The Garden
St. Malaclypse Lyrics

I just planted
I have recently begun to embrace and nurture a personal connection or relationship.

Both of my feet in my mothers garden
I am fully immersed and rooted in the love and support provided by my mother.

I’m tired of shoes
I have grown weary of the materialistic and superficial aspects of life.

I’m tired of carpet
I am tired of the comfort and complacency that comes with a stable and predictable routine.

I think I lost it
I believe I have misplaced or lost a part of myself, possibly due to neglect or distraction.

And I barely started
I have only just begun to realize the significance and potential of this newfound connection.

I take it for granted
I have failed to fully appreciate and value the blessings and opportunities presented in my mother's garden.

All of the things in my mothers garden
I am acknowledging and recognizing the abundance of good and positive elements within my mother's influence.

Why in the world don’t I do this often
I question myself as to why I haven't actively engaged and embraced this nurturing environment more frequently.

I think I’ve hardened
I suspect that I have become emotionally closed off and resistant to vulnerability due to past experiences.

I’m a little guarded
I am cautious and protective of my emotions and trust, choosing to have barriers to shield myself from potential pain.

(Little guarded, little guarded)
Reiterating my state of being cautious and protective, emphasizing the extent of my emotional walls.

But if I could go back
If given the opportunity to revisit the past with the knowledge I now possess,

Change anything in my life
Alter any aspect or event that has shaped my existence,

I would rearrange
I would deliberately and purposefully reorganize and reformulate my life experiences.

Not one second of time with you
However, I would not erase or modify any moment spent with you, as those have been invaluable and irreplaceable.

I’m drinking water
I am indulging and nourishing myself with basic and essential needs, seeking simplicity and purity.

In a couple of days I’ll be turning thirty
In the near future, I will be celebrating my thirtieth birthday, signifying a significant milestone in my life.

Why do I pray when I’m only thirsty
I question the motivation behind my spiritual appeals and reflections, realizing that sometimes they are driven by mere physical desires and needs.

When I’m dirty
During moments of inner struggle or impurity within myself,

Always in a hurry
I perpetually find myself rushing and moving hastily, possibly unable to fully engage and appreciate the present moment.

(Hurry, hurry, hurry)
Expressing a repeated sense of urgency and haste, emphasizing the ongoing nature of my rushed state.

Now I am attractin’
I am now drawing and pulling towards myself,

All of the sun in my mothers garden
All the warmth, light, and positivity present within my mother's nurturing environment is now gravitating towards me.

Not really sure when we ever parted
I am uncertain and unclear about the exact moment or circumstances that led to our separation or emotional distance.

Kindergarten
Returning to a state of innocence, simplicity, and basic understanding, reminiscent of early childhood.

Back to where we started
Reverting to the initial connection and bond we had, retracing our steps to rediscover and rebuild what was lost.

If I could go back
In a hypothetical scenario where I possess the ability to travel back in time,

Change anything in my life
Modify or alter various aspects or decisions that have shaped my life's journey,

I would rearrange
I would intentionally and purposefully reorganize and restructure these significant moments.

Not one second of time
However, I would choose to leave untouched and unmodified every single moment spent together.

If I could go back
In this hypothetical scenario of time travel,

Change anything in my life
Alter and transform various aspects of my personal journey,

I would rearrange
I would consciously and deliberately rearrange and reshape these significant occurrences.

Not one second of time with you
However, I would ensure that not a single moment spent with you is tampered with, as those are priceless and cherished.