Goodbye
Slaughterhouse Lyrics

I remember it like it just happened
I have a vivid memory of that moment

I could've sworn it was a dream
I thought it wasn't real at first

But in reality it hit me like a nightmare
Eventually, I realized it was a terrible reality

Or at least that's how it seemed
It felt so bad I almost couldn't believe it

We was ironing things out, started picking up steam
We were getting our relationship on track

And when we didn't need it is when it all got heated
Things got worse when they should've gotten better

And we both said some things that we probably didn't mean
We both made hurtful comments we regretted later

Then God intervened, guess more was at stake
Something bigger than us was at play

Thought we left nothing over, He put more on the plate
We thought everything had been resolved, but more problems arose

She came home from the doctor with news I've been wanting
She had great news to share

Says family was incoming, she's pregnant, twins coming
She was expecting twin babies

But that's gotta be a lie
He couldn't believe it

She sighed, couldn't stop the tears coming from her eyes
She cried and couldn't hold back her emotions

That birth control she on, for them it's suicide
The birth control would harm the babies

As long as it's still inside, two of them wouldn't survive
The babies can't make it if she keeps taking the birth control

Hard turn from memorable to cynical
The situation changed from happy to terrible

Picturing clothes for what would've been identical
He imagined what the twins would've looked like

Similar outfits, similar names
He had even picked out names and clothes

My deceased kids' ultrasound in a frame
He had a picture of the ultrasound of the babies he lost

So I'm deprived of my chance to be a better dad
He couldn't be a dad to the twins and it was painful

Staring at my twins that I never had
He was thinking about the twins he lost

I shed a tear, looking up in the sky
He cried and looked up to the sky

Even though y'all just got here, goodbye
He was saying goodbye to the twins he never got to meet

My biological sperm donor, didn't wanna be a daddy
His biological father didn't want to be a dad

So he hopped in his Caddy and turned corners on us
He left and never returned

Turned on us out the clear blue
He abandoned them suddenly without warning

His last memory of his son is seeing me through his rearview
His father's last image of him was in his car's mirror

My uncle showed me love no one could know
His uncle was always there and provided love and support

Young and poor with a tougher road
He grew up struggling and facing difficulties

To suffer hunger was nothing but Unc' would hold
His uncle helped them through tough times

Us down, help moms lift the motherload
His uncle supported his mom and helped her raise him

I used to wonder what it would be like to speak to pops as a grown man
He had always wondered what it would be like to talk to his father as an adult

He provided that feeling, told me to take my career into my own hands
His uncle filled the role of father and gave him advice to pursue his career

He was there when I had no fans
His uncle supported him when he had no fans or success yet

A voice says "Your uncle's been diagnosed with cancer"
He received terrible news about his uncle's health

Worst news in my life
It was the worst thing he ever heard

Him and chemo going 12 rounds with a disease and they both losing the fight
His uncle was fighting a losing battle against cancer and chemotherapy

I'm rushing up to Cedars-Sinai
He hurried to the hospital

Praying for a miracle, I don't wanna see my idol die
He prayed for a miracle and didn't want to lose his idol

Before he did, the look in his eyes
Before he passed away, he remembers the look his uncle gave him

Said "Even though you just got here, goodbye"
His uncle said goodbye even though he had just arrived

I'll see you again in the afterlife
He believed he would meet his loved ones again in heaven

Someday in heaven we will reunite
He will see his loved ones again in the afterlife

The flesh disappears but the soul survives
The soul is eternal and survives death

Till next time, my friend, farewell, goodbye
He said goodbye to his uncle until they meet again

I walked in your daughter's house, knowing that you gone
He entered his grandma's house after she passed away

But still looking out the corner of my eye, hoping you on the couch
He hoped he would see his grandma on the couch despite knowing she was gone

That call felt like I was beef that had got shot up
The phone call brought him bad news and pain

Ironic, I was on tour with Tech N9ne and Slaughterhouse
It was ironic that he was on tour with his band during this difficult time

D tried to talk to me, Crystal rubbed my back, as they was pouring out
His bandmates tried to comfort him as he grieved

I caught the next thing soaring out
He left right away to be with his family

Now I'm in the air, in the midwest somewhere
He was flying over the Midwest

They said turbulence was severe, I don't know what they talking bout
He was numb and didn't feel the turbulence

I ain't feel a bump, body numb, mind drifting
He felt disconnected and in shock

I'm sniffling, asthma acting up, I'm whistling
He was having trouble breathing due to his asthma and crying

I'm wishing my mother's face looked so much different
He wished he didn't have to see his mother sad and grieving

I'm kissing my son, my aunt pacing in the kitchen
He was comforting his son while his aunt walked around anxiously

My vision blurry, still I saw your face clear
Despite his tear-filled eyes, he could see his grandma's face clearly

What a loss, this time I did more than waste beer
This loss was more significant than just wasting beer

Michelle's strong, she held on, we got all the way there
His aunt Michelle was strong and supported them through their grief

Then we walked in, she fell on the floor, this ain't fair
His aunt couldn't handle the grief and collapsed

You was the voice when I considered them thoughts that ain't clear
His grandma used to help him think clearly and understand his thoughts

Hey granny, I was fifth row at the Grammy's
He wanted his grandma to know he had a successful career

An award they ain't hand me, but I sat behind Will
He didn't win an award, but he sat behind a famous actor at the Grammy's

And right in front of Wayne, and got seen by the family
He was seen by popular rapper Lil Wayne and his family

I miss the early morning convos, believe me
He missed talking to his grandma in the morning

Regis on the TV, and the best baked ziti
They used to watch Regis on TV and eat delicious baked ziti together

But you had an all white affair, grandpa's all fly
His grandma had a memorable all-white party where his grandpa looked fashionable

Even though you been got there, goodbye
He said goodbye to his grandma even though she had already passed away

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
He was saying goodbye to his loved ones

But it's not the end of the chapter
He believed in an afterlife and that he would meet them again

I'll see you again in the afterlife
He looked forward to seeing them again in heaven