My Soul
St. Peter and Paul Cathedral-M Lyrics

I'm all alone and I want to go home
Feeling isolated and longing for a safe haven

But I can't let go of all this pain that I hold
Holding onto deep emotional wounds and struggling to heal

I'm on my own and I just don't know
Feeling lost and uncertain of the future

If I can live anymore with all this hate in my soul
Overwhelmed by feelings of anger and resentment

Your gone and your never coming back again
Grieving the loss of a significant person in their life

I'm still out here waiting so i'm hopping on this track again
Using music as an outlet to cope with the pain and wait for their return

Your lost and i'm never going to find out
Accepting that they will never know the other person's true feelings or whereabouts

Putting it behind me girl i'm going to never mind you
Forgiving and letting go of the past, moving on

Moving forward all the things that I can't hold back
Taking steps towards progress despite personal obstacles

Want to fold under pressure I don't move like that
Resilient and determined to not give up under stress

I've been keeping it in when I think about you
Burying emotions related to the other person

But I know that it will hit me when I mix this track
Using music as a way to channel and confront these emotions

Been wanting all the things that I know I can't have
Desiring what they cannot attain

The things that I hate are the reasons you laugh
Feeling insecure about aspects of themselves that the other person finds amusing

Lately I've been feeling like i'm under attack
Feeling overwhelmed and attacked by negative thoughts and emotions

Reminiscing about the days when we didn't have a past
Longing for a time when things were simpler and uncomplicated

I don't want to be alone
Desire for companionship and connection

I just want to go home
Yearning for a place of comfort and familiarity

I just want to get some credit for the love that I've shown
Feeling unappreciated for the effort put into the relationship

You left me on my own
Feeling abandoned and left to cope alone

I keep checking my phone
Desperately seeking communication and connection from the other person

Trying to see if maybe you've heard all the words that I wrote
Hoping that the other person will recognize and understand their feelings

With all of this hate in my brain
Overwhelmed by negative thoughts and emotions

I got addicted to pain
Feeling trapped in painful emotions and unable to move on

I don't want to get to the point where they don't know my name
Fear of being forgotten or losing their identity

But still want all of my fame
Desire for success and recognition despite personal struggles

So i'm staying in my lane
Staying true to oneself and not compromising for others

I'll never switch for a hater that's going to say that I changed
Refusing to change or compromise for those who criticize or bring them down

Get the fuck away from me
Rejecting negative influences in their life

Say you want a feature bitch but this ain't free
Not willing to compromise their art or time for those who do not value it

I don't need you if you don't need me
Recognizing that a relationship or collaboration requires mutual effort

And I won't be here in a couple of weeks
Not willing to stick around for those who do not appreciate or recognize their worth

I'm moving on like waves in the sea
Letting go of the past and moving forward with life

You're changing so much that I can't even see
Feeling disconnected from someone who has changed beyond recognition

The person that I know you used to be
Feeling nostalgic for a past relationship or connection

Me and you don't equal we
Acknowledge a distance or disconnect between themselves and the other person

No we don't equal we
Reinforcing the recognition of this separation between themselves and the other person

Cause you're too good for me
Feeling inferior or unworthy compared to the other person

I've been thinking for some time and finally now I see
Coming to a realization after much reflection and introspection

That I just can't compete
Recognizing that they cannot compare or compete with the other person

With curiosity
Place of wonder or questioning of the other person's true feelings

So i'll walk this lonely road until you follow me
Holding onto hope for reconciliation or reconnection

And now i'm
Transitioning into a new perspective or realization

I'm all alone and I want to go home
Repeating the initial feelings of isolation and longing for home

But I can't let go of all this pain that I hold
Reinforcing the struggle to release and heal from emotional pain

If I can live anymore with all this hate in my soul
Wondering if they can continue living with such intense feelings of anger and resentment

Cause i'm all alone
Reiterating the loneliness and isolation felt

And I want to let go
Desire to release and move past the emotional pain

But I just don't know
Feeling uncertain or stuck in this emotional state

Do you love me anymore
Questioning the other person's true feelings and connection towards them