PILLS
Sci-Fi Lullaby Lyrics
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The one's that kill
To kill away any feelings of desire
I've been reaching for a plane
That's only getting higher and higher
Waste all day
Trying to play
A funny game that no one's really laughing at
If I could find a map to love
I'd tattoo it on my back
Wish I was nothing
Wish I was you
Wish I could just be alone, but I like the abuse
Who am I fooling?
I am only human
Wrapped in skin
No one wins
It seems to me at least I'm always on the phone
Receiving signals from a savior sick at home
And now I know I guess that somewhere's a box
That harbors all our many thoughts and it feeds them to our tiny minds
I'm going blind on this telephone line
The lyrics of Sci-Fi Lullaby's song "Pills" express a feeling of weariness and desperation. The singer is seeking relief from emotions they cannot handle, and so they turn to pills that will numb any desire they may feel. They admit that they are "reaching for a plane" that is only going higher, meaning they are trying to escape from reality through drugs.
The next lines suggest the singer is stuck in a cycle of wasting time and trying to engage in activities that don't bring them joy, and they express a longing for love that they cannot seem to find. They wish they could just be alone, but they also admit to enjoying their own abuse. The final lines describe the singer's sense of disconnection from the world around them. They are constantly on the phone, but it seems like they can never truly connect with anyone. They reference a mysterious box that feeds thoughts into their mind, suggesting a feeling of being controlled or manipulated.
Overall, the lyrics paint a picture of someone struggling to cope with their emotions and seeking relief through drugs. They also convey a sense of detachment and a desire for something more genuine and authentic.
Line by Line Meaning
Where's my pills?
I am looking for pills to numb my emotions and desires.
The one's that kill
I am specifically looking for pills that will make me feel nothing.
To kill away any feelings of desire
I want to eliminate all of my desires and emotions completely.
I've been reaching for a plane
I have been trying to escape reality and find something that will take me higher and higher.
That's only getting higher and higher
No matter how hard I try, I cannot escape reality and my problems.
Waste all day
I spend my days doing meaningless things that do not make me happy.
Trying to play
I am trying to distract myself from my problems by pretending everything is okay.
A funny game that no one's really laughing at
My attempts at distraction are not actually amusing anyone, despite my efforts.
If I could find a map to love
I wish I could understand how to find love and true happiness.
I'd tattoo it on my back
I want to always remember how to find love and happiness, so I would permanently mark it on myself.
Wish I was nothing
I wish I could eliminate myself and all of my problems entirely.
Wish I was you
I wish I could have someone else's life and problems instead of my own.
Wish I could just be alone, but I like the abuse
I crave being alone, but at the same time, I am addicted to the negative feelings and self-hatred that come with being alone.
Who am I fooling?
I am aware that my attempts at pretending everything is okay are not fooling anyone.
I am only human
I am vulnerable and cannot handle all of my problems on my own.
Wrapped in skin
I am trapped in my physical body and unable to escape my own thoughts and feelings.
No one wins
No matter what happens, everyone will always lose in the end.
It seems to me at least I'm always on the phone
I am constantly seeking comfort and reassurance from others, even if it is just through a phone call.
Receiving signals from a savior sick at home
The person I seek comfort from is also struggling with their own problems and may not be able to help me.
And now I know I guess that somewhere's a box
I have come to the realization that there is a place where all of our thoughts are kept.
That harbors all our many thoughts and it feeds them to our tiny minds
This box contains all of our thoughts and emotions, and it constantly influences us and impacts our decisions.
I'm going blind on this telephone line
My reliance on seeking comfort through phone calls and other forms of communication is leading me towards a dark place where I cannot see a way out.
Contributed by Audrey M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Rilezz
I want a Sugar Pills reunion!