First Love
Slowly slowly Lyrics

First loves don't leave you, the needles & pins
The intense emotions felt during one's first love linger on, causing both pleasure and pain.

My phantom limb likes to cry full of gin
The emotional emptiness left by the first love's absence leads to a constant longing and sorrow, often drowned in alcohol.

She's a molten mistake, lightning blue at the wake
The person associated with the first love is seen as a beautiful but destructive force, evoking mixed emotions.

She just hangs tight
Despite the difficulties and complexities of the first love, the memories and feelings associated with it stay persistent.

And I meant what I said at the foothills
The artist's sincere declarations and promises made during the early stages of the relationship.

Won't you walk me, talk with me, give me tonight
The singer asks for companionship and deep connection, desiring a memorable night together.

Ancient ruins bullied by sky scraper lights
The contrast between old-fashioned, delicate emotions and the overwhelming power of the modern world.

Hungry & homeless I creep into the glow of it's
Feeling lost and in need of emotional shelter, the artist seeks solace in the vibrant energy of the city.

Lonely, dying flame, I think I want to
The artist desires to become the cherished memory that the first love turns to in moments of loneliness and longing.

Be the memory that you turn to
Wishing to hold a significant place in the first love's thoughts, even when they are intoxicated or feeling empty.

When you're drunk and your empty 'cause you're mine
Wanting the first love to feel a sense of ownership and belonging, even in vulnerable states.

But at the same time I want to forget you
Despite the desire for a lasting memory, there is also a longing to overcome the pain and move on from the first love.

Take a gun to the mantle
A metaphorical expression of self-destruction or attempting to erase the memories of the first love.

And spin myself into a storm of grey skies
Seeking chaos and emotional turmoil as a means to distract from the pain and confusion caused by the first love.

I'll climb all the trees and I'll pray for a lightning strike
Yearning for something extraordinary to disrupt the monotony and numbness of life, symbolized by praying for a drastic change.

Tamed into numbness, it's what I have become since
Having become emotionally desensitized and subdued as a defense mechanism after the first love's impact.

The person you recognise
Referring to the transformed self, no longer the same person as before the first love.

First loves conditioned like poisonous fate
Describing how the intense emotions experienced in first love can be both captivating and harmful, shaping future perspectives on love.

With optimism we just contradict
Despite hopeful expectations, reality often disappoints, leading to conflicting emotions and contradicting the initial optimism.

Was I just your mistake, cinnamon to the taste
Questioning whether the artist was merely seen as a temporary indulgence, adding a bittersweet flavor to the first love experience.

Bitter but graceful
Carrying a lingering bitterness while maintaining a sense of dignity and poise.

You know I meant what I said in the moment
Assuring the first love that the expressions of affection and sincerity were genuine during the relationship's peak.

But now I'm pendulum sentiments, swaying while I cry
Having become emotionally unstable and fluctuating between conflicting feelings, resulting in tears and inner turmoil.

Destined for abattoirs, lovers only live
Highlighting the inevitability of heartbreak and the vulnerability inherent in romantic relationships, emphasizing the fragility of love.

A penny for your thoughts, I would kill for a kiss
Expressing a desire to know the first love's inner thoughts, valuing their perspective deeply and longing for their affection.

First loves are lethal, dilute all you like
Warning that initial romantic experiences can be highly potent and impactful, regardless of attempts to downplay or lessen their effects.

Reticent discontent laboured in stride
An underlying dissatisfaction and unhappiness that is carefully concealed and endured, despite being a source of ongoing struggle.

Hear the acid rain dripping down the water pipes to the ocean floor
Symbolizing the corrosive nature of the love's aftermath, as it slowly trickles down and becomes a permanent part of the deep emotional depths.

And I meant what I said you're an angel
Reaffirming the first love's special and heavenly qualities, believing they were divinely sent at a crucial time in the artist's life.

You were sent to me, carefully right at the time
Perceiving the first love's arrival as a deliberate and significant event, occurring precisely when the singer needed them the most.

That I needed a petal to throw into the fire
Having a desire for something beautiful and transient, like a flower petal, to offer up to the flames as a sacrifice.

Something pretty and impermanent that I could admire
Longing for something visually pleasing and fleeting, something that could be cherished for its ephemeral beauty.