Paratrooper's Battlecry
Ruston Kelly Lyrics

Feels like I'm cursed when the drugs don't work
My drug addiction is causing my life to spiral out of control, making me feel helpless and powerless.

So I bought a statue of Jesus
I turned to religion and spirituality to try and find some sort of hope or comfort.

And listen to Abby's old high school demos
I'm listening to nostalgic and sentimental music to try and escape from the difficulties of my life.

And smoked a bag of reefer
I'm using marijuana to try and numb my pain and forget about my problems.

I got bills coming up, debts still due
I'm struggling financially and feel overwhelmed by the responsibilities of adulthood.

And I've got too much on my mind
I have an excessive amount of stress and anxiety on my plate, making it difficult for me to function.

To stay in the moment
It's hard for me to focus on the present moment when I'm preoccupied with so many other worries and stresses.

It's always blowing out the windows and into the night
My troubles and anxieties are constantly present and seem to permeate every aspect of my life, making it hard to escape them.

Stay behind me
I need support and companionship as I try and navigate through the struggles in my life.

My one sweet Loraine
This is a term of endearment for someone important in my life who I am seeking comfort and guidance from.

Stay in the shadow of the tower that fell
It's important to keep moving forward and not dwell on the negative events that have happened in the past.

Build me a castle, Maria, I'd pray
I want to find some sense of security and stability in my life, and am looking towards someone else to provide it.

Take these weeds outta my head
I want to try and overcome my anxieties and struggles so that I can have a clearer head and a more stable life.

When I'm barely living and almost dead
I'm going through a difficult time where I feel like my life is at a standstill and I'm struggling to stay afloat.

Yeah, yeah, yeah
This is an expression of my despair and helplessness.

I'm sick of getting lifted
I'm tired of trying to escape my problems through drug use and want to find a more sustainable solution.

Sick of going under
I'm tired of feeling overwhelmed and like my life is spiraling out of control.

Tired of giving too much
I'm feeling drained and exhausted from constantly trying to meet other people's needs and expectations.

I've been down in a hole for so long
I've been struggling with these issues for a long time, and can't seem to find a way out.

I don't know if any love could fill it back up
I'm doubtful that anything could fix the pain and emptiness that I feel inside.

I gotta move on and learn the times to be brave
I need to find the courage to face my problems head-on and not let my anxieties and fears control me.

Can't live in them old mistakes
I need to let go of my past regrets and learn from them, instead of dwelling on them.

And I remember what TK said:
This is a reference to a piece of advice that the singer received from someone named TK.

"You can't scare no boat by looking back at the wake"
It's unproductive and even harmful to focus too much on the past and the things you can't change. Instead, you need to focus on moving forward and making positive changes in your life.

Yeah, yeah, yeah
This is an expression of my determination to overcome my problems and find a better life.

Almost dead
This is an expression of how hard I'm struggling and how close I feel to giving up, but also a reminder that I haven't completely lost hope.