsess about it
I rely on the consistent use of marijuana to escape from the constant obsessive thoughts and preoccupations I have regarding my body and appearance.

How can I expect you to romance me Touch my body, baby? I don't even want to take it off for you So turn the lights off
Due to my deep insecurity and dissatisfaction with my body, I struggle to feel comfortable and worthy of romantic intimacy. I prefer to keep the lights off and avoid exposing my body to avoid judgment and rejection.

And I don't really like my body But knowing it's my only body I should pro'ly call somebody I should really show you how I'm feeling inside
Despite my dislike for my body, I recognize that it is the only body I have, and this realization makes me contemplate seeking help and support from someone to express the emotional turmoil I experience internally.

Matter fact, I'm glad you called me I've been hiding, I been high And I've been sleeping hungry
The fact that you reached out to me is comforting because I have been isolating myself, turning to substance use, and enduring periods of hunger-induced sleep, all of which are unhealthy coping mechanisms.

I hug my knees, I squeeze my waist There's so much that I want to change
In moments of distress, I resort to squeezing my waist and hugging my knees, demonstrating the overwhelming desire I have to alter various aspects of my body in order to conform to societal beauty standards.

Yes, lately I've been thinking 'bout the ways to rearrange my face I wanna cut pieces off Looking in the mirror Want to take a pair of scissors Sadly, dear, I wanna cut pieces off
In a state of dissatisfaction and despair, I constantly contemplate and fantasize about surgically altering my face, even to the extent of wanting to physically cut parts of it off with scissors, highlighting the severity of my body dysmorphia.

Lately, I've been so depressed about it No one sees what I can see and I'm so fuckin' scared about it
I have been experiencing intense sadness and depression due to my body dysmorphia. The isolation arises from the fact that others cannot perceive and understand the distorted image I have of myself, leading to a profound sense of fear.

I think when I grow older I'm going to get a nose job I have a bump in my nose and it's ugly
Looking towards the future, I contemplate undergoing a nose job to change the appearance of my nose, specifically to remove a bump that I consider unattractive.

When I grow up I want to be skinny but with an hourglass figure I hope I'll be pretty when I grow up or I think I'll be sad
As I envision my future, my desire is to attain a thin physique while maintaining the desired hourglass figure. I fear that if I don't achieve this ideal of beauty, I will experience ongoing sadness and dissatisfaction.