For those familiar with Rykarda Parasol’s music, know it has steadily progr… Read Full Bio ↴For those familiar with Rykarda Parasol’s music, know it has steadily progressed from the dark to light while still maintaining Parasol’s darkly-tinged voice and subdued off-center style. Her work has been likened to artists such as the Velvet Underground, Lee Hazelwood, Serge Gainsbourg among others.

Parasol released her fifth album, “Tuesday Morning”, October 24th, 2023. The album captures the cool shadowy chic so often aligned with her music. A mélange of psych, yé-yé, Motown, garage and dark folk influences that were present in her third and fourth albums (Against the Sun / Color of Destruction) respectively, Parasol’s latest album continuous the steady path of opening up her sound. Listening to her work chronologically, one can hear the personal voyage in parallel to the musical one. Parasol is currently working on her 6th album ETA October 2025.

RIYL: The Velvet Underground, Nico, Lana Del Rey, Patti Smith, Jacques Dutronc

I Vahnt Tou Beh Alohne
Rykarda Parasol Lyrics

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I didn't call you that day
It was easier to let it fall away.
And i'm sure i have saved you from pain
And you wouldn't believe it if I say:
"I want to be alone."

By the time they all realize,
Our eyes cannot meet their gaze.

All the stars will surrender -
An empty effort, complacent,
And strange.

I didn't wanna stay that night.
While my mind wired awake.
A division of brain and body began.
It's all the same, it's all the same.
"I want to be alone."

Oh let them stell you your desires.
They are incorrect and self deceived.

Well, i'm telling you I've got nothing,
an empty effort, complacent, and strange.

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of "I Vahnt Tou Beh Alohne" by Rykarda Parasol tap into themes of isolation, self-realization, and the struggle to communicate with others. The song begins with the singer discussing a missed opportunity to connect with someone they cared about. Although they didn't reach out to this person, the singer believes it was for the best because it saved the other person from pain. However, the singer admits that they secretly desire to be alone, which suggests that they struggle with forming intimate connections with others.

The second verse continues this theme of isolation, as the singer notes that they cannot maintain eye contact with others. The idea of "surrendered" stars reinforces the sense of inevitability and resignation that pervades the song. The third verse explores the division between mind and body, suggesting that the singer is unable to reconcile their inner thoughts and outward actions. This division culminates in the refrain: "I want to be alone," which captures the singer's ultimate desire for solitude.

The song concludes with a rejection of societal ideals of desire and fulfillment. The singer argues that these "desires" are misguided and ultimately unsatisfying. The repetition of "an empty effort, complacent, and strange" reinforces the sense of ennui and dissatisfaction that accompanies the singer's rejection of these societal norms. Overall, "I Vahnt Tou Beh Alohne" is a poignant exploration of loneliness, disconnection, and the search for meaning in an unfulfilling world.

Line by Line Meaning

I didn't call you that day
I intentionally didn't contact you on that day.

It was easier to let it fall away.
I chose not to address the situation and let it fade away.

And i'm sure i have saved you from pain
I am convinced that my decision prevented you from experiencing pain.

And you wouldn't believe it if I say:
I know you would not trust me if I told you that:

"I want to be alone."
"I need to be by myself."

By the time they all realize,
When everyone else eventually understands,

Our eyes cannot meet their gaze.
We can't look them in the eye.

All the stars will surrender -
The universe will give up on us -

An empty effort, complacent,
All our efforts will be futile, apathetic,

And strange.
And bizarre.

I didn't wanna stay that night.
I did not want to spend the night there.