Equinox
Soulstorm & D-Stress Lyrics
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I fear
Sleep paralysis and all of these nightmares
I can't hide
They're right here
I can't sleep when I'm sober
So I drink til I can't keep composure
I'm falling over
Its not fair
Wen I wake up I pour up
Can't remember what I put in this cup
All I kno is that I'm lit I'm fucked up
Im so fucked up can you give me more drugs
Think my guy's running out I might need more plugs
I looked in the mirror and I thought I seen 4 of us
There was 4 of us pour up now there's more of us
Im sipping lean tryna drain all the pain away
Cuz everytime a nigga sober up demons raid my brain
All this alcohol and drugs keep me company
I need them to shield me from the demons that's haunting me
I cant sleep
I fear
Sleep paralysis and all of these nightmares
I cant hide
They're right here
I can't sleep when im sober
So I drink til I can't keep composure
Im falling over
Its sad no one knows
Its not fair
When I wake up I throw up
Still got the drugs in my pocket I ain't finish my cup
Still got this bitch in my bed and all I said was what's up
Sometimes I wish I was dead cuz I feel im not enough
I'm so filled with dread dont know who to trust
Take these lines to the head to shake off all this rust
I can't stop taking these meds cuz this ain't gas it's space dust
You really knew before i said cuz you in the stars when we're high off lust
All this time invested wasted
I'm drinking this liquor thinking
How demons these demons catching me
Satan he's lurking patiently
I find myself back to basis
I find myself hella faded
I look myself in the mirror
And see I'm stuck in The Matrix um
I cant sleep
I fear
Sleep paralysis and all of these nightmares
I cant hide
They're right here
I can't sleep when im sober
So I drink til I can't keep composure
Im falling over
Its sad no one knows
Its not fair
The lyrics to "Equinox" by Soulstorm & D-Stress express the struggle of the singer with sleep paralysis, nightmares, and the desperation to find relief from their inner demons. The song opens with the singer admitting their fear of being unable to sleep, possibly due to the terrifying experiences of sleep paralysis and the haunting nightmares that accompany it. They feel trapped as the fears and anxieties are constantly present, preventing them from finding solace even when they are awake.
To escape this torment, the singer turns to substance abuse. They confess that when they wake up, they immediately reach for a drink to numb themselves. They drink to the point of losing control and seek more drugs to enhance their intoxicated state. The singer finds temporary relief in the altered state of mind where they can escape the demons that plague them when they are sober.
As the song progresses, it becomes clear that the combination of alcohol, drugs, and toxic relationships is a vicious cycle for the singer. They wake up feeling sick, still intoxicated and surrounded by negative influences. The singer expresses self-destructive thoughts and the feeling of being inadequate. They imply that death feels like a preferable alternative to their current emotional state.
The lyrics also touch upon the singer's awareness of their dependence on substances. It is evident that they are aware of the consequences of their actions, but the pain and turmoil they feel are temporarily subdued when under the influence. There is a sense of loneliness as they emphasize that no one truly knows the extent of their struggle.
Overall, "Equinox" delves into the themes of insomnia, addiction, emotional distress, and the constant battle between seeking temporary relief and the desire to numb oneself from the internal torment.
Line by Line Meaning
I can't sleep
I am unable to find rest or peace of mind
I fear
I am filled with anxiety and dread
Sleep paralysis and all of these nightmares
I am plagued by terrifying dreams and the feeling of being immobilized while asleep
I can't hide
I am unable to conceal or escape from my troubles
They're right here
My problems and fears are constantly present and looming
I can't sleep when I'm sober
I am unable to sleep without the aid of substances
So I drink til I can't keep composure
I consume alcohol excessively until I lose control of myself
I'm falling over
I am losing balance and stability in both a literal and metaphorical sense
Its sad no one knows
I feel a deep sense of sadness and loneliness because no one truly understands my struggles
Its not fair
I perceive life to be unjust and unequal
When I wake up I pour up
Upon awakening, I immediately consume alcohol
Can't remember what I put in this cup
I have lost track of the specific substances I have mixed in my drink
All I know is that I'm lit I'm fucked up
I am aware that I am heavily intoxicated and impaired
I'm so fucked up can you give me more drugs
I am so heavily under the influence that I desire additional drugs to intensify my state
Think my guy's running out I might need more plugs
I am concerned that my supplier may no longer have enough drugs, and I may need to find alternate sources
I looked in the mirror and I thought I seen 4 of us
I observed a distorted reflection in the mirror and perceived multiple versions of myself
There was 4 of us pour up now there's more of us
With the consumption of additional substances, the altered state of my mind expands to include a sense of multiplicity
I'm sipping lean tryna drain all the pain away
I am consuming codeine-based cough syrup in an attempt to numb and alleviate my emotional pain
Cuz every time a nigga sober up demons raid my brain
Whenever I become sober, I am haunted and tormented by my inner demons
All this alcohol and drugs keep me company
I rely on the presence of alcohol and drugs to provide me with solace and companionship
I need them to shield me from the demons that's haunting me
I depend on substances to protect me from the relentless torment caused by my inner demons
When I wake up I throw up
Upon waking, I experience nausea and vomit due to the excessive consumption of substances
Still got the drugs in my pocket I ain't finish my cup
I still have drugs in my possession, and I haven't consumed all the contents of my drink
Still got this bitch in my bed and all I said was what's up
I have a sexual partner in my bed without any meaningful emotional connection, my interaction with them being purely superficial
Sometimes I wish I was dead cuz I feel I'm not enough
There are moments when I desire death because I believe I am insufficient and incapable
I'm so filled with dread don't know who to trust
I am overwhelmed by a sense of intense fear and uncertainty, unsure of who I can rely on
Take these lines to the head to shake off all this rust
I ingest substances through my nostrils in an attempt to rid myself of emotional and mental stagnation
I can't stop taking these meds cuz this ain't gas it's space dust
I am continuously consuming medication because it is not a recreational high but a form of escapism from reality
You really knew before I said cuz you in the stars when we're high off lust
You already understood my thoughts and feelings without verbal communication because our intoxication with each other creates a sense of transcendence
All this time invested wasted
The considerable amount of time I have dedicated has been futile and unproductive
I'm drinking this liquor thinking
I am consuming alcohol as a means of contemplation and reflection
How demons these demons catching me
I am deeply troubled and disturbed by the relentless grip of my inner demons
Satan, he's lurking patiently
Satan, the embodiment of evil, is waiting in the shadows with great patience
I find myself back to basis
I rediscover myself, returning to a fundamental state or foundation
I find myself hella faded
I realize that I am immensely intoxicated and mentally impaired
I look myself in the mirror
I confront my own reflection in the mirror
And see I'm stuck in The Matrix um
I realize that I am trapped in a fabricated and deceptive reality
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Written by: Qa'lil Banks
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