All Alone
SkyDxddy Lyrics

Somebody once tried to tell me
Someone once told me not to rely on anyone else.

Don't depend on anybody
Don't count on others for help or support.

Yet I'm begging you for help
Despite this, I am pleading for assistance.

So won't you save me from myself
Can you please rescue me from my own destructive behavior?

Somebody come save me please
Someone, anyone, please come help me.

I'm reaching for your hand to hold
I am seeking someone to hold onto for comfort and support.

To let me know I'm not alone
To assure me that I am not by myself in this difficult situation.

Please anybody try to stop me
Please, someone try to intervene and prevent me from making more bad decisions.

I don't really like to go there
I hesitate to delve into this particular issue or situation.

Cause I don't know how to leave
I do not understand how to escape or exit from this state of mind.

And once I'm in I'm in there deep
Once I become involved, I become heavily invested in the situation.

So it gets kinda hard to breathe
I feel like the situation is suffocating and overwhelming.

I'm all alone again
Once again, I find myself completely isolated and without support.

My so called friends just left me here to bleed
My friends, whom I thought were real friends, have abandoned me in my time of need.

Now I'm laid out on the pavement
I feel like I have hit rock bottom and have nowhere to go but down.

Hoping someone hears me scream
I am hoping that someone will notice my pain and come to my aid.

Each incision represents
Each wound or hurt I have inflicted on myself symbolizes.

A certain secret that I keep
A particular hidden pain or shame that I am carrying within me.

Yeah I make bad decisions
I acknowledge that I am prone to making poor choices.

And I don't know how to grieve
I am struggling with how to properly cope with and process my emotions of loss or sadness.

And though you behaved the cruelest
Despite your extreme cruelty and mistreatment towards me.

I'm the one that truly loses
In the end, it is me who suffers the most and is left with the most pain.

So for me this feels so useless
This situation feels pointless and without hope for me.

Why did you have to do this to me
I am questioning why I have been subjected to this hurt and suffering.

So what are you supposed to do
What is the proper course of action or behavior in this situation?

When you don't wanna wake up
When you are so exhausted and unwilling to face the reality of your circumstances.

When you feel so god damn hopeless
When you are consumed by feelings of despair and defeat with no end in sight.

That you just don't give a fuck
That you no longer care about the outcome or consequences of your actions.

Sick from being up all night
Exhausted from staying up all night, consumed by negative thoughts.

Reminisce in twisted shit
Reflecting on negative memories and past traumas.

Wishin I did somethin different
Regretting past actions and wishing for a different outcome.

Wondering why the fuck I didn't
Questioning and blaming myself for past choices and actions.

Hyperventilating till I have no breath left
Feeling overwhelmed to the point of physical symptoms and exhaustion.

But I'm just adding to the weight
My negative thoughts and feelings are only making things worse.

Of the bricks left on my chest
The heavy burden of my emotional pain and suffering.

The secrets eat up slowly till I bleed
The hidden pain and shame inside me continue to chip away at my well-being until I am completely depleted and drained.

And I hate everything I am
I am disgusted and miserable with who I have become.

Because this wasn't how it's supposed to be
This is not how I imagined my life would turn out and it is a great source of disappointment and pain for me.

So just back up and give me a second to breathe
Please give me some space and time to calm down and collect myself.

See I just need a minute
I am simply asking for a brief break or pause to rejuvenate myself.

I don't want you to leave
Although I need a moment alone, I don't want to be abandoned or left for good.

But this could have been avoided
This could have been prevented or resolved in a better way.

Had you just fucking warned me
If only you had given me some sort of heads up or advice beforehand.

Didn't scorn me and insist
If you had not treated me cruelly and underestimated my situation.

To make me out like a liar
To deny and discredit my pain and suffering.

Leave me to burn in the fire
To let me suffer and struggle without doing anything to help.

As a sat there and scorched
Feeling helpless and trapped while suffering greatly.

Consuming everything around me
My negative thoughts and feelings are taking over my life and affecting everything around me.

Like a human torch
Burning and destroying everything in my path with my negative energy.

Cause only then when you feel
It is only when you are consumed by this level of pain and suffering.

Like you can't take anymore pain
Feeling like you are at the breaking point and cannot handle any more.

Will you gain some perspective
That you will start to have a clearer view of your situation.

And just admit you've gone insane
That you will acknowledge the level of your own emotional turmoil and distress.