Some believe when you die, you see the light at the end of a tunnel; this i… Read Full Bio ↴Some believe when you die, you see the light at the end of a tunnel; this is one light the likes of Serial Killin Records, SickTanicK Tha Souless has never and will never see even at the moment of death.... SickTanicK Tha Souless grew up in a middle class home without a mother or a father, often being mentally abused by his peers SickTanicK Tha Souless was turned away by the system of contemporary life at a early age. Rejected by public school systems, churches, and other forms of socially acceptable activities he found a love for music. Most of his time was spent playing on a 1970's "Fun Machine" In his youth, composing, learning, and producing his own music even at the young age of 10 soon after learning other instruments such as the guitar and bass he flourished as a young musician. Not long after hitting his teenage years he found a obsession with the occult, being turned away from church and "god" he found a path to a more dark way of life, Satanism. Reading Anton Laveys "The Satanic Bible" and all of its companions, he soon became secluded from the outside world. Laveys writings were never enough, he soon delved into many books by Aleister Crowley, The man who was once labeled "The most wicked man on earth", and other occult related books such as the Necronomicon, The Black Arts, And many books on Necromancy and Necromantik Rites. This opened a new world for him and would come into play much more then he thought in his daily life. In early high school he found a love for industrial and electronica music, being influenced by groups such as nine inch nails and ministry he decided to self produce and release his "Subleminal Intent" project, otherwise known as S.IN. The self produced and released album sold over 2500 copies on a self made, non domain named website, and over 1500 hundred copies locally. With the albums success, he found that this is what he wanted to do with his life, and that it was a very promising future. Later in life he found a love for heavy metal, influenced by such bands as slayer, deicide, cannibal corpse, deeds of flesh, mayhem, emperor, and dark funeral, he decided to join the local death metal band "convulsion" which was later named "necromemisis", necromemisis quickly grew in popularity in the albuquerque metal scene, playing with top local bands, and big underground metal acts such as "nile" and "goregasm". However problems in the bands ranks of authority caused him to leave necromemisis. In early 2002, lost, on cocaine, suicidal, and with no direction SickTanicK Tha Souless met "Zodiak Killa" at a Albuquerque restaurant, discussing music and life in general the two grew close very quickly, and as time went buy, he was exposed to more underground music and people alike. As a joke in passing he recorded a song entitled "Gothic Poser Faggots" on his computer mic, over an internet found rap instrumental beat. This caught the attention of Zodiak, who had a local record label named "Serial Killin Records", Zodiak asked him to make a beat (knowing of previous production expieriance) and rap over it. SickTanicK Tha Souless then produced and recorded his then infamous song entitled "Cuttenemup", Shocked by the brutal lyrics Zodiak added SickTanicK on the Serial Killin Records roster, not only as a artist but as the head producer for all artists on SKR. SickTanicKs first performance was on new years eve 2003, drawing a small crowd of fifty people he unleashed his venom for the first time on stage, shocking listeners with his brutal straight out lyrics and fuck you attitude, the response was not only shocking, but phenomenal as well. Getting a strong following very quickly, it was seen at that point, SickTanicK Tha Souless could not be stopped, but his lyrics were just the first part of the controversy that would later be imposed on him. In later show dates, as crowd's rapidly grew SickTanicK became synonymous with the words "insane" and "offensive", once beating himself to concussion with the microphone and leaving many lacerations in his head, he proved this was no game and he was to be taken very seriously by his fans (also known as disciples). At a later date he covered a bible with blood and ripped it up, showering the crowd with bible paper, causing many people in the crowd to leave in anger and in fright, but also bringing a new array of people into his shows. Now its 2006 much has changed... SickTanicKs debut EP Premantions dropped August 20th 2005, selling very strongly on a worldwide basis SickTanicK has grown in popularity and has become even more radical with his live performence's and lyrics, recording songs like "black christmas", "i love nothing" and "unholy execution" SickTanicK is proving that the wickedshit will never die on his watch. Performing live with artists like "Mars", "ADR Lavey", "Shy One", "Cap One of Simken Heights", "Andybody Killa" and many others, SickTanicK along with the rest of Serial Killin Records is determined to Put the Southwest on the map for this genre. Wheather or not its the fact that SickTanicK beats himself bloody every show, hits and abuses the crowd at his shows and welcomes abuse back, or the fact that his lyrics are considered anti semite, muslim, and christian, SickTanicK has made his mark in this genre and will continue breaking boundries. As 2007 approaches SickTanicK Tha Souless is working on the anticpated "Chapter 1 : Doctrines Of Tha Damned" and promises this album to be shit straight from the mouth of the devil himself... Only time will tell where SickTanicK is heading but one thing is for sure..... SickTanicK represents a darker much more serious part of this genre, and is a force to be reckoned with. 2007 : Chapter One Doctrines of the damned SOLD OUT in one weeks time along with all other SKR releases, more shows have been done, bloodier, more violent, and the SKR fan cult is emerging to become a strong underground cult following, new additions and losses to SickTanicK's label, has made SKR a internationally known and recognized entity in the underground, selling units as far as Slovakia & The Netherlands, collaborating and performing with more established and well known underground acts. Controversy also follows in 2007 when the second annual "Black Christmas" show was cancelled by the Albuquerque City Council due to its content. SKR is now unable to perform in New Mexico for the time being. Irrigardless of controversy SickTanicK & Serial Killin Records move on into 2008 with a much more raw and established additude in the underground, with a 12 month consecutive release schedual and a full merchandise line on the way, Serial Killin Records and its Affiliate labels and artists, promises to dominate not only the underground sales scheme, but promises to give its fans a quality product for an affordable and fair price. SKR continues to sell and gain a strong cult following in the underground, with deciples taking communion state to state, fans getting SKR inked on themselves in permanant form, shows continue to grow, sales continue to increase, and the sickness continues to spread. As always, time will tell what SickTanicK & SKR holds for the future, but the future is only a tommarow away, and yesterday was another day in the books of underground history.

