Desperate
Rosey Lyrics

It took a long time, but I'm still not over it
I have experienced something traumatic, and while a significant amount of time has passed, I'm still dealing with the aftermath of it.

So many things in this life, I'm just starting to understand
As I grow older, I am becoming more aware and gaining a better understanding of how the world works.

I look in the mirror, and I am talking back to you
When I stare at my reflection, I see the remnants of another person who was a significant part of my life.

And I know you have to get better, for me to do it too
In order for me to move on and heal, I recognize that the other person who was involved in my pain also needs to work on themselves.

No one will ever love me that way again
I fear that nobody will ever love me the way that the person who hurt me did.

I swear I'll never be that desperate not again
I am committed to never allowing myself to be in a position of desperation like I was in the past.

Do you remember, the last night we were together
I am reminiscing about the final time we spent together, likely with a mix of emotions.

What you said, when you took my head and you held it on
I can remember what you said to me and how you held me, even though the experience was possibly traumatic.

The floor, maybe you were wasted, maybe I let you forget
I can't tell whether you were under the influence of something, or if I was actively trying to forget what was happening.

Because I couldn't believe what you were doing to me
At the time, I was so surprised and shocked by what was happening to me that I couldn't even accept it was real.

And I still don't believe it now...
I am still grappling with the reality of what happened and can't fully accept it even now.

I'm terrified of love, but I'm more scared of being left alone,
I am hesitant to open myself up to the possibility of love because I fear that the other person will leave me alone and in pain again.

Don't treat the one you love like a criminal
I've been hurt before, and I would warn others not to treat their partners with contempt and disrespect.

And don't look for me, cause I'll be gone....
I am determined to move on and continue my journey of healing, and I don't want to be found or pursued by anyone else as I do so.

I had to find out, I have to do it all by myself
I recognize that I need to take charge of my healing journey and rely on myself to find the answers I need.

'Cause the one I want to help me can't even get up,
The person who hurt me in the past is unable to assist me in my journey towards healing, so it's up to me to do it on my own.

So get out, let me go now!!
I need to be free from the person who hurt me and begin to move on without them.

No one will ever touch me that way again
Not only am I afraid that I won't be loved the way I once was, but I am also wary of being touched in a hurtful, traumatic way ever again.

No one, no one will love me, not like I know you did
I am sure that nobody will ever love me the way that you did, which makes the loss even more painful.

But I swear I'll never be that desperate not again
Even though I am grappling with a lot of pain and loss, I am committed to never being in such a desperate state again.

One is the loneliest number and you know I'd love to love you
I am aware that being alone can be incredibly lonely, and even though I would like to love you, I can't be with you.

But I ain't the one you'll come home to or run to
I am not the person you will come to for comfort or support, even if we have a connection.

I'll be on the road, gone before you know
I will have to leave and continue on my journey too soon, likely without saying goodbye.

All around the world, back again
I am moving through the world, learning and experiencing different things in my journey towards healing.

Baby you understand, cause this is our time
I hope that you can sympathize and relate to my experience, as this period of time is very important for me.

Hold me love, hold me tight...
Even though we can't be together, I still crave human touch and attention as I heal.

One, but so much more
While I am only one person, I have so many layers and facets to my identity and experience.

One, cause I've been waiting so long for
I have been waiting for a long time for someone to come into my life and love me the way I deserve.

One who'll bring out that heavy heart in me
I am searching for someone who will be able to understand my pain and help me work through it.

One cause I am alone
I am alone right now and would like to find someone to be with.

Could you be, could you be the one, the one for me
I am hoping that there is somebody out there who will be able to love and support me in the way that I need.

I'm crazy for you baby, could you, could you be...
While I am hesitant to open myself up to love, I am still deeply desirous of finding someone who I can love and who will love me back.