Very few things speak louder than progressive passion and at only 24 years … Read Full Bio ↴Very few things speak louder than progressive passion and at only 24 years of age, Sadistik has quickly become one of the most innovative new artists to display just that from the underground hip-hop scene, mainly due to his emphasis on artistic innovation rather than the oh-so-common ego-driven bravado. By crafting a sound that is uniquely his own with intricately woven rhymes that are both emotionally resounding and technically innovative, Sadistik has been garnering new fans since the release of his debut album "The Balancing Act." This record has been heralded by many critics for its beautifully composed production (mainly headed by multi-instrumentalist Emancipator) and fearlessly emotional potency because "after you are done listening to [it] you feel as though you have the world's strongest drug in your veins" (lastfm.com). Following both the critical and independent success of "The Balancing Act" was the release of the music video for the single titled "Searching for Some Beautiful" which was also highly received and was rewarded with its acceptance into MTVu. Sadistik's efforts are not limited to recordings, however, as he can be found performing his intimate yet energetic shows around his home of Seattle and around various cities in the United States. He is currently working on a new full-length album with Emancipator slated for an early 2011 release, as well as a follow up to "The Art of Dying" with Kid Called Computer and a solo album to follow shortly after.

Enter Kid Called Computer: A Kansas City native who moved to Chicago as a full-time creator of soundscapes. Branching from his production work for MCs such as Mac Lethal and Ces Cru, Kid Called Computer began creating solo instrumental music with his signature hybrid of classic hip hop bass and drums intertwined with heavy ambience and post-rock structuring and density. Sound bizarre? That's because it is. In a culture where just as many artists try to be different as those who try to conform, Kid Called Computer just is (italicize "is"). It is from this mutual disregard for the norm that Sadistik & Kid Called Computer formed as a duo. With so many commonalities in their outlook on music as well as their own individual strengths to bring to the table, Sadistik & Kid Called Computer have truly created a sound that is absolutely unique on their debut EP "The Art of Dying." Sadistik & Kid Called Computer are currently preparing for their upcoming national headlining tour and beginning to work on their follow-up release.

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Black Rose
Sadistik & Kid Called Computer Lyrics

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Ex-girlfriend: Whatever happens in the end, I don't wanna lose you as my friend.
Jack: I promise, I will never be your friend. No matter what. Ever.

It was December 24th when my chest caved in
And my everything called to say, "Let's stay friends."
Well, not quite, she used me beautifully
And with that empty tone she can sing my eulogy
And now I feel like I'm ugly once again

Her excuses start to fill my empty stomach to the brim
The room starts to spin and I cry till I dry-heave
I am a dying piece of her past
Just another band-aid, she needs to relax
Until she justifies my pain with a reason that lacks
See, I just wanted her to see herself like I do
Beautiful but she speaks her lies in haiku
So resurrect me, teach me where to go from here
And I will script to melody with meanings that are so sincere
Her frozen tears are streaming down the sculpted ice
Giving me the coldest bite every time I hold it tight
I'm masochistic when I love you till my heart bleeds
I'll love you till I break when I'm running from your sharp teeth
I'm out of breath as I hang onto the broken glass
Picking up the pieces being strangled by a photograph
And she's a black rose trapped in cracked roads that can't grow
But still I'm lost in her splendor and I'm an idiot minus the savant
When I'm trying to move on but choose not to remember

Jack: Wait a second.
Ex-girlfriend: What?
Jack: Where are you?
Ex-girlfriend: I'm here.
Jack: I didn't say you could come here.
Ex-girlfriend: Can I come there?

I spent the midnight admiring your crooked edges
Juggling with history and times that we mistook as head trips
And look for exits from green eyes that haunt me
At these times of wanting to idolize your good intentions
It's not a friendship, it's a see-saw torment
I'm down on all fours for it and she's all for it
I used to find a little piece of solace in your breathing pattern
Fair in war and love but you cautious when you reached the latter
Weren't you? Love, do you believe in angels?
Or just an instability and using me to scapegoat
I held your flaws and the beauty that you mangled
And I told you that I loved them just so that you could see your halo
And when she lies I'm a casualty of that
And when she said she loved him I felt my galaxy collapse
I'm dancing to the heartbreak, while echoes make a point of it
I've never felt like this
I think about you in these nightmares and daydreams
Holding onto memories in times where we'd make peace
But you're a pantomime, witch-hunt for truth
You have so many faces tell me which one is you
And you can be with him or anybody else
But they will never love you the way that this somebody felt
But now it's over 'cause he finally broke the surface
I just want to say goodbye and that I really hope it's worth it

Ex-girlfriend: If we fuck I'm gonna feel like shit tomorrow.
Jack: That's okay with me.

Ex-girlfriend: I love you. I never hurt you on purpose.
Jack: I don't care.

Overall Meaning

The song "Black Rose" by Sadistik & Kid Called Computer is a heart-wrenching portrayal of a broken, one-sided relationship. The lyrics describe the singer's struggle to cope with the aftermath of a failed relationship and his unrequited love for his ex-girlfriend. The song begins with the singer's desperation to hold on to his ex-girlfriend, even if it means being just friends. However, his ex-girlfriend responds with an empty tone, singing his eulogy, leaving him feeling ugly and empty once again. He is haunted by the memories of their relationship, unable to move on, even as his ex-girlfriend moves on with someone else. The song culminates in a scene where the singer confronts his ex-girlfriend, who wants to have sex with him one last time, even though she has moved on with someone else. The singer rejects her advances, revealing his deep pain, and the song ends with him saying goodbye and hoping that his love was worth it.

