Heal
Sjana Rut Lyrics
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so I believed what you said, I’m overreacting
You made me the victim,
you made me believe that it was all my fault- the problem was me
go ahead and say what you want to say
I won’t listen anyway ‘cause I know you’re the one to blame
But how could you go this far?
But now I’m gonna heal, I’m gonna heal
heal, yeah
heal
I’m gonna heal- gonna heal
heal, yeah
You always seem to put up quite the show
but I see right through you just so you know
The pain left me numb for so long that I wasn't even sure where it came from anymore
Go ahead and say what you want to say
I won’t listen anyway ‘cause I know you’re the one to blame
But how could you go this far?
Act like you don’t remember you left an unhealable scar
But now I’m gonna heal, I’m gonna heal
Heal, yeah
Heal
I’m gonna heal, I’m gonna heal
Heal, yeah
Heal
I won’t listen (to you), I won’t listen (to you), I won’t listen (to you)
I’m gonna heal (heal) from what you did
(from what you did)
I’m gonna allow myself to heal from it
(from it)
I’m gonna feel happiness (happiness)
I’m gonna forgive myself and reach for help
I’m not gonna let you ruin this for me
I’m gonna stand up for what I believe
I just wanna run up to little me,
tell her i love her- she deserved better
And when I get the chance to speak to her I’ll let her know she wasn’t the monster and above anything else she’s allowed to heal, yeah
Heal, heal, heal
heal- I’m gonna heal
heal, yeah, heal
You can say what you want to say
You won’t ruin this for me
(heal, I’m gonna heal)
You’re the one to blame
Now I am gonna heal
In Sjana Rut's song "Heal," the lyrics explore the experiences of overcoming emotional abuse and healing from the pain inflicted by someone. The song begins with the singer acknowledging that they used to believe they were alone in witnessing the mistreatment they endured. They were led to believe that they were overreacting and that the problem was their own fault. However, the singer gradually realizes that they were manipulated into playing the role of the victim.
The chorus emphasizes their determination to heal from the scars left by their abuser. Despite the abuser's attempts to shift blame and act like they have no memory of the harm they caused, the singer is steadfast in their decision to heal. The pain that lingered for so long made them question its origin, but now they see through the abuser's facade and vow to reclaim their happiness and forgive themselves.
The second part of the song expresses the singer's refusal to listen to the abuser any longer. They assert that they will not let the abuser ruin their healing process and that they will stand up for their beliefs. The lyrics also convey a desire to reach out to their younger self, reassuring them that they deserved better and that they are allowed to heal. The song concludes with a decisive statement that the singer is now taking control of their healing journey, refusing to let the abuser have any power over them.
Overall, "Heal" is a powerful anthem of resilience, self-empowerment, and the strength to overcome emotional abuse.
Line by Line Meaning
I used to think that no one witnessed what you did to me
I believed that no one saw the harm you caused me
so I believed what you said, I’m overreacting
I trusted your words and thought I was overreacting
You made me the victim,
You portrayed me as the victim
you made me believe that it was all my fault- the problem was me
You convinced me that everything was my fault and I was the problem
go ahead and say what you want to say
Feel free to express whatever you want
I won’t listen anyway ‘cause I know you’re the one to blame
I won't pay attention because I know you are responsible
But how could you go this far?
But how could you go to such extremes?
And act like you don’t remember you left an unhealable scar
And pretend as if you don't recall the permanent damage you caused
But now I’m gonna heal, I’m gonna heal
But now I am determined to recover, I am going to heal
heal, yeah
heal
heal, yes, heal
I’m gonna heal- gonna heal
I am going to heal, I will heal
You always seem to put up quite the show
You always appear to be putting on a significant display
but I see right through you just so you know
but I see your true intentions, just so you are aware
The pain left me numb for so long that I wasn't even sure where it came from anymore
The pain left me emotionally detached for such a long time that I couldn't even identify its origin
I won’t listen (to you), I won’t listen (to you), I won’t listen (to you)
I will not listen to your words
I’m gonna heal (heal) from what you did
I am going to recover from the damage you caused
(from what you did)
(from your actions)
I’m gonna allow myself to heal from it
I will grant myself the chance to heal from it
(from it)
(from the pain)
I’m gonna feel happiness (happiness)
I am going to experience happiness
I’m gonna forgive myself and reach for help
I will forgive myself and seek assistance
I’m not gonna let you ruin this for me
I will not allow you to spoil this for me
I’m gonna stand up for what I believe
I am going to defend my beliefs
I just wanna run up to little me,
I just want to approach my younger self
tell her i love her- she deserved better
tell her that I love her and she deserved better
And when I get the chance to speak to her I’ll let her know she wasn’t the monster and above anything else she’s allowed to heal, yeah
And when I have the opportunity to talk to her, I will assure her that she wasn't at fault and, more importantly, she is permitted to heal
You can say what you want to say
You can express whatever you want
You won’t ruin this for me
You will not destroy this for me
(heal, I’m gonna heal)
(heal, I am going to heal)
You’re the one to blame
You are the one responsible
Now I am gonna heal
Now, I am going to heal
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Sjana Rut
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