Mars
Redveil Lyrics

I'm exhausted
I am mentally and physically tired

Wake and do what pays me, that ain't never take caution
I wake up and engage in activities solely for monetary gain, without considering the potential risks

Know I'm 'bout to hear that, 'Ah shit,' when I walk in
I am aware that people will react negatively or express frustration when I enter a room

I don't even want it for real, shit make me nauseous, but
I don't truly desire it, in fact, it disgusts me, but

My whole existence reminiscent to a broke faucet
My entire life resembles a faulty faucet, constantly leaking and unable to function properly

I might just leak, but keep flowing be the only option
I may continue to leak or struggle, but I have no choice but to keep going

Alienated as a bitch, the first Black Martian
I feel disconnected and isolated, like an outcast, being the first Black Martian

And all them days my brain was fucked, was out the crib walking
During those troubled days when my mind was in chaos, I would wander aimlessly

And looking for a place to call home, uh
I was searching for a sense of belonging and a place where I feel accepted

Just looking for a place I'm valued when I'm talking
Simply seeking a place where my thoughts and opinions are respected and appreciated

I'm gon' get lost tryn' find the sun
I will willingly lose myself while attempting to find happiness and fulfillment

Where my coffin at?
Where will my death eventually come?

My lungs itch, they pass me shit to see me coughing
I feel a discomfort in my lungs, and others intentionally provide me with substances that make me cough

And they gon' keep a smile up like that shit awesome?
And they will continue to appear happy, pretending that everything is great?

Every time they come around, I be playing possum
Whenever they are near, I pretend to be unresponsive or inactive

Rip them wings off my back, I won't fly away
Take away my freedom and abilities, but I won't escape or avoid my problems

Nigga, what's the deal, I got time today
Hey, what's going on? I have plenty of time available now

I can see the light, it's a mile away
I can perceive a glimmer of hope, yet it is still far off in the distance

It's a mile, it's a mile, it's a mile
The distance to that light is significant and seemingly endless

A million steps with the same flesh that I came with
I have taken countless journeys while still being the same person I started as

I only vent with the same breath that I sang with
I express my frustrations and emotions using the same voice and passion that I sing with

Ongoing brawls in my brain
There are constant battles and conflicts occurring within my mind

I reach for y'all, I'm gon' strain
I extend my hands towards others, even if it causes me to experience pain

I been the one to not lane switch
I have always remained consistent and true to myself, not deviating from my chosen path

But I look like a fool resenting you and you kin to me
However, I appear foolish for harboring resentment towards you, someone who is related to me

Everyday been clear since I found out you ain't the enemy
Once I realized that you are not my enemy, every day has become more clear and understandable

My nigga
My friend

Grab me when I sink, sharp me when they move slicker
Support me when I am struggling, and keep me on guard when others try to deceive me

I know how to swim, but I swear that blood thicker
I am capable of swimming, but I strongly believe that family bonds are more significant and influential

All I need to learn is showing skin
All I need to discover is how to be vulnerable and open

I swear it's something 'bout my people only finding solace in the pen
There is something about my community that often seeks emotional comfort and release through writing or creativity

Never frolicked in the wind but figured how to blow
I have never joyfully played in the wind, but I have learned how to make an impact or succeed

Most time we just wan' feel freedom so we get it how we know
Most of the time, we simply desire to experience freedom, so we attain it in the ways we are familiar with

I pull up and you pull up and we both spill, that's how it go
I arrive or show up, and you also arrive or show up, resulting in both of us sharing and revealing our truths, that's just how it happens

Interlocking get us solid, I can't do this on my own
By joining forces and supporting each other, we become stronger and more stable. I cannot handle this alone

Said I can't do this on my own, look
I repeat that I cannot face this alone, you see

But I still, but I still, but I still, but I still
Nevertheless, I continue on, despite the difficulties and challenges