Remember Everything
Savannah Dexter Lyrics

What if I told you 90 days ago my life was in darkness?
If I were to reveal that three months ago I was in a very dark place in my life.

Too broke to purchase a canvas with dreams of bein′ an artist
I was too poor to even afford a canvas to pursue my dreams of becoming an artist.

For all this hell I was in it
I was fully immersed in all the difficulties and struggles I was going through.

Dropped my first single two weeks after I was evicted
I released my first music single only two weeks after getting evicted from my home.

What if I told you it's the brokenness that makes me so heartless?
If I were to tell you that my brokenness and pain are responsible for my lack of compassion.

If I told you I was raped but never pressed charges (No)
If I revealed that I was sexually assaulted but chose not to press any charges against the perpetrator.

I said I hate to admit
It is painful for me to acknowledge and admit this.

I′d give it all back just to forget
If given a chance, I would do anything to erase that traumatic experience from my memory.

But I remember everything (Everything)
Despite my wish to forget, I still hold on to every detail of that awful experience.

Yeah, I remember everything (Everything, everything)
I recall everything that happened, including the smallest of details.

I said I remember all the pain
The emotional and physical pain I experienced is still very vivid in my memory.

Just like it was yesterday
It feels like it happened only yesterday and not a long time ago.

Now I'm finally lettin' go
I am slowly releasing the pain and hurt that had held me down for so long.

Of all the things I shouldn′t say
I am freeing myself from all the things that have been weighing me down and that I shouldn't have kept inside me.

What if I told you I was in and out of ten different schools?
If I let you know that I had to change schools ten times during my education.

Overweight so I got bullied by the kids that were cool
The children who were popular would torment me because I was overweight.

What if I told you I got beat up by the man of my dreams?
If I disclosed that the person whom I loved and wanted to marry was physically abusive towards me.

I was married and divorced before I turned 19 (Ooh)
I made the mistake of getting married and getting divorced before even turning 19 years old.

I fought for men I don′t need
I expended a lot of effort and energy fighting for men who were not worth it.

My heart been broke so many times, don't know who to believe (Except me)
I have been emotionally hurt and betrayed a lot of times and now I am finding it hard to believe anyone except myself.

You didn′t love me 'til I signed my deals
You did not show any affection towards me until I became successful in my career.

So stop tellin′ me that time's gonna heal
Please stop saying that I will eventually heal with time because it is not that simple for me.

What if I told you bout the insecurities that I felt?
If I shared with you the deep feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt that I have.

Lack of self-esteem, I′ve never been proud of myself
My low self-esteem has never allowed me to feel proud of myself.

And don't be actin′ like you know me
Don't pretend like you know me and what I have been through in my life.

I'm haunted by the old me
My past mistakes and experiences still haunt me and affect my present self.