Looking For
Sonny Zero Lyrics
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When I was sixteen, thought ′bout when my life would start yeah
If its already started, I'm a goner
Spent all my time and money smoking ganja
I see myself turnin′ into my father
'Cause all I know is self control
And I ain't real on socials, yeah it′s all show
And how come I get anxious when I′m on a phone?
And how can I write love songs when I hate myself this much?
And lately, I been chasin′ something
But I'm not quite sure just what
I been looking for
I been looking for
And when my heart beats out my chest, I just can′t endure
I been looking for
I been looking for
And though I've started on this quest, I just can′t be sure
What I'm looking for
Murderous thoughts in my head
I lived a life on a thread
Then my past isn't one to forget
And I′m stuck inside a city that I hate
And all my fucking friends cannot relate to me
But really I′m a product of my age
'Cause when they end up dead it barely phases me
Like oh my God, who have I become?
I don′t wanna be someone who talks way too much
Don't talk about myself ′cause really, who gives a fuck?
And I'm not sure just what
I been looking for
I been looking for
And when my heart beats out my chest I just can′t endure
I been looking for
I been looking for
And though I've started on this quest I just can't be sure
What I′m looking for
The lyrics of "Looking For" by Sonny Zero express the confusion and uncertainty that the singer is experiencing in their life. The opening lines reveal frustration with someone who is talking about something that the singer cannot understand or relate to. This sense of disconnection and confusion continues as the singer reflects on their own life. The second line reveals that the singer had high expectations for their life at the age of sixteen, but now questions whether their life has truly begun or if they are already on a path of self-destruction. The line "If it's already started, I'm a goner" suggests a sense of hopelessness and resignation.
The following lines suggest that the singer has become trapped in a cycle of smoking marijuana and feeling like they are turning into their father. This could be interpreted as a fear of becoming like a parental figure who made mistakes or experienced unhappy endings. The line "all I know is self-control" suggests that the singer is trying to hold themselves back from engaging in self-destructive behavior. However, the fact that they are not "real on socials" and that they get anxious when on the phone suggests that they still struggle to connect with others.
The chorus, "I been looking for / And when my heart beats out my chest I just can't endure" suggests that the singer is desperately searching for something to fill the void in their life. The line "And though I've started on this quest I just can't be sure / What I'm looking for" further emphasizes the singer's uncertainty and lack of direction. The line "Murderous thoughts in my head" reveals that the singer may be struggling with mental health issues or violent ideations. The final lines of the song suggest that the singer is trying to distance themselves from the self-absorption and meaningless conversations of their peers in search of something more authentic.
Line by Line Meaning
The fuck are you... even talking about?
I don't understand what you're saying.
When I was sixteen, thought ′bout when my life would start yeah
At 16, I wondered when my life would really begin.
If its already started, I'm a goner
If my life has already started, then it's not going well.
Spent all my time and money smoking ganja
I wasted all my time and money smoking weed.
I see myself turnin′ into my father
I fear becoming like my father.
'Cause all I know is self control
I only know how to control myself.
And I ain't real on socials, yeah it′s all show
I don't act like myself on social media, it's just a facade.
And how come I get anxious when I′m on a phone?
Why do I feel anxious when I'm on the phone?
'Cause I been chasing demons, I been chasing ghosts
I've been struggling to overcome my problems and fears.
And how can I write love songs when I hate myself this much?
How can I create beautiful things when I have such self-loathing?
And lately, I been chasin′ something
Lately, I've been searching for something.
But I'm not quite sure just what
But I don't know what exactly I'm searching for.
I been looking for
I've been searching for.
And when my heart beats out my chest, I just can′t endure
When my anxiety peaks, it's unbearable.
And though I've started on this quest, I just can′t be sure
Even though I've started searching, I'm not sure what I'm looking for.
Murderous thoughts in my head
I have thoughts of killing someone in my mind.
I lived a life on a thread
My life has always been unpredictable and dangerous.
Then my past isn't one to forget
My past haunts me and continues to affect me.
And I′m stuck inside a city that I hate
I feel trapped in a city that I don't like.
And all my fucking friends cannot relate to me
My friends don't understand me.
