Conscience
Scumflower Lyrics
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It really hasn't been my year
I wasted the best version of myself on you
Can't get out of this routine, sleeping in till 2
Broke my back just to hold you up
Now im drinking from an overfilled cup
I want to disappear but not stop living
I wonder how you feel - is your conscience still light?
Does it eat up at you every single night?
I should have known, you never really felt right
But it doesn't stop me from thinking bout how you held me so tight
I don't think you realise how badly you broke me
And sometimes it feels like I'm choking
But i guess nothing lasts forever
Oh nothing lasts forever
Broke my back just to hold you up
Now im drinking from an overfilled cup
I want to disappear but not stop living
Take a few years start a new beginning
I wonder how you feel - is your conscience still light?
The lyrics to Scumflower's song Conscience paint a picture of someone who is tired of being stuck in a bad situation. They want to leave and start over because they feel like they have wasted their best self on someone who doesn't deserve it. The singer is stuck in a routine and feels suffocated by the situation they are in. Despite this, they want to keep living and start a new chapter in their life.
The second verse of the song shows the singer reflecting on their relationship with the person they were with. They had to sacrifice a lot to hold the other person up and now they feel like they are drowning. The singer wonders if the other person feels the same way, if their conscience is heavy with guilt. They also question their own judgment, as they knew from the beginning that something wasn't right, but they still held on.
Overall, the song is about moving on from toxic situations and finding the strength to start over. It is a relatable portrayal of the internal struggles one endures when trying to make difficult life-changing decisions.
Line by Line Meaning
I want to get away from here
I desire to escape from this place.
It really hasn't been my year
This year has been quite unpleasant for me.
I wasted the best version of myself on you
You caused me to expend the best version of myself on you to no avail.
Can't get out of this routine, sleeping in till 2
I am stuck in a routine and sleeping until mid-afternoon.
Broke my back just to hold you up
I exerted myself considerably to support you.
Now im drinking from an overfilled cup
Now I am indulging excessively in this situation.
I want to disappear but not stop living
I yearn to vanish from my current predicament without ending my life.
Take a few years start a new beginning
I plan to take some time to commence a new chapter in my existence.
I wonder how you feel - is your conscience still light?
I am curious if your conscience remains unburdened.
Does it eat up at you every single night?
Do you anguish over it every night?
I should have known, you never really felt right
I should have realized that you never felt right to me.
But it doesn't stop me from thinking bout how you held me so tight
However, it still does not prevent me from reminiscing about how tightly you embraced me.
I don't think you realise how badly you broke me
I do not believe you recognize how tremendously you harmed me.
And sometimes it feels like I'm choking
Occasionally, it feels as though I am suffocating.
But i guess nothing lasts forever
But I suppose everything is impermanent.
Oh nothing lasts forever
Indeed, nothing endures forever.
Contributed by Mateo H. Suggest a correction in the comments below.