This Is My Story This Is My Life
Sicktanick Lyrics

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This it yall imma let it all loose
A story about a life, a life i didnt get to choose
I was born in '84 to a mother they called a whore
Called the devil's son, a mistake and a family's scorn
Then the year turned it to 1985
My mother died supporting me i still feel it up inside
My grandmother adopted me and raised me on her own
But it was so damn hard because i was alone

I started school and i never had any friends
Busted lips and blackend eyes was a child's revenge
I got pushed around by children and the staff
When i run away cryin all they did was laugh
My uncle at the time was like a dad to me
Take me down to showtime to rent all the horror movies
Hellraiser, halloween, and faces of death
Day in and day out it was the illest shit
'94 rolled around and i even found christ
But then i turned my fuckin back cause i found it was lies
I found my left hand path and yo im still the same
LaVey, Crowley, and other sinners to fill up my brain

(chorus)
This is my story and this is my life
The beggining of the book is here and it lies deep inside
Litsen to ryhems cause the worlds about to change
When im reborn the world won't be the same

Then i Grew up and
things started to change
i found heavy metal music
And drugs began to rage
And I rocked the mic with loudest black metal screams
Enough to pop a virgin's cherry and make ur preacher's ear bleed
But still at this time i had no friends
Only people trying to get some in the end
I tried suicide more then a couple times
But i guess i wasnt tring hard enough because im still alive
In 2002 i found the crew that had my back
Chillin the village inn and at the cheeby shack
and to this day i still got crazy ass mothafuckin psychotic wig splitters
And now that u know that im doin all good
Imma tell the truth like a real killa should would
One dark august night as i did the devil's prayer
A spirit came into the room and he slowly said
"YOUR SOUL IS OURS THE HARVEST HAS BEGUN

WE MUST TAKE THE SOULS OF EVERYONE
U R THE NEW SON OF MAN AND U R THE FIRST POWER THAT THEY SHALL FEAR!!!"

Overall Meaning

The song "This Is My Story This Is My Life" by Sicktanick is a personal narrative of the artist's life story. The opening lines set the stage for the narrative: "This it yall imma let it all loose, A story about a life, a life i didnt get to choose." Sicktanick was born to a mother who was called a whore, and he was an unwanted child - "Called the devil's son, a mistake and a family's scorn." When his mother died the following year, his grandmother adopted him and raised him on her own, but it was difficult for him as he was alone.