But really I′m a product of my age
My problems stem from the issues and culture of my generation.
'Cause when they end up dead it barely phases me
When people die, I'm not affected by it anymore.
Like oh my God, who have I become?
I'm questioning who I've turned into.
I don′t wanna be someone who talks way too much
I don't want to talk excessively or unnecessarily.
Don't talk about myself ′cause really, who gives a fuck?
I don't talk about myself because I don't think anyone cares.
And I'm not sure just what
I'm not sure what exactly.
What I′m looking for
What I'm searching for.
Contributed by Aaron C. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@danielions
when i was sixteen thought bout when my life would start yeah
if its already started im goner
spent all my time and money smoking ganja
i see myself turning into my father
cuz all i know is self control
and i aint real on socials yeah its all show
but how come i get anxious when im on my phone
cuz i been chasing demons i been chasing ghosts
and how can i write love songs when i hate myself this much
lately i been chasing something yet im not quite sure just what
i been looking for i been looking for
when my heart beats out my chest i just cant endure
and though ive started on this quest i just cant be sure
murderous thoughts in my head
i lived a life under threat then my past isnt one to forget
and im stuck inside a city that i hate
and all my fucking friends cannot relate to me
but really im a product of my age
cuz when they end up dead it barely phases me
like oh my god who have i become
i dont wanna be someone who talk too much
dont talk about myself cuz rlly who gives a fuck
and im not quite sure just what
@m.a6371
When I was sixteen, thought 'bout when my life would start yeah
If its already started, I'm a goner
Spent all my time and money smoking ganja
I see myself turnin' into my father
'Cause all I know is self control
And I ain't real on socials, yeah it's all show
And how come I get anxious when I'm on a phone?
'Cause I been chasing demons, I been chasing ghosts
And how can I write love songs when I hate myself this much?
And lately, I been chasin' something
But I'm not quite sure just what
I been looking for
I been looking for
And when my heart beats out my chest, I just can't endure
I been looking for
I been looking for
And though I've startеd on this quest, I just can't be sure
What I'm looking for
Murdеrous thoughts in my head
I lived a life on a thread
Then my past isn't one to forget
And I'm stuck inside a city that I hate
And all my fucking friends cannot relate to me
But really I'm a product of my age
'Cause when they end up dead it barely phases me
Like oh my God, who have I become?
I don't wanna be someone who talks way too much
Don't talk about myself 'cause really, who gives a fuck?
And I'm not sure just what
I been looking for
I been looking for
And when my heart beats out my chest I just can't endure
I been looking for
I been looking for
And though I've started on this quest I just can't be sure
What I'm looking for
@danielions
when i was sixteen thought bout when my life would start yeah
if its already started im goner
spent all my time and money smoking ganja
i see myself turning into my father
cuz all i know is self control
and i aint real on socials yeah its all show
but how come i get anxious when im on my phone
cuz i been chasing demons i been chasing ghosts
and how can i write love songs when i hate myself this much
lately i been chasing something yet im not quite sure just what
i been looking for i been looking for
when my heart beats out my chest i just cant endure
and though ive started on this quest i just cant be sure
murderous thoughts in my head
i lived a life under threat then my past isnt one to forget
and im stuck inside a city that i hate
and all my fucking friends cannot relate to me
but really im a product of my age
cuz when they end up dead it barely phases me
like oh my god who have i become
i dont wanna be someone who talk too much
dont talk about myself cuz rlly who gives a fuck
and im not quite sure just what
@tiana8782
Y’all gotta stop sleeping on my man Sonny he deserves all the hype
@Phustercluck
Just discovered this song from a seori radio. So chill, it’s been on repeat for a while
@cesmeen
I can't say it often enough this man is s damn underrated
@danielions
loving this song <3
"and how can i write love songs when i hate myself this much
lately i been chasing something yet im not quite sure just what
i been looking for"
@siyu_bb
Lately I’ve been chasing something BUT I’m not sure just what I’ve been looking for
@danielions
@@siyu_bb don't give up, you'll find it
@caelanca
Heavens.
This song!
@darenreycayabyab9881
so lucky to found this gem before 2021 end ❤️
@bakapotato53
Underrated masterpiece