NO WAY
RudyWade Lyrics

Wish I knew that it was easier in dreams
I wish I had known that life would be simpler and less painful if it were just a dream.

But you knew all along it was never me
You were aware from the beginning that I was not the right person for you.

You knew our love story it wasn't meant to be
You understood that our relationship was not destined to work out.

Put me through fire knowingly thats what it seems
You intentionally subjected me to painful experiences, as if you wanted to see me suffer.

No way
Absolutely not.

No way you inflicted all this pain
There is no denying that you caused me immense pain and suffering.

You died to me when you walked away
In my eyes, you ceased to exist when you decided to leave me.

I tried but you couldn't say the same
I made an effort to save our relationship, but you did not put in the same level of effort.

Why don't you look in the mirror and see your fucked up face
Have you ever taken a good look at yourself and recognized how messed up you are?

You're living in my head rent free with my demons
You have a permanent residence in my mind, constantly haunting me alongside my own inner struggles.

Addicted to you now got a fix while you're leaving
I find myself craving your presence even though you're in the process of abandoning me.

I'm falling from the stars while you're too busy deceiving
While I am spiraling into darkness and despair, you are too preoccupied with lying and betraying others.

I hope that I can heal from the trauma I'm receiving
I hold onto the hope that I can eventually recover and overcome the pain and torment you have caused me.

You told me lies
You consistently fed me false information.

You told me everything to lead me on
You divulged everything necessary to give me false hope and keep me emotionally invested in you.

You used me for your gain and then you moved the fuck along
You took advantage of me to fulfill your own desires, and once you were satisfied, you quickly left without a care.

You brought me through a world of pain you don't know right from wrong
You dragged me through a realm of suffering, demonstrating that you lack a moral compass or understanding of what is ethical.

So don't expect forgiveness from me 'cause you're long gone
Do not anticipate receiving forgiveness from me because you are permanently out of my life.

Call this a farewell letter
Consider this as my way of saying goodbye.

That I'ma burn to the ground 'cause I know its for the better
I intend to destroy this farewell letter completely because I believe it is best to move on.

I lost my sanity mixing my pain up with the pleasure
I became mentally unstable by blurring the lines between my own suffering and the fleeting moments of happiness we had together.

We can't revitalize our time together
There is no way to revive or restore what we once had between us.

If I could count up all the stars in the sky
Even if I were able to quantify every star in the vast expanse of the sky,

It wouldn't add up to the resentment in your eyes
The bitterness and animosity you hold towards me would still outweigh any number of stars.

Wonder how all this time I could have been so blind
I question how I could have been so oblivious and unaware throughout our entire relationship.

So blind to not realize that you're bad for me
I was completely ignorant of the fact that you were detrimental to my well-being.

I cried knowing that you had it out for me
I shed tears, fully aware that you harbored ill intentions towards me.

So why did you tell me that you cared for me
If you truly cared for me, why did you deceive me?

Long nights of emotional despair for me
I endured extended periods of deep emotional anguish and hopelessness.

You don't care for me
You have no genuine concern or affection for me.

If I could count up all the stars in the sky
Even if I were able to quantify every star in the vast expanse of the sky,

It wouldn't add up to the resentment in your eyes
The bitterness and animosity you hold towards me would still outweigh any number of stars.

You're living in my head rent free with my demons
You reside in my thoughts without any cost, alongside my personal demons.

Addicted to you now got a fix while you're leaving
I find myself craving your presence even though you're in the process of leaving me behind.

I'm falling from the stars while you're too busy deceiving
As I plummet from the heights of my aspirations, you are preoccupied with manipulating and lying to others.

I hope that I can heal from the trauma I'm receiving
I hold onto the hope that I can eventually recover and overcome the emotional wounds inflicted upon me.