Understand
Savannah Dexter Lyrics

I’ve been trapped inside a cell except the prison is a structure of my brain
I've been mentally trapped and confined within myself, unable to escape my own thoughts and emotions.

I got a monster deep inside me breaking loose that can’t be tamed
There's a powerful and uncontrollable force inside me that is becoming unleashed, causing chaos and cannot be controlled.

And there’s a bomb inside my mental with a clock that ticks away
My mind is like a ticking bomb, counting down to an explosion or breakdown.

When it explodes I hope you’ve had the time to pray
When my mental state finally collapses, I hope you are prepared because it won't be easy.

I will mask you with the darkness and the sorrow
I will cover you with my feelings of darkness and sadness, concealing my true emotions.

I’ll inflict you with the pain that makes me hollow
I will cause you the same pain that eats away at me, leaving me empty and hollow inside.

And suffocate with the hate that I’ve been giving that put me inside this prison
I drown in the hate I have directed towards others, which is a key factor in creating the mental prison I'm trapped in.

It’s a pill that I swear you don’t wanna swallow
This experience is like a bitter pill that you definitely don't want to have to endure.

And you don’t even know that it will eat you
You are unaware that this darkness will consume and devour you as well.

It pins you to the floor as it defeats you
This darkness will immobilize and overpower you, utterly defeating you.

And it will leave you wanting more with such a hunger guaranteed it pulls you under
It will create a desperate craving within you, drawing you further down and consuming you completely.

To the point there isn’t anything beneath you
It will bring you to a place where there is nothing left, leaving you empty and devoid of any foundation.

Tell me what do you expect of me
Can you please explain what you want or require from me?

Tryna gather my thoughts all collectively
I'm attempting to gather and organize my scattered thoughts and emotions.

I’m at war with myself and I’m losing energy
I'm constantly battling against my own inner conflicts, and it is draining all of my energy.

I swear these demons inside will be the death of me
These inner demons I'm fighting against will eventually lead to my demise.

What’s left of me
I'm at a point where I feel like there's nothing left of who I used to be.

I’m sitting all alone with the writings on the wall
I find myself isolated and alone, surrounded by the signs and symbols of my struggles and pain.

I can feel em caving in I got no one left to call
I can sense everything collapsing around me, and there's no one left to ask for help or support.

It’s a battle I can’t win plus they’ld rather see me fall
I'm engaged in a fight that I can't possibly win, and there are people who take pleasure in watching me fail.

I’m at the point of no return do I even care at all
I've reached a stage where there's no going back, and I question if I even have the capacity to care anymore.

Feeling so alone all I do is play pretend
I feel incredibly isolated, and all I can do is pretend that everything is okay.

The smiles that you see is just the mask I’m living in
The smiles you witness from me are merely a façade, as I conceal my true emotions behind a mask.

I’m haunted my past I swear there’s no escaping it
My past continues to haunt me relentlessly, and it feels impossible to escape its grasp.

No there’s no erasing it
There is no way to completely eliminate or erase the impact of my past experiences on my present state.

Somebody help me understand
I desperately need someone to assist me in comprehending my current situation.

Cause I don’t know what’s running through my mind everyday I feel I’m running outta time
I'm completely lost and confused about the thoughts and emotions that consume me every day, and I constantly feel like time is slipping away.

It’s been getting outta hand
Everything has been spiraling out of control and becoming increasingly chaotic.

I need someone to pray for me but I don’t think there’s any saving me
I require someone to intercede and pray for my well-being, but deep down, I don't believe that anyone can truly save me.