Myself
Sicboy Lyrics
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I see your eyes look down the mouth I’ll be your friend
I try so hard but I can’t seem to relate to a world that’s full of pain I’ve see it's face
You… have to… be true… want to?
I drag my arm but I can’t let you go
Through these puddles of pain I can't keep control
Should I seek your love or be your friend
Give in I’ve shown I want to take control
Begin to wanna see myself in a hole
Take out your eyes to see deep inside
Rip out the parts of me that will make you hide
How far we are … how far away we are now … you can't save me.
The song "Myself" by Sicboy is a powerful and emotional exploration of the singer's inner turmoil and struggle to connect with the world around them. The opening line, "I try so hard but I just can’t pretend," sets the tone for the rest of the song, as the singer confesses to their inability to fake happiness or fit into society's expectations. They reach out to another person, saying "I see your eyes look down the mouth I’ll be your friend," but even this connection is difficult for them to make.
The singer reflects on the pain they have seen in the world, acknowledging that it is a pervasive force that they struggle to relate to. They question whether they need to "be true" to themselves in order to connect with others, but even this authenticity may not be enough. They are caught between conflicting emotions, feeling unable to let go of someone they care about even as they struggle to control their own inner turmoil.
As the song progresses, the singer becomes increasingly desperate, declaring that they want to "take control" of their life even if it means sinking into a dark place. They ask the listener to "take out your eyes to see deep inside," suggesting that they want to be understood on a deeper level. The final line, "you can't save me," is a poignant admission of the singer's loneliness and isolation, even as they reach out for connection.
Line by Line Meaning
I try so hard but I just can’t pretend
Despite my efforts, I cannot fake how I truly feel
I see your eyes look down the mouth I’ll be your friend
I notice your judgment, yet I offer my friendship
I try so hard but I can’t seem to relate to a world that’s full of pain I’ve see it's face
I struggle to connect with a world that is haunted by pain
You… have to… be true… want to?
Is it mandatory to be genuine, or just a personal choice?
I drag my arm but I can’t let you go
I find it hard to move on from you
Through these puddles of pain I can't keep control
In the midst of suffering, I am struggling to stay composed
On my mind now battles that you’ll never win
I am at war with myself, in a way that you cannot comprehend
Should I seek your love or be your friend
I am torn between pursuing your affection and settling for friendship
Give in I’ve shown I want to take control
I surrender and reveal my desire for power
Begin to wanna see myself in a hole
I start to prefer isolation and darkness
Take out your eyes to see deep inside
In order to truly understand me, you need to look beyond the surface level
Rip out the parts of me that will make you hide
I want to remove any aspect of myself that will make you want to run away
How far we are … how far away we are now … you can't save me.
We are distant from each other, and you cannot rescue me from my pain
Writer(s): John Tate, Anthony Valenzisi, Christopher Trudeau, Andrew Trudeau
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