Sicktanick's story is also about his experiences with bullying in school. He was bullied by children and staff, and ran away crying, but all they did was laugh. Amidst all this misery, he found solace in horror movies, such as Hellraiser, Halloween, and Faces of Death, which he watched with his uncle, who was like a father to him. Eventually, he found heavy metal music and drugs, and he began to scream black metal songs. He tried to take his own life several times but failed. In 2002, he found a group of people who had his back, and to this day, he still has crazy-ass, motherfucking, psychotic wig splitters.

The chorus of the song suggests that Sicktanick's life story is going to change the world: "This is my story and this is my life, The beginning of the book is here and it lies deep inside, Listen to rhymes cause the world's about to change, When I'm reborn the world won't be the same." In the last verse of the song, Sicktanick describes how one night while doing the "devil's prayer," a spirit came into the room and told him that he was the "new son of man" and that he would be the "first power that they shall fear." It is implied that Sicktanick has accepted this role and will change the world in some significant way.

Line by Line Meaning

This it yall imma let it all loose
I am about to share my life story without holding back

A story about a life, a life i didnt get to choose
I did not choose the circumstances under which I was born or raised

I was born in '84 to a mother they called a whore
I was born to a woman who was shamed and ridiculed by society

Called the devil's son, a mistake and a family's scorn
People saw me as an unwanted child and blamed me for my mother's actions

Then the year turned it to 1985
The following year after my birth

My mother died supporting me i still feel it up inside
My mother passed away while trying to provide for me, and I am still affected by it

My grandmother adopted me and raised me on her own
My grandmother took me in and became my primary caregiver

But it was so damn hard because i was alone
Despite my grandmother's care, I still experienced isolation and loneliness

I started school and i never had any friends
I did not make any friends during my early years of education

Busted lips and blackend eyes was a child's revenge
Other children bullied and physically harmed me as a way to seek revenge on my perceived differences

I got pushed around by children and the staff
Both my peers and authority figures mistreated me

When i run away cryin all they did was laugh
No one took my emotional pain seriously

My uncle at the time was like a dad to me
My uncle played a significant role in my life and acted as a father figure

Take me down to showtime to rent all the horror movies
My uncle exposed me to horror movies at a young age through outings to a rental store

Hellraiser, halloween, and faces of death
Examples of the type of graphic material I was exposed to by my uncle

Day in and day out it was the illest shit
This kind of content became a regular part of my life

'94 rolled around and i even found christ
I became religious in 1994

But then i turned my fuckin back cause i found it was lies
I rejected religion when I realized it did not align with my beliefs

I found my left hand path and yo im still the same
I adopted a different spiritual path and remained true to myself

LaVey, Crowley, and other sinners to fill up my brain
I read about and studied the works of controversial figures known for their dark and unconventional beliefs

(chorus)
Recurring section of the song

Then i Grew up and things started to change
As I got older, my life circumstances evolved

i found heavy metal music
I discovered a music genre that resonated with me

And drugs began to rage
I started experimenting with and using drugs

And I rocked the mic with loudest black metal screams
I performed music with intense vocals in the black metal style

Enough to pop a virgin's cherry and make ur preacher's ear bleed
My music was vulgar and controversial, and could offend or shock different audiences

But still at this time i had no friends
I remained socially isolated despite my musical pursuits

Only people trying to get some in the end
Individuals who were only interested in sexual relationships were briefly in my life

I tried suicide more then a couple times
I struggled with suicidal thoughts and made multiple attempts

But i guess i wasnt tring hard enough because im still alive
Despite my attempts, I survived and continued living

In 2002 i found the crew that had my back
I became part of a supportive friend group in 2002

Chillin the village inn and at the cheeby shack
We spent time hanging out in certain establishments

and to this day i still got crazy ass mothafuckin psychotic wig splitters
I still have eccentric, unpredictable friends

And now that u know that im doin all good
I am currently in a better place than I used to be

Imma tell the truth like a real killa should would
I will remain honest and forthcoming in my storytelling

One dark august night as i did the devil's prayer
I was practicing a dark ritual on a certain night

A spirit came into the room and he slowly said
I experienced a supernatural encounter

"YOUR SOUL IS OURS THE HARVEST HAS BEGUN
The spirit claimed ownership over my soul and warned of impending danger

WE MUST TAKE THE SOULS OF EVERYONE
The spirit's ominous message included a plan to claim the souls of others

U R THE NEW SON OF MAN AND U R THE FIRST POWER THAT THEY SHALL FEAR!!!"
The spirit designated me as a powerful figure who would inspire fear and respect

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