Still Alive
Randolph Lyrics

I was, 15 years old, had the world at my feet and I didn't know
At 15, I had great potential but didn't realize it

How much of a chance I had to blow, I just made music on the down low
I didn't understand how close I was to failure, and ignored other options to pursue music secretly

But didn't play notes, lyrics I wrote
My music was solely focused on lyrics

My whole damn school, dropping the jokes
My peers made fun of me and my music aspirations

too white to rap, too fat to rap, too weird to make it work
I was mocked due to my race, appearance, and unconventional style

so I went BACK to the drawing board
I retreated to re-evaluate my approach and work on improving myself

BACK to rapping back and forth
I returned to the basic elements of rap to improve my skills

I WORKED to get myself to a point
I put in a lot of effort to reach a level of success

where I get love and support
I found a supportive community that appreciated my music

But my hometown was dead
My hometown lacked a music scene

There was no music in the air
Music wasn't being produced or celebrated locally

…. Still no body cared
My music wasn't getting much recognition despite my efforts

Right there's that when I went and prepared
That's when I took action and prepared for a change

To get my music on the interest, I posted it upon YouTube
I turned to YouTube to share my music with a wider audience

Not being rude, but I sat back, I watched that and I got views
I humbly observed my success on YouTube and saw my views increase

I felt like a king, like I finally found my reason my reason be here
I finally found purpose in my music and felt successful

Everything so clear, no longer would I get called weird
I gained confidence and validation as an artist

Then one thing led to another, got mad people saying they love it
My popularity grew and I gained many fans

Got mad people hitting me up saying they wanna hear loads more of it
My fans were eager to hear more of my music

And then rest was history, went and made all of the hits you see
I went on to create successful music hits

But stopped it all to go to school, the reason why? it's a mystery
I decided to put my music career on hold to return to school, for unknown reasons

Nah I ain't gonna LIE
I won't be dishonest

When I look up to the SKY
When I look up at the sky

I realise why I'm still Alive
I realize why I'm still alive and doing well

Killing this life like
I'm succeeding greatly in my life

Nah I ain't gonna lie, those days were the darkest of my life
I went through difficult times that were the worst I had ever experienced

Felt like a part of me had died, along with 100 hundred sleepless nights
I felt like I lost something important and it caused me many sleepless nights

Cause no longer was I living my dream, Instead I was living somebody elses
I was no longer pursuing my own dreams, but living according to someone else's expectations

Living alone in a cold dry place, FROZEN, yeah man something like elsas
I felt isolated in a depressing environment, similar to the cold and unfeeling character Elsa from Frozen

Can't get no help, cause I'm too damn proud, to admit my pain
I couldn't ask for help because I was too stubborn to acknowledge my struggles

So instead I admit defeat, hang up my coat, and end my reign
I gave up and stopped pursuing my music career

Meanwhile, everybody else is winning, everybody else is singing
While I was struggling, others were experiencing success

I'm sat writing essays, when there's songs that should have been written
I felt like I was wasting my time on tasks that weren't important to me

Nah I ain't gonna lie, at the time I hated life
I was unhappy and disliked my situation

Depression had taken over and a part of my had died
I was impacted by depression and lost a part of myself in the process

But then I had an epiphany, so right now hope you're listening
I had a sudden realization that changed my perspective and life circumstances

Opened up the curtains saw the sky f*cking glistening
I saw beauty and hope in the world around me

I felt so small, like my don't even matter
I felt insignificant and like my existence didn't have value

‘Cause it's true, should be stepping forward, not stepping backwards
I realized that I needed to move forward and not regress

So any time that you're down in the world, just look up to the sky
In tough times, it can help to find hope in the world around you

see the beauty in your eye, get back up and kill it LIKE
Keep pushing and persevere to achieve your goals and dreams