Stones
Social Club Misfits Lyrics

I don′t really wanna
I don't want to

Wanna be a wannabe
I don't want to pretend to be someone I'm not

I can see them watching
People are watching me

But you just know what you see
But they only see what's on the surface

Everybody's got their problems
Everyone has their own issues to deal with

So why they throwing stones at me
So why are they criticizing me

I know I'm not perfect
I am aware that I have flaws

But You still said I'm clean
But God forgives me despite my imperfections

Me and God ain't talking much
I am not communicating with God much

I don′t feel like I′m enough
I feel inadequate

Try to smile and say I'm good
I try to put on a happy face and pretend everything is alright

But I feel like I′m giving up
But in reality, I feel like giving up

Every day is another fight
Every day is a struggle

Some days I wish I don't wake up
Some days I don't want to face the world

The other day my Mother called
My mother recently called me

And said she′s worried bout her son
And expressed concern for me

I don't trust in anyone
I don't trust anyone

Switching churches every month
I have been attending different churches frequently

I tried to tell my pastor friend
I confided in a friend who is a pastor

He told me chill, you'll be just fine
He advised me to relax and everything will be okay

What kinda advice is that
But I question the value of that advice

Where do leaders go to bleed
Where do people in leadership positions turn to for help

You mean to say,
Are you suggesting that

Just hide your scars, 'cause no one feels the same as me
That I should conceal my wounds because no one else understands my pain

Dang
An expression of frustration

When are we gonna be real
When are we going to be genuine

I know we got some real issues, but my God, He still heals
I know we face serious problems, but God can still provide healing

I was mentally exhausted
I was emotionally drained

All these songs I kept forcing
I kept pushing myself to write music

I used to say no days off
I used to believe I had to work every day without a break

'Cause I thought I′m supposed to
Because I believed that was expected of me

But that′s not how it works
But that's not a healthy way to live

Jesus often withdrew
Jesus often took time alone to recharge and connect with God

Reconnected to the Father, who am I without You
By reconnecting with God, I found my true identity

I'm done doing this alone, I know my God will come though
I am tired of trying to handle everything by myself, and I have faith that God will help me

I know the valleys don′t last but the warriors do
I know that difficult times don't last forever, but strong people endure

Just wanna walk in my calling, but I get in the way
I want to fulfill my purpose, but sometimes I hinder myself

Sometimes I feel that I'm falling, like I've been led astray
At times, I feel lost and confused about my direction in life

And the world's been a cold place lately
The world has been unfriendly and unfeeling recently

So, I dress warm, trust God, and pray for better days
So, I take precautions, have faith in God, and hope for improvement

Every day I'm reminded of Your amazing grace
Every day I am grateful for God's incredible mercy

But even though I know, I end up falling flat on my face
But despite that knowledge, I still make mistakes

I never want to be somebody I'm not
I never want to pretend to be someone else

So, I pray You keep me grounded, plant my feet on the rock
So, I ask God to keep me humble and rooted in Him

Whenever they try to throw one You just throw up a block
Whenever someone tries to criticize or hurt me, God protects me

Protecting and keeping me from going over the top
Preventing me from losing control or reacting destructively

And as the world turns I'm gonna hold on tighter than
And no matter what happens in life, I will cling to my faith more strongly than ever

I ever have before, I gotta grip like Spider-Man
I need a strong grip, like the fictional superhero Spider-Man

I pray like it's the job I always wanted
I pray with passion and dedication, as if it were my dream job

For love and serenity to be present the way You planned it
I pray for God's love and peace to be evident in my life as He intended

I know sometimes I don't understand it
I know that there are times when I don't comprehend God's ways

But it's the peace of God that surpasses all understanding
But despite my lack of comprehension, God's peace still brings me comfort