SUN GOES DOWN
SUN GOES DOWN-Lil Nas X Lyrics

I wanna run away
I feel overwhelmed and want to escape my current situation

Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life
I don't want to pretend or live a life that doesn't feel authentic to me

Send me a gun
I want a way out, even if it means ending my life

And I'll see the sun
I hope to find peace and happiness after death

You need an instant ease
You're struggling and need a quick solution to alleviate your pain

From your life where you got plenty
Your life may seem good on the outside, but you still have internal struggles

Of every hurt and heartbreak
You've experienced a lot of pain and heartbreak in your life

You just take it all to the face
You've been dealing with these struggles alone and without any support

I know that you want to cry
I understand that you're hurting and want to express your emotions

But it's much more to life than dying
There's more to life than just giving up and ending it all

Over your past mistakes
You're still holding onto past mistakes and it's affecting your present

And people who threw dirt on your name
You've been hurt by others who have spoken ill of you or spread rumors

Since ten, I been feeling lonely
I've been struggling with feelings of loneliness since I was young

Had friends but they was picking on me
Even though I had friends, they didn't treat me well

Always thinking why my lips so big
I was self-conscious about my appearance and would constantly question myself

Was I too dark? Can they sense my fears?
I was worried that people judged me based on my skin color and could see my vulnerabilities

These gay thoughts would always haunt me
I struggled with my sexuality and it caused me a lot of internal turmoil

I prayed God would take it from me
I turned to religion hoping it would make my struggles go away

It's hard for you when you're fighting
It's difficult to struggle alone without support

And nobody knows it when you're silent
When you keep your struggles to yourself, it's hard for others to understand what you're going through

I'd be by the phone
I would spend a lot of time on my phone seeking comfort or distraction

Stanning Nicki morning into dawn
I found comfort in listening to Nicki Minaj's music and it helped me get through difficult times

Only place I felt like I belonged
Listening to music, especially from certain artists, made me feel like I wasn't alone

Strangers make you feel so loved, you know?
Online communities or fandoms can make you feel loved and accepted, even by strangers

And I'm happy by the way
I'm in a better place now and I'm proud of how far I've come

That I made that jump, that leap of faith
I took a risk and it paid off, making me feel more confident and empowered

I'm happy that it all worked out for me
Things may have been difficult, but I'm grateful for where I am now

I'ma make my fans so proud of me (oh)
I have a supportive fanbase and I want to keep making them proud

Oh-oh-oh
Musical interlude

No more
No more pain, no more struggles - I'm in a better place now