Never Have I Ever
Seb Adams Lyrics
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I never quite understood how to be a cool kid
I suck at throwing parties and hardly ever look forward
To being in a room judging myself
I'd be in the corner worrying about my image
Rocking merchandise of bands they've never heard of to begin with
Are my clothes in style
Should I try something else
This word search has rendered me speechless
I'm tired of this game I've been playing
Let's all join in
Make things more complicated
Never have I ever been so alone
With all these people I should be having fun
Trying to follow conversations so hollow and unrelatable
Doing my best to hold on to what I know
I don't have the patience to fake a smile
Or convince myself that I care at all
There's a million different things I'd rather do, ey
I'm seeking comfort checking my phone every time I got a chance to
Pretend there's somebody who needs me right now
Could somebody please reach out
Never have I ever been so alone
With all these people I should be having fun
Trying to follow conversations so hollow and unrelatable
Doing my best to hold on to what I know
I got a bad case of the jitters
This word search has rendered me speechless
I'm tired of this game I've been playing
Let's all join in
Make things more complicated
Never have I ever been so alone
With all these people I should be having fun
Trying to follow conversations so hollow and unrelatable
Doing my best to hold on to what I know
To what I know
The lyrics to Seb Adams's "Never Have I Ever" speak to the experience of feeling isolated and disconnected from those around you, even in social situations where one might expect to feel included and engaged. The songwriter begins by admitting that they have never quite understood how to fit in with the "cool kids," and that they struggle with anxieties around their own image and sense of self-worth. These insecurities lead the writer to worry about things like whether their clothes are stylish enough or if they should try to behave differently in order to be more socially accepted.
Despite their efforts to participate in conversations and engage with others, the writer feels that much of what they encounter is "hollow and unrelatable," and that they are struggling to hold onto what they know to be true about themselves amidst the pressure to conform. Throughout the song, the theme of feeling alone persists, with the writer seeking refuge in their phone and wishing that someone would reach out to them. Ultimately, the writer expresses a desire to break out of the cycle of isolation and join others in making things more complicated-- perhaps a sign that they are ready to take risks and embrace their own unique identity, rather than constantly striving to fit in with others.
One interesting aspect of this song is its frank and honest portrayal of the anxiety and self-doubt that many people experience in social situations. It can be difficult to admit to feeling insecure or disconnected from others, but Seb Adams's lyrics capture these emotions in a way that is both relatable and empathetic. Additionally, the songwriter's use of vivid metaphors (like "a bad case of the jitters" and "this word search has rendered me speechless") make the song's message even more powerful.
Line by Line Meaning
So alone
Feeling isolated and disconnected from the people around me
I never quite understood how to be a cool kid
Struggling to fit in and conform to social norms
I suck at throwing parties and hardly ever look forward
Lacking confidence in my ability to socialize and enjoy myself
To being in a room judging myself
Constantly critiquing and analyzing my every action and thought
I'd be in the corner worrying about my image
Feeling self-conscious and anxious about my appearance and reputation
Rocking merchandise of bands they've never heard of to begin with
Trying to express my identity and individuality through obscure interests and tastes
Are my clothes in style
Being preoccupied with conforming to current fashion trends
Should I try something else
Second-guessing my choices and decisions
I got a bad case of the jitters
Experiencing nervousness and anxiety
This word search has rendered me speechless
Feeling overwhelmed and unable to articulate my thoughts
I'm tired of this game I've been playing
Growing weary of the effort it takes to fit in and be accepted
Let's all join in
Suggesting a desire for others to share in my discomfort and unease
Make things more complicated
Seeking a diversion or distraction from my social anxiety
Never have I ever been so alone
Expressing a profound sense of loneliness despite being surrounded by people
With all these people I should be having fun
Feeling pressure to enjoy myself in social situations
Trying to follow conversations so hollow and unrelatable
Struggling to engage in small talk and connect with others on a meaningful level
Doing my best to hold on to what I know
Clutching to my own interests and beliefs as a source of comfort and stability
I don't have the patience to fake a smile
Lacking the energy or desire to pretend to be happy or enthusiastic
Or convince myself that I care at all
Feeling disconnected and apathetic towards social interactions and relationships
There's a million different things I'd rather do, ey
Desiring to escape from the pressure and discomfort of social situations
I'm seeking comfort checking my phone every time I got a chance to
Using my phone as a source of distraction and comfort during social situations
Pretend there's somebody who needs me right now
Creating a fantasy of being needed and valued by others
Could somebody please reach out
Expressing a desire for someone to initiate social interaction and connection
To what I know
Holding onto my own experiences and knowledge as a source of comfort and safety
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Sebastiaan Boomsma
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@behnusmehnus
Never have I ever thought I made it out alive when I sit back and fly at full speed through my nightmares and flare guns
@SebAdams
Woah
@robbierotten164
You’re one of the few people that know club music isn’t the only type of music. This is a great getaway when you’re scrolling through social media and need to get away from the deep basslines and overused effects. Your songs are the best man, keep it up!
@SebAdams
Thanks! There's a lot more to come :)
@silichaos1443
Seriously, I don't know why you aren't famous yet! This song is awesome! Keep up your great work, I just love your music^^ <3
@SebAdams
Thanks so much! ♡
@dudethisisyourspace2901
The background people art taking COVID19 seriously, social distance AND masks?! Props to them 😂 (great song btw dude 👌)
@klarx7501
if i dont see a sock in this video i will be
angry
@SebAdams
whops
@lilac.jellyfishh
Stumbled across this through a Spotify ad and have never related to anything so much in my life 😫