The lyrics of "Black Rose" are a poignant exploration of the complex emotions that arise from a failed relationship. The song touches upon themes of love, heartbreak, loss, and longing. The lyrics are raw, honest, and vulnerable, reflecting the reality of how a relationship can impact one's emotional well-being. The song's production is minimalistic, with haunting piano melodies and subtle drum beats that complement the lyrics, creating a melancholic atmosphere.

Line by Line Meaning

It was December 24th when my chest caved in
The singer is feeling emotionally crushed.

And my everything called to say, "Let's stay friends."
The singer's former lover called to say they should remain friends.

Well, not quite, she used me beautifully
The former lover used the singer, manipulating them for their own benefit.

And with that empty tone she can sing my eulogy
The former lover speaks in a way that emotionally destroys the artist.

And now I feel like I'm ugly once again
The artist's self-esteem has been badly affected by the former lover's actions.

Her excuses start to fill my empty stomach to the brim
The excuses given by the former lover are becoming overwhelming for the singer.

The room starts to spin and I cry till I dry-heave
The singer is feeling physically and emotionally unwell.

I am a dying piece of her past
The artist feels like they are a small, insignificant part of the former lover's history.

Just another band-aid, she needs to relax
The artist is just a temporary solution to the former lover's problems.

Until she justifies my pain with a reason that lacks
The former lover tries to explain the pain they've caused, but their reasons are not valid.

See, I just wanted her to see herself like I do
The singer wants the former lover to have a better understanding of themselves.

Beautiful but she speaks her lies in haiku
The former lover has a way of being deceitful that is almost poetic.

So resurrect me, teach me where to go from here
The singer wants help to move on from the past.

And I will script to melody with meanings that are so sincere
The singer will translate their emotions into music with genuine feelings.

Her frozen tears are streaming down the sculpted ice
The former lover's tears are falling on top of a hard, cold surface.

Giving me the coldest bite every time I hold it tight
The artist feels deep emotional pain when they think of the former lover.

I'm masochistic when I love you till my heart bleeds
The artist is in pain from their love of the former lover, but they embrace it.

I'll love you till I break when I'm running from your sharp teeth
The singer knows that their love for the former lover will eventually harm them.

I'm out of breath as I hang onto the broken glass
The singer is struggling to hold on to their fragile emotions.

Picking up the pieces being strangled by a photograph
The artist is trying to move on, but is being reminded of the past by a photo of the former lover.

And she's a black rose trapped in cracked roads that can't grow
The former lover is like a flower trapped in harsh conditions that won't allow them to thrive.

But still I'm lost in her splendor and I'm an idiot minus the savant
The artist is still enamored by the former lover's beauty, despite knowing they shouldn't be.

When I'm trying to move on but choose not to remember
The singer is trying to forget the past, but can't help but dwell on it.

I spent the midnight admiring your crooked edges
The artist is reflecting on the former lover's faults and insecurities.

Juggling with history and times that we mistook as head trips
The singer is trying to sort through their memories of the relationship, trying to figure out what was real and what wasn't.

And look for exits from green eyes that haunt me
The singer is trying to escape the emotional turmoil caused by the former lover's gaze.

At these times of wanting to idolize your good intentions
The singer is struggling to see whether the former lover had any genuine motives for their actions.

It's not a friendship, it's a see-saw torment
The artist thinks that the relationship between them and the former lover is not a true friendship, but is rather full of emotional ups and downs.

I'm down on all fours for it and she's all for it
The artist is putting in all the effort, while the former lover is taking advantage of their feelings.

I used to find a little piece of solace in your breathing pattern
The singer used to find comfort in the former lover's presence and actions.

Fair in war and love but you cautious when you reached the latter
The former lover was not as honest when it came to their relationship.

Weren't you? Love, do you believe in angels?
The artist questions the former lover's beliefs and values.

Or just an instability and using me to scapegoat
The former lover may be using the artist as a way to avoid taking responsibility for their own problems.

I held your flaws and the beauty that you mangled
The artist accepted both the former lover's imperfections and their aesthetic appeal.

And I told you that I loved them just so that you could see your halo
The singer wanted the former lover to see themselves in a more positive light, so they praised their qualities.

And when she lies I'm a casualty of that
The former lover's dishonesty is causing the artist harm and pain.

And when she said she loved him I felt my galaxy collapse
The former lover's confession of love for someone else devastates the singer.

I'm dancing to the heartbreak, while echoes make a point of it
The singer is embracing their emotional turmoil, even though it hurts them.

I've never felt like this
The singer has never experienced this level of pain or heartbreak before.

I think about you in these nightmares and daydreams
The former lover haunts the artist even in their dreams and waking thoughts.

Holding onto memories in times where we'd make peace
The artist is clinging to happier memories of the relationship.

But you're a pantomime, witch-hunt for truth
The former lover is like an actress, pretending to be someone they're not.

You have so many faces tell me which one is you
The singer is confused and unsure about the former lover's true personality.

And you can be with him or anybody else
The artist knows that the former lover can be with anyone they choose, not just them.

But they will never love you the way that this somebody felt
The artist believes that their love for the former lover was unique and irreplaceable.

But now it's over 'cause he finally broke the surface
The artist has moved on from the relationship and is ready to say goodbye.

I just want to say goodbye and that I really hope it's worth it
The singer wants to say a final farewell to the former lover and hopes that their decision was the right one